10/4/05

Oct 03, 2005

Sorry I have'nt posted in awhile. I've been remolding my hallway. Really just tryin to keep myself busy.I have been going through some depression lately. I see so many people out doing what they want to and that makes me jealous. I wanna be that person. I have the right to be happy and feel good. I thought well i'll go get my hair cut and highlighted and..............still depressed. My hubby is so supportive ,He tells me it's gonna be ok. I just start cryin over the smallest things anymore lol.........I'm ON EFFEXOR you would think this would help......Maybe it's just all thats been going on. Next week samantha will be out for a week,I hope I feel well enough to take her to the mall. I haven't heard anything from my insurance.............maybe later...well gotta fix supper

9/27/05

Sep 26, 2005

Time seems to be going so slow. I have tried to keep my mind off the surgery but I keep thinkin .............will I........won't I..........be aloud to have it. I don't no if I have enough co-morbities or not. My doc said I was an execellent canidate. So did my surgeon and the nut and the psych did also. I have such a wonderful support system. My hubby and daughter are number one!!! I really don't no how long insurance takes but........I think this should be treated like any other surgery 30 days max.....It's like you tell someone you want this so bad and then they say "Well if you wanted to loosen the weight you could......some can do that but I have tried over........and over. I feel like thats the people I don't want to be around. I tell myself everyday to leave it in the lords hands. Samantha keeps saying mom why do you need this surgery I love you the way you are. I tell her I need a chance to be happy with myself. Well time to get......sleep

9/24/05

Sep 23, 2005

Well I have been keeping myself busy. I just don't want to get over whelmed with emotion.This week has been stressful,trying to get all the paper work turned in from all my docs.....plus that crazy psych test......I hope I never have to go back to that doc..I no that I could use some counciling, but not from him. I will be starting my support group in a few weeks. I figure even if I haven't had the surgery yet that this is a good way to get all my questions answered. I'm just glad I will have someone I can call when I need them. I'ts so hard to find people that care these days.....some are just to busy. Thats why I love this site,so far all my questions have been answered. Today me and hubby went to amish country to get veggies....and jerky. That stuff is great! Well I'm tired nite.........

9/21/05

Sep 20, 2005

I got my sleep study in the mail today.This was so quick,I just had the study Sat Sept.17th.Well I don't have sleep apnea.I do snore and have lots of leg movement.They also said I have 8 out 14 items on a depression inventory and if left untreated I could suffer from loss of sleep( i do take effexor) This has helped me have energy.Dr.Bolars office assis.. called and is going to send in all my paper work to the insurance comp...this week. She said with UHC I should here something in about 3 to 4 weeks.SO the waiting game has begun.........wait.........wait.........wait.So I'm gonna try and keep my self busy.I also am tryin to break my habit of diet pop i drink like 3 daily.Thats not to bad but........after surgery no more pop.

Things I can cross off my list

Went to seminar*
Had my consultation**
Had my nut eval***
Had my psych eval****
Had my sleep study****
Got all the information to provide to insurance comp.*****
Waiting on APPROVAL?????????????????????????

9/20/05

Sep 19, 2005

Today I had my nut meeting it went very well. I seen Jennifer Sams in Dr.Bolars office. She was very sweet. She took her time and went over what I would need before the surgery and when I got home. She told me how much protein I would need daily and 64oz. of fluid daily.She interduced a sample menu like 1 mo out then 2 then 3 and so on. I ask her what kind of vitamens I needed she's like flintstone chewable ,and b-12 under the tongue. I have to say that i had done my research on about all this ....but it is nice to have someone who you can talk to face to face. I also had
my psych eval.....it did'nt go as I planned...it was tough. Dr.Steger gave me my eval. First i had to take like a 500 question test i guess you would say, which i answered just about over half false.The questions was like have you ever thought about suicide.Have you ever borrowed money and never payed it back. Do you have trouble paying your bills.Do i get mad when I drive and try to get physical with other drivers. Do I get blurred vision.Just alot of questions.Then i went back to talk to Dr.Steger ,He seemed very polite. Then he started out asking about my childhood.Then my preteen yrs,and then my marriage. I was like well this seems to easy then............he said how long have you been over weight? What have you done to lose the weight. I said atkins,merida,xenical,topamax,diabetic diet........He said why haven't those been successful? Then he wanted to no what i eat on a daily bases. I told him and he was like why do you eat that stuff you need to eat in moderation. Duh.....i already new that...I was grilled by him for like 1hr 15 min. Then he said well i will pass you but get off your fat lazy butt!!!!! Well thats all i did ,Then it was good bye lol..........I hope I really did pass!!!!!Now I will have to wait on my sleep study test, then I will go from there.Well i gott go........night

