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  Well it’s been a slow but steady process. I made the decision to get my post delivery weight off, and I have been making very conscious steps toward that goal. I have gotten some excellent advice and go to references to look into from people on this site. (Molly) I have started with the most basic rule I was breaking after I became pregnant. I started drinking with my meals. Now I wait at least 30 minutes like we were taught before we had the surgery. This little step has helped me stay full longer, and therefore not want to snack 30-40 minutes after a meal. I have also stopped drinking soda, and eating my toast for breakfast, and snacks. I had developed this little addiction to Italian white bread from Wal-Mart. I would pop two slices in for breakfast, and then two more at lunch. Its fast and what else would I have time for with an over active baby who insist on behind held all day (spoiled). However, I also picked up less junk when I went to Wal-Mart today. I didn’t buy my snack cakes, and other treats. I purchased more fruit’s, and nuts.   My goals for next week is to start walking at least three days, and go from there. I’m setting realistic goals, and just trying to be faithful to them. I also have been taking my vitamins daily. The only downside for me is vitamins make me even hungrier. However, I have been able to ward of the hunger thru prayer, and just telling myself it’s just the vitamins not really a need to hit the kitchen. I will not even entertain the scale until I feel a great difference. I’m not going to get caught up in numbers right not. I know I can’t exercise the way I want to without a gym membership so I can’t burn or shed the pounds as fast if I was going so I’m going slow. I pray this journey takes me to where I need to be for good health. The vanity side is just a bonus in my book!

Hello,

It has been a long time since my last post! I have been enjoying life a new mother. My son Gabriel is seven months as of July 1st. He was born for those of you don't know December 1, 2010 @ Park Plaza Hospital in Houston, TX @ 0718 at 6 lb 11.5 oz via an emergency c- section (Ouch)!!! I have only a few pictures off my little man up. I have not had time to hook up the camera to upload off those photos but I will. (I hope)!!!!

I have been living life to the fullest but now, and just now am I ready to start getting my physical health back in shape. I work at night, and the days are so cruel. When I get off at 7 o'clock I just want to sleep, but Gabriel has other plans. I find myself snacking all day on the wrong things. When we go to the store I don't even have the will power to not throw all kind of crazy things in the cart. My sweetie just looks at me and smiles he say " You know what your doing"! I get mad but hey I'm at home all day with a very active baby who takes no doze and coffee just before I get off from work so he can stay up and play with mommy all day until dad gets home and takes ever. I'm so tired I can't even find the strength to put him in the stroller and walk. I had all my labs done and everything was in the gutter. The doctor said he doesn't know how I'm not in a ditch!!! I was so deficient that I needed prescription everything from B-12 to Iron. Thank God for flex spending account on all those meds plus the B-12 is not covered anymore so not I have to pay out of pocket for it, and the needles one shot every 15 days.

O.k. so now I'm looking for ways to get back on track. I might do the message boards or seek out a support buddy to help hold me accountable. Here are my stats!!

Pre-Op: 412
Day of Surgery: 386
One year ann: 265
Lowest: 226
Pregnancy: 234
Delivery day: 271
June 2010: 261

I want to thanks those of you who on the backline knew about the baby and sent gift's or cards. I pray that everyone is doing well in their journey.

Lesley

However, it’s not bad for a five month pregnant woman. Yes, you read right I’m five months pregnant. I’m so overjoyed words can not express how happy we are. My entire family though I was never going to have kids. Then right after my 34 birthday it happen. So I’m going to be a mother. I have had a wonderful pregnancy other than the constant morning sickness I have been truly blessed. I have only thrown up once but that was due to drinking while eating (surgery rule). I’m due December 16^th. I’ll be having my baby at Women’s Hospital in the Houston Medical Center.

 

I try to get by this page more but life happens, and when it’s good you sometime forget to keep up with the other parts that also matter. I will try to put up ultrasound pictures this week. I have been so busy picking out nursery, stroller, baby bed stuff I have not sit down long enough to place the pictures on the web to share with my OH family. I hope that everyone is stead fast on their journeys and that life is treating you well. As for me and my fiancé a big wedding is no longer in the picture but something small and intimate with just our family since our new addition will be here before we planned on getting married. I’ll try to keep you guys posted.

