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So it's been a while since I've posted. I'm down to 196.6 :) Made it into ONEDERLAND right before the new year!! Now THAT was a great present. I am very happy with my progress thusfar...I have been slacking with the gym which changed today. I went and also signed up for one month unlimited yoga which I start tomorrow =D

I took yoga in college and loved it...why did I stop after the class? Well, that is changing tomorrow!

I am the maid of honor for my sister's wedding in August of this year (2012)

I was not able to go dress shopping because obviously my body will change in the next 7 months (yay!)

But yesterday she asked me to come braidmaid dress shopping so I can get an idea for the other girls. They looked great and my sister said "hey rach, just try this one on) a-line vneck short dress with a sash around the waste. normally i would look like  a sack of potatoes in this, but to make her happy i tried it on. I HAVE A WAIST!!!! an actual female body shape! it looked beautiful!! it was a 'skinny girl cut' and i LOOKED GOOD IN IT. i couldn't believe it. we decided then and there that it was my dress. ordered it in my current size and will tailor it a month before the wedding. it should be cool to see how much i lost when we take it in! rather buy big than small and i can just remove fabric. not as easy to add it!

it was a great experience for me and i'm so very happy.  my support group has been amazing as well. life is good

Okay so since my angry post I've broken the stall but not by much. But hey, at least the number is going down. I'm now at 205.4 from 234 and that makes me very happy :) my clothes are starting to fit differently but my doctor said to not buy new clothes yet because I will still lost much more weight (gd willing!)

i've stepped up my exercise and fluids and now i need to start kicking up the protein. every meal i have is protein however i'm not sure if i'm meeting the 80-100g needed with excercise. i've been slacking on writing it all down so i need to start that again...

until next time!

okay so i've been at a stall now for over one week....even gained a pound

i'm beyond upset....i never thought i could be thin....and now i feel like the surgery was a waste of time, money, a job, and i cant eat what i want to just sticking with the fluids and smaller portions of protein.


this freaken sucks......i'm seriously doubting that the stall will break.......


body, please prove me wrong....i beg you................................

So my eyes are finally starting to work with my stomach size....and that i'm happy with. weighing my food is definitely helping as well so i can visualize how much i should be eating. i've had a stall the past 3 days...i know its not a big deal...i just want the scale to keep going down! i wish it was a year from now. i need to kick up the exercise now...i've been walking more and it helps that the weather has been beautiful out! did my first shop friday as well....wasn't as hard as i thought. i pretty much stayed towards the protein and veggies...looked at the baked goods and missed them for half a second then moved on lol. it's interesting to see that my body really is craving what it needs and not crap. i find when i eat something with too much fat or sugar i get sick...so it helps me avoid it!

okay that is all for now...until next time!

Hi everyone :) I'm doing well...most of my incisions are completley healed. The one near my belly button is the slowest to heal up. I tried eating an egg and it went down okay...i just have to eat very slowly...i finished about 1/4 of it then put the rest away and had it later on as a meal.

i've noticed that "heavy foods' don't agree with me...they recommend creamy soups post surgery but they seem to make me nauseous...along with the protein shakes. I'm trying to get the shakes in as much as possible because I know I need the protein, but they are now almost intolerable!

to think 15 days after my surgery is thanksgiving...i could've timed this all better LOL

but surprisingly i'm really only craving what my body needs...i asked for dark meat turkey/sweet potatoes/and spinach for thanksgiving. all of which are healthy..and i'll only be able to have a bite of each but i'm okay with that...i think. i've had trouble knowing when i'm full...i definitley do feel hunger around my meal times but its not horrible...i have a few bites of something and it goes away.

the hardest part for me so far has been to leave food over... i feel like i'm eating so little that i should be able to finish it..my eyes are bigger than my stomach still and i have to figure out how to get them on the same page... any hints?

 So I'm down about 11 pounds so far...very happy :) I want to start excercising already to help speed up the process and get healthy! But I have to wait until 4 weeks post op per my Dr. so I'm just walking for now which helps. I realized I haven't had solid food in FOREVER. I can't wait to EAT PROTEIN, not drink it. 

This battle is completely mental....so many amazing unhealthy options out there...but what I'm determined to find are the amazing healthy options. Seems like everybody who succeeds in this has taken up cooking as a passion...now I see why. One needs to cook for themselves to know exactly what goes into it to stay healthy...and it's fun once you get the hang of it. I bought all new cooking devices the other day and I'm excited to start using them! I'll keep you posted on that one lol

That's it for now...remember everybody...stay strong...nothing tastes as good as thin feels!

Down to 225! OKay...now I feel like I"m making some progress :)

So I'm finally home and slept for my first night in three days in my own bed. It was nice to not have nurses wake me up every 2 hours for vitals or to shove me with needles :) I will say though before going to the hospital I had a slight needle phobia....after? I couldn't care less! lol

So I arrived at the hospital Wednesday morning...was taken right in to be checked in, hospital band put on, IV catheter put in and had some blood taken along with a urine sample. They give you a pill that helps nausea for 48 hours, pepcid tablet, as well as xanax to help you to relax. I could not have the xanax due to allergies, so they gave me lavendar aroma therapy and sound therapy to help me relax...surprisingly...it did!

