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If you fall off, you've got to pay the piper so I did in the form of 1.8 lbs although I was quite bloated this AM.

I had a really depressing memory...

Every football season I watch the NY Giants.  Whenever they introduce the starting lineup and show their weights, I always notice that I weigh more than most of those burly, full grown men who have almost a full foot on me.  That is really depressing.

My goal is this...by kickoff on the first full season game for the Giants, I will not weigh more than anyone besides the QB or the RB!!!! 

I kickstarted the day at 254.6.  Not too bad considering I started at 262.8 on Monday.  I'll take a little over 8 lbs.  Party today.  Egads!  That is enough to keep me on the straight and narrow.  At least somewhat.

Several hours later...

Went to the party. Ate and drank.  Big lesson...when I get banded, I am really not missing as much as I think I will be.  I think I am going to be just fine ultimately.  :-)

This AM scale said 256.4, good direction.  I am not sure why I am weighing because I was not tolad to lose weight pre-op, I just know that a 1000 calorie diet is making a difference.  I have often wondered if this boosts the surgeon's success rates in this office.  You know, if I lose 10 lbs pre-op then 1 mth out, I am down 20 lbs.  Dr can then say it is due to surgery, but not really.  If I am a potential patient am I really caring about when the 20 lbs was dropped.  Well. to be fair, I didn't see any success story info from this office so, maybe it is in't the case.  Maybe.

In any event, I followed everything to the T today.  I am going to a party tomorrow and am not promising anything.  I will try to hold myself back as much as possible, but no promises.  One day of indiscretion will not hurt, right?  Hope 12.5 days of defatting the liver is enough. 

Today I started out by weighing 258.4.  Couldn't understand how the .4 crept in there, but no matter, right?  Wrong...

This is a serious test for me.  I usually eat everything in sight before TOM and I am struggling.  I fell off today, not going to lie.  I had meat today.  Chicken and turkey meatballs.  I had tzatzki sauce and spaghetti sauce (sauces respectively on the meats.  I only had 3 slim fasts today to try to offset.  I really struggled today.  Damn that chicken salad was AWESOME!!!  Mostly veggies, I will say, just enough for 2-3 people!

I will dust myself off for tomorrow and begin again.  I know this is very psychological too because at my pre-op appt, the nurse said that most lapbanders are not doing the pre-op diet.  I think my original thought was, "Then why the hell am I?".  Then I asked her if one day off, which will be Saturday at a party, is bad and she said no.  So, why did I start eating today?  Who knows.  It is such a braingame!!!

I am still eating on Saturday, but I will only let myself go a very little bit.  I think any other day I will be okay.  I was just off today and thrown off on top of it. 

Yummm, love sauteed kale with oil spray, shallots, onions, and fat free dressing drizzled on, seasoned with Mrs. Dash's Lemon  Pepper & MD Steak Seasoning.  I never knew veggies could be so good.  

I can't say I am not feeling the struggles with hunger, however, I am hanging in there quite well.  I weighed in at 258 today so, just 3 days in and I have lost 4.5 lbs already.  Pretty cool.  I wish I could stick to this without surgery hanging over my head.  :-)

It's all good.  My liver will be so lean they will be amazed.  I am trying not to hate on the fact that some drs don't even require the pre-op.  I guess this will ensure that all goes well.  Ugh.  LOL!

So now I have something new I like to eat for now at least.  Itis going to sound gross, but when you are hungry, you'd be surprised.  Here it is...baby carrots dipped in Gulden's mustard.  Yep.  LOVING it.  If I can only have 2 c. of veggies for the next 2 weeks, this will do just fine.  Yummy.  LOL!

Weight today 260.2.

Day one is starting out just fine.  This is the two week pre op with liquids.  I can have 5 slim fast shakes, 2 cups veggies, all the water I can drink and any other diet drink.  I am feeling pretty optimistic.  I am going to stick with it, especially to ensure my liver is de-fatted properly.

I am starting to get real excited.  I weighed myself today and I am at 262.8.  I will keep track to see things are going. 

Stay tuned...

The Wonderful Wizard of Lapband Land!  Surgery is approved!  I am so excited.  Wait, did I just say I was excited for a SURGERY?  You bet your sweet bippie I did.  

Like I said, this is my year.  I couldn't be happier.  Halleleujah!

I am going to a new surgeon.  My former surgeon is out of network so a new one it is for me.  I am cool with it.  It will work out.  I'm not going to stress because this is my year. 

You ever really know that?  I mean that this is your year?  I am trying to remember when I said that in the past.  I can't recall if I ever did before.  I had many good years, but none that I claimed. 

I am claiming 2008 though.  You know why?  I am starting a new life.  I have a new profession (Life Coach---I coach Working Mother's and Parents, especially those who are feeling like they are doing it all and in way over their heads.)  I am super excited.  I am confident I will succeed.  Why?  Because this is my year and I can. (Not arrogance, confidence)

I am also going to become a new person.  I am going to have my surgery and "weight" until you see what I do with it!  Just wait and see.  Oooh, it is going to be beautiful.  

Okay, I am off my soapbox.  This is the time, this is the year, and I am the person who is going to be ready for it.

Peace!

Yesterday was my last day in the office and today I had a meeting in HQ telling me about my severance and benefits.  I am officially terminated on January 8th.  My surgery is scheduled for Jan 7th.  Kind of strange the date coincidence.  My life will officially change in enormous ways on Jan 7th.  I am gathering all of my info for my surgery.  I am so excited especially since I realized that I am only 8 short weeks away.  That is incredible!