 

PLEASE feel free to send me emails of all your motherly advice, as I have not changed a little boy diaper ever. My mom is so tickled at how terrified I am at getting pissed on. She said once it happens to me I’ll be fine!!! I’m not scared its just not knowing is what gets me. Either way I can’t wait for this little man to make his entrance into out lives. He is so loved already, and I can’t wait to meet him on that special day. I think it’s going to be before my due date, and I gotten ready for him anytime he comes. I just hope he makes after Thanksgiving but before Christmas not being picky (wink)!!!!

Wow,

 

It has really been a minute. I have been so busy, and just enjoying this NEW YEAR!!! I had foot surgery on January 19^th, and have been on the road to recovery. I just got into a shoe for my birthday on March 2^nd. I went to Disney World for 7 days, and had a wonderful time. I have so many pictures to post. I will be doing so TODAY. I have only gotten down to 230 lbs from my high of 412 lbs. I could have done better but with breaking my foot for the 3^rd time in a year it has been hard. I have broken the same foot 3 times, and finally had to have so corrective work done. This last break was the day before Thanksgiving the week before finals. I wasn’t able to take one final do to my non-weight bearing status. My professors would not let me handle the “patient” with a walking boot, and crutches. I have a few more months to finish that class.

 

I had to sit this semester of school out to get my foot worked on. The surgery was very painful, and I could not have done it if it were not for my boyfriend. He took the most excellent care of me, and spoiled me rotten. This surgery has gotten us so close. He joined my church, and the fact that we now Worship “Together” is an amazing feeling. He proposed to me the day he joined my church no “OUR” church. I was so moved to tears. It was the proposal a woman would want. I don’t have a date set but I will keep you posted. We are just taking it slow. So as you can see I have been so busy with my NEW life that I can hardly think to write in my blog to keep everyone updated.

 

I pray that everyone is in the best of health and spirit. As for me I might not be at goal but the love, peace, happiness, and joy I have are so abundant that as long as I maintain, and not move up on the scale I’m already BLESSED ahead of the game. I still have my days when I eat like I never had surgery. But I know when it’s time to think about getting in a Wedding Gown I will loose my mind trying to get a few extra pounds off. I’m in 14’s I would be in 12’s if I didn’t have so much extra skin from the weigh I have lost. I’m not worrying about any plastics right now because I know a baby is in my near future Lords will so I’ll wait for all those lift’s and tucks after I’ve a my kids. I’m still young; I just turned 34 so I got a few years to finish up this journey.

 

Be Blessed

It has been a long time since I have updated my page. I have been so overwhelmed with school it’s unbelievable. I go in for 7:30 am – 8:00 am and I’m leaving about 8:30 or 9:00 pm. If I would have known that it was going to be this hard I would have chosen another profession to go into. My boyfriend so understands he has been my rock in these really hard times. These six months we have been dating have been moving by so fast.

 

I lost all my living room due to Hurricane Ike. The ceiling collapsed in during the storm, and I have been so busy that I have not been able to get all the repairs completed to date. I am thankful that I was not home when this happen but you can’t imagine my shock to walk in my home after the storm to see my entire living room trashed with the remnants of the ceiling the debris fell so hard it slide my 57 inch television all the way up against the wall from the edge of the entertainment center.

 

I have been managing to loose a few pounds here and there I’m down to 230 lbs from 412 lbs. I wanted to get down to 195-175 but know that is not going to be a good look for me since I am almost 6 ft tall. I’m starting to get that sick look, and the famous you’re getting to small you need to stop loosing weight seems to be the norm from everyone around me.

I have aged from the stress of school, and dealing with my loss since the storm. I don’t like how I look in the face, and that’s due to not getting enough rest. I’m working 16 hour days Friday, Saturday, and Sunday so I don’t really have anytime to myself. I’m surprised I have time for a relationship with my schedule.

