LianaMarie248
My First Blog Post on OH
Jan 14, 2011
Today is a good day. I am starting to realize this surgery is the best thing thats ever going to happen in my life (besides love and children and whatnot), but I have been nervous about it for some time now. I am trying to eat a lil healthier now even before the pre-op liquids only diet, but im finding it hard when I am rationalizing that I "need" to eat this tasty slice of pizza because I will never get to ever again. I need to stop thinking this way and thats hard. I think it's the hardest part because food is my "friend" for all intents and purposes, but thats all in my head, I imagine, since it's the reason I am depressed about my weight and size (well I'm to blame for that really, but let me blame it on food so I can get angry at it and not want that icky pizza in my body ever again! lol).So, anyway, I need to have a talk withmy bf pre-op. He's the sweetest guy in the whole world ever (I know..Im biased), but he really is. He loves me for who I am and knewme when I was 175lbs (still big) and not 245lbs (huge!). He says he loves every inch of me...even my "chubbies," as I like to call them. In any case, I need him to toughen up for me and be supportive like he never has before. I know my personality and his and when I want something he gives it to me no questions asked (most of the time), but he's pretty much an enabler when it comes to my food addiction:always bringing me a snack home when he comes home from work at midnight or serving me a giant plate and not batting an eyelash when I go for seconds, etc. I know Im wrong but its hard to justify doing whats right when everything, including my love, says its okay and its acceptable. Im sure he will be here for me no matter what but I want him to smack that burger out of my hand when I give in to my desires. lol. I will try and be as strong as possible and try not to take it out on him when I want something I can't have and Im miserable on liquids because its all a means to the end.
Thanks for listening to me rant! haha. Have a great day. Mine includes cleaning and packing (the non- neccessities) so its done for our move on April 1st (and so I dont have much to do post op) :D
xoxo,
Liana
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About Me
MA
Location
25.7
BMI
Surgery
02/09/2011
Surgery Date
Dec 08, 2010
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