Moving Forward

Jun 28, 2010

Well, I wish I could run the clock back to Feb 2009, but I can't.  My husband was laid off in March, 2009 and didn't find work until august of 2009 (thank goodness), but it involved me quitting my job and relocating.  I was all for it.  I wanted to quit and go back to school and get a new career.  I have enjoyed the time off, but am now just getting into school and during that time, I didn't have the regimine of breaks and no time to really eat whenever.  I was feeling good about myself and ate what I wanted, when I wanted and my "cast iron" pouch didn't object, I kept at it.  I have gained 17 pounds in 9 months!  It is horrible. 

The problems as I see them now looking back is that I didn't pay attention to how much or what I ate.  I didn't have easy access to my scale and believe it or not that matters!  If you can ignore the scale and your clothes are big enough you don't see that your body is changing.  It was when my shorts came out and were tight when before they just hung on my hips that I realized the error of my ways.  

Now, I am struggling to find my good habits again.  I have a doctor's appt in early september and I want to have a majority of this weight off. I believe the keys are going to be.  1.  Protein drinks (which I don't mind) 2. Journaling and 3. Exercise.  And I am resisting...and losing time everyday!

So, as of today, I weigh 235 when I was at 217.  I was so close to being under 200!  I can do this!!!!

Another thing that hurt me was I left my support system.  I didn't go on this site much or attend support groups.  I need to add that as a change to get back to:  4.  Support groups -

I continued to take my vitamins, drink my fluids and eat my protein.  But I added sugar, carbs and didn't exercise.  I want to blame and blame, but I need to drop it and move forward from this point on.  Call it a fresh start. 

So, I plan on being here more and reporting in to keep it honest and be honest with myself.  I won't go back.  Not ever!


 

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