After about a 2 hour wait (surgery was running a little over from the person before me) I was moved to the "holding room" and then into surgery. I will say that it didn't hit me that I was really doing this until I was being helped onto the OR table! Whenever I get nervous I make jokes...apparently when the anesthesiologist was starting to knock me out I said to everyone including Dr. Buchin and Sophia, "I'm going to try to fight the anesthesia!!! 3...2....." KNOCKED OUT. Sophia said I had the whole OR laughing LOL.

My procedure itself took about 45 minutes (usually an hour but it was luckily faster for me!), I had no haital hernia that had to be fixed, so that was good. I woke up in recovery feeling like i REALLY had to pee. I did have the foley catheter in me but it just gave me the sensation that I had to go (even though I already was!)

They had me hooked up to IV fluids and IV pain meds and I could push the button when I felt in pain. The whole time I was never really IN PAIN, but more sore than anything else. I was afraid to look at my scars but I did and they weren't that bad! The night of surgery I  was already up and out of bed walking around the hospital hallways.

However I was very lucky. My roommate was actually the surgery done before me by Dr. Buchin and she is 22 years old and had the same procedure that I did. It was very helpful to have someone to go through the recovery process with. We would do our walks together and try to finish our 1oz cups of crystal light together lol. Dr. Buchin came by once daily to see how we were doing which was very supportive. I also found another person on OH.com and we are hopefully going to go no the cruise together in March! I have found the people going through this experience are so supportive and easy to talk to, I feel as though we will be life long friends :)

I got home Friday evening and had my first night home.....it wasn't too bad but I definitley slept most of the evening/night. I did have the liquid pain meds, however it is 25ml (almost 1 oz) for the dose...so it took me about an hour to finish them and I immediatley passed out. I'm going to try to not take them again because I would rather be full of my liquids then optional pain meds.

This morning I made my first shake (3oz milk, 1 scoop protein powder, 2 tsp fiber, and a smidge of sugar free pudding mix) and it took me a good hour to finish but it wasn't that bad. I then waited 30 minutes and I'm now sipping away on crystal light. My weight going into surgery was 226.9 and it is now 227...I am atributing that to swelling and fluid gotten at the hospital....I'm trying not to get discouraged and I know it's only day three...but I want to see numbers going DOWN not up....even if it's only .1 lol.

Two pieces of advice I will give you pre op patients...they give you something called a spirometer post surgery to breathe into and expand and exercise your lungs...do it ALL THE TIME...it helps your breathing, pain, and oxygen levels in the hospital stay up. When you are in pain you take shallow breaths, that can cause lots of problems...keep with this machine (which I took home with me after the hospital stay) and use it a few times every hour.

Also, it may hurt to get out of bed, but WALK. The nurses tell you to get up and walk and it really DOES make you feel better in the long run. Try to walk every few hours. The more you stay in bed, the worse you will feel. Also brushing your teeth and washing your face really wakes you up and helps to make you feel better as well post op.

Until next time....hoping that number goes down...!

-Rachel

 So I went for my final pre-op appointment today with Dr. Buchin. He went over all of the things that I will be going through tomorrow from walking in to prep..it's hitting me...it's tomorrow!!

After my appointment I stayed for the support group. Everybody there was...so supportive!!! lol They all answered my annoying questions I'm sure they have heard 23487 times....and everyone is so sweet and positive. They really do feel like another family even though I'm just starting to get to know their names!

Okay..well it's time to try to get some sleep before the big day....goodnight...and I hope my next post will be a positive one!!!

So I am 4 days PRE surgery..liquid diet...and I had craving for Taco Bell.

Having the will power is difficult enough alone...but after working 9-4 today, I coincidentally was asked to bring home taco bell by a family member. It is one thing to just drive by taco bell on the way home from work, it's another to go through the drive through and order for somebody else. This person knew it was hard for me but they had no car. It shouldn't be that difficult for me to do someone a favor. 

I drove through and ordered for that person....I was hungry because I was almost due for another shake...and I swear I could smell and identify every ingredient coming through that drive through window. My sense of smell has become RIDICULOUS.

I was able to not get anything and drive the food home. Now some people reading this may not think this is a big deal. However they are mistaken. I have not had real food in half a month...this is the one place I would go to as a treat to myself once every few weeks...and now I couldn't. Hunger was set in...the bag of food just staring at me from that passenger seat...I had to open all of my windows in my car and breathe out of my mouth to drive it home! Is that crazy?????

I brought the food inside upset, frustrated and still hungry. I immediatley signed onto OH.com and started reading forums and blogs and seeing that there are other people out there going through the same thing and all pulling through, it made me feel relieved.

If I had eaten that taco bell, I would have felt so guilty afterwards, instead, I feel so impowered because I was able to stand up to MYSELF. This is just one small step before surgery...but one huge step for myself and for my future.

I can do this.