 

So much has happened since my last update I couldn’t possible write it all, I’d need an entire day to write. I thank all of the people who sent me backline messages to check on me after the storm, and those who called and I was unable to return them due to one thing or another. Charge it to my brain, and not my heart Donna, and Faith!!!!!!!!!! Love you guys, and thanks for all the prayers….. BAF really has some wonderful people.

 

I am looking forward to December 12^th the last day of school. It was going to be the 8^th but thanks to the storm that has now changed. I’m going on a few mini vacations while I am out. My sweetie and I went to South Padre in July, and I have been to Las Vegas twice this year. I went in May, and had such a wonderful time I went back in August the week before school started. I have a few pictures of me in my first swimsuit in like ten years. I was sitting on the side of the pool, and a very handsome white guy leaned down gave me a high five, and said nice! I guess he like thick women who know. I live my life to the fullest, and everyday is a pure joy just to be alive. When you live through the storm like Ike you come to appreciate the little things. I knew people who didn’t make it through the storm, and even thought there gone their not forgotten. God has a plan for us all, and I do my part daily to be ready for when ever he calls me home.

 

This journey has taught me so many things about myself, and life. If I could do it all over again I would in a heart beat. I have no regrets everything happens for a reason. I do make time for church on Wednesday nights, and that is like the sweetest time in the week now. To be able to praise, and worship with my boyfriend has really brought us even closer over the last few weeks that we have been going. I had to make time for church. I was missing it due to work, and school then finally I said all not done by 7 o’clock won’t get done I have to go because God has been too good to me.

 

I wish everyone the best on their journey, and know that it’s only what you make of it, and not a thing less. Keep God first, and all else will fall exactly where he so desires.

Hey family I forgot to share my great new. Last month on April 12, I was accepted into the Physical Therapy Assistant Program. I am looking forward to the challenge. I will be going to school full time, and working part time. I am more excited to get away from my job through the week, and only work on the weekends. I uploaded a few pictures of my celebration dinner. My two coworkers who I have girls night with came out, and one of their sisters. My sisters, and my ex boyfriend two sisters came out. We had the most wonderful time. I will put up more pictures when they are developed from that night.

Well here I am back from Las Vegas my first vacation since weight loss surgery! Oh, boy I think my pouch is a drunk. The whole vacation she only wanted to drink, and not eat. I ate the bare minimum at meals. However, I was able to finish off every drink that was purchased. I think I gained 15 lbs from alcohol alone. Las Vegas is the place to be to walk and drink up, and down the street. You can even get on some bus with an open container “Depend on the driver”! I had a blast. I’m going back in a few months to get it out of my system again before school starts.

 

Donna thank you for the warm compliment’s and shout out you gave me on your page. Girl, your more than welcome for as you say southern hospitality. I had a great time meeting with you as well. I haven’t forgotten about you I promise to hit you up when I slow down from my trip. Girl you gotta go to Vegas!

 

I have not been working out because life has been so hectic since getting accepted into school I have been on the grind getting everything taken care of for that.

 

Today is the last day of school so I will be celebrating tonight pretty tough.  However, I have a tone of energy since I have been taking my vitamins, and water like a mad woman. I was able to walk up, and down the Vegas Strip in heels. Even the skinny women were like how you do it. I just laugh and say you should have seem me a year ago this was not even possible. Everywhere we went I took the stairs because I knew the alcohol was a tone of empty calories. I didn’t feel any pain from all the walking every night I went to bed like it was a normal day. If you never been to Vegas go just once to treat yourself. It’s well worth it.

 

I up loaded a few pictures that my friends took thinking they were cute of me drinking everyday. Notice the different outfit “new day new drink”. The Eiffel tower drinks were so good for $15.00 it needed to be. The drink on top of the Stratosphere was so dang strong my eyes tell it all. More pictures to come when there developed if I can slow down long enough to put them on the page.

 

Today back to the gym, and I am so proud of myself that I am on the vitamin and water horse. Until next time I pray all is well with everyone, and their journey is only getting better. As for me I can’t complain life has been blessed. I woke up this morning so I’m already ahead of the game. God is able is all I tell myself when the road gets tough.