9/19/05

Sep 18, 2005

Well I had my sleep study this weekend. I went in at 9:30 and got all the paper work filled out,then they took me to my room. The room was just like a hotel room.I thought it was quiet nice. The nurse came in and help me get ready for all the wires that would be hooked up. First they have you sit in this chair,then they start puttin the wires on your head,they used this goop that made them stick to your head it was like 5 hooked to your head. Then they rubbed this stuff on your face and hooked like 8 sensors to your face. I had like 5 on my neck and 2 behind my ear,then they put more sensors on my chest and legs.I was like how many more, then i had 4 on my legs. Then 2 belts tightly around the chest.Then he said get comfortable. So i got in the bed turned on tv. Then he went out and told me over the intercom in my room to close my eyes then blink my eyes . Next to move my right leg then my left. He said ok done....he said we have a camera on you the entire time you are asleep. I was like ok....then i watched tv till i feel asleep.It was hard to sleep. But they said i slept...now i go back tues to get psych eval and to see nut. I'm so tired lol so many trips to lex.I'm just glad i don't have to travel out of state.Well i guess i need to get off this comp...playing eye tricks on me.........

9/17/05

Sep 16, 2005

I haven't updated for awhile so..........I have my sleep study tonight and then I go back Tues. I hope they will have my study records in. I have been so tired........I keep hoping that this will help me get my life on track. I have great support but I just have the blahhhhhssss.Samantha starts cheerleading soon I just don't want her to see me like this all the time.I no it's not good for her to see me like depressed. I went and seen my family doc....she put me on 125mg of effexor. I was like here we go again ........I have been on alot but nothing works.....prozac,wellabutrin,topamax, all had no effect on me. But i do have more energy on effexor.well I have to go get stuff ready for sleep study.......

9/13/05

Sep 12, 2005

I have been so busy tryin to get all the paper work done and turned in.I had my endocrinoligist write a letter with all my co-mobids and that he stands behind me. Dr.Miers is a very good doc.I have his support. I will have my sleep study done this sat.the 17th......I hope I can sleep.I'm so used to havin my hubby right beside me lol. Today Samantha said mommy after you have surgery and feel good can we go ride horses. It was like my heart broke ,not only am i suffering my whole family is. Steven has so much energy and samantha does to,its hard to keep up with them. I just want to feel great! Like when i was 18 lol. I will keep you guys up to date .......night

Top 10 things i wanna accomplish in the next 12 months

1. Feel Great!!!!!
2. Being able to go shopping for small clothes!!!!!
3. Taking my daughter on bike rides!!!!!
4. Go hiking!!!!!
5. Just go out and have fun!!!!!
6. Go to amusement parks and ride rides!!!!!
7. Go walking without being so tired
8. Riding horses!!!!!
9. Better Sex!!!!!
10. Just having a life!!!!!!!!!!!!!

9/7/05

Sep 06, 2005

Well today has been a busy day.Dr.Bolars office called and wanted to set up my sleep study. I was like man this is going so quick. I just have read so many profile where it took a year or months...They gave me sept.17th for my sleep study. I think after the sleep study they will submit all the paper work to my insurance company then the hard part begins.........wait............wait...........wait.....I just want this so bad. I told my daughter about the surgery and how i may need her to help me and do alot more till after a couple of weeks after the surgery(she said she will help)she is such a little lady! My hubby stands behind me 100% well gotta make dinner.

9/6/05

Sep 05, 2005

Today I had my consultation with Dr.Bolar. He took alot of time explaining the whole process to me. First I had all my paper work filled out,so that saved alot of time. He ask me why I thought i needed this surgery,I told him that i'm just so tired of being over weight and i have a 10 year old daughter that is very active.Then we went over the procedure and how the sugery is done and how long it takes to do the sugery. The hospital stay is 2-3 days. After i meet with him ,I then meet with the lady who takes care of insurance issues. She gave me like a small quiz on what i new about the surgery( thank goodness i have this board) i missed 1 thats great 1 out of 20. Then i gave her all my documentation on my medical history. After she reviewed all the papers,she set up my nutritonal evaluation and my psych evaluation for Sept.20 at 10:00 a.m. I have done all i can do to get this approved,now i'm just gettin ready for all the test. well gettin sleepy ......night

weight=235lbs
blood pressure=130/78
height=5ft 4 in

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danville, KY
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10/24/2005
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Sep 01, 2005
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