 

 

I have not been myself these last few weeks, and I don’t know when I will come around. I have recently had life events that have consumed me to the point of a mental over load. I have went days with out eating, and drinking. I have been healed from that now. Praise God! I have always been one of those people who take how other people act to heart. Even though I can’t control how other people treat me I take it personal, and allow it to affect my life more than it should.

 

Critical observation! I now have a lot more attention from the opposite sex. It has been good attention. However, not all men have showed me the respect that I would like. I have been on so many dates, and I’m tired already. I hate the dates you go on with expectations based off the phone conversation only to be terribly disappointed when you spend time with them. I have guys walk up to me everywhere I go, and start conversations with me. We exchange numbers, and it shoots to hell fast for one reason or another. I don’t think that I’m cut out for this dating world of 2008. I’m a simple woman who knows what I want. When I address the issues it seems that based off my strength they become intimidated by what I’m looking for. I’m not even talking about a husband just who I want to date. I have changed my standards on who I entertain. I have a fresher outlook on life since my WLS. I know what “MY” man needs to posses in order to make me happy. God will you send my HUSBAND to me?  

 

I am so thankful that with this surgery it has given me an eternal strength that has allowed me to not RUN to food in times of adversity. I notice that this last incident has caused me to not even want to eat. That is a REALLY big change from the old Lesley. No Weapon Preformed Against Me Shall Prosper. God is MY Strength and Salvation.

My how time flies! Yes I made one Year out on March 26^th Praise The Lord!!!! I am down a total of 147 lbs. I feel like a new woman to say the least. My health is the best it has been in over ten years. I’m dating now after a five year relationship that ended several months back. I’m not a big fan of what I see out here but I have faith that God is able to send me “My Husband!” I have one guy that I’m dating and I really like him. I have put it in God’s hands and know that if this is his will it shall be done.  

 

Clothes I was wearing a size 30/32 for over seven years. For my 33^rd birthday March 2^nd my outfit was a size 16 from Avenue. I cried tears of joy just to be able to wear something that didn’t look like a tent when you held it up. I have a few pictures that I’m going to add to my profile. I found some before pictures that will show you why I NEEDED this surgery. I have been under sever stress lately, and went about a week without eating or drinking. God’s will is the only thing that sustained me through this time. I did lose some weight but I know that is not how I want to lose my weight through starvation. I just could not make myself eat or drink. The though of eating made me sick to my stomach so I wouldn’t. My life has been so hectic that I have only been making it to the gym about once a week. This week will be better for me I know this. I have started drinking one protein shake every morning {Unjury Chocolate}. I eat my lunch and no dinner. I don’t eat any sweet’s {Praise God} I would have been running to get my hand on junk when I got stressed before this surgery. Now my mind and body just shut down to the point where I can’t make myself eat.  

 

This journey was not easy to say the least but it is well worth it when you see where you are vs. where you use to be. I thank God for blessing me to still look nice in the face. I use to get upset when some of the other people monthly weight loss ran circles around mine. But now when I see their face it has that “OLD” look that scares the crap out of me. I know that losing my weight slower has kept my face pretty, and full looking. I’m not bragging I just happen to be in love with myself “NOW!” Well I promise to stop by, and update more often. I have lots to share, and the most amazing wow moments. Until next time Be Blessed. 

 

Hugs, 

 

Lesley 

 

Here are my numbers for those who might have stop by for the first time I'm 5'9 so i carry my 265 well Lol! 

 

Consult 412 lbs.

Day of Surgery 386 lbs.

One Year Anniversary 265 lbs.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

 

I just wanted to say that I have been off the wagon for sometime now, and need to get refocused. Now as far as my pouch goes it has me full all the time I just need to learn how to stop eating before I am stuffed. I am making an appointment today with a doctor who specializes in eating disorders. I need to get this emotional eating under control. I feel like such a failure when I see people on the board who have lost damn near 200 lbs in one year. Then considering I was a heavy weight I should have lost more in my first year to get to my goal. I really took this weight loss surgery for granted now I see you really have to put in what you want to get out of this surgery. Even though I look nice I could look better. I won’t beat myself up I will pick myself up, and move forward to do better this next year.