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Yus- still alive. Still keeping the weight where it should be. I'm doing some classes- and trying to stay sane while we work paperwork to potentially get outta dodge.  I'll try to update more soon.

Once again- I think my chain of logic got broke somewhere. Here goes:

1. I'm like- getting old.
2. I MUST retain some of my youth
3. This can be accomplished by bleaching some of my hair and doing it blue.

Ok so alreay you're at the pointing and laughing stage. Well yuck it up sir/miss happy pants. This seemed perfectly reasonable. I look awesome in blue. I always do weird things to my hair- i.e. blue hair.
SO! I enlist my poor baffled hubby into coming with me to get some bleaching stuff! DONE! then off to hot topic to get that one day only comb in hair color- so I can wash it out if it's an unfortunate color (apparently here I was semi- logical). Home, pick up the kiddos and we're off to the races. After sitting with bleach in my bangs for what seemed a reasonable period of time according to the strand test I did- I went and checked the results! OH NOs! Pumpkin.yellow hair with WHITE roots! Damnit.
OK! this can be fixed.
Off to the store to get another bottle of hair color, this time "strawberry" blonde. This name has always bothered me, strawberries are red not pale orangey. none the less.
After a half hour my hair is now at least even-ish. The front bit is still significantly lighter then the rest. BUT! the color can only be called "apricot poodle" NOT strawberry blonde.
damn.
WELL! Maybe it'll look better with the comb in color! Blue is sooo much fun!
apparently blue+apricot poodle=joker green. humm
Gross! Getitoffgetitoffgetitoff! It washes out! YAY! No stuck with green hair, just apricot poodle hair.
Hubby wakes up the next day and sadly shakes his head at my insanity.

Since he does this every day- it's allll good.

NOW! I have to choose If I want to go lighter- (blonde) medium (an orangey-red or an ash blonde/meduim brunette) or back to dark auburn.  I'm voting for either an orange or a blonde. What do you think!

Big change ahead. Word has come down from on high. My hubs got orders- to Korea. It dosn't say if it's accompanied, in fact he can request either way, accompanied or unaccompanied. We'll have to talk that over later.  No word on if there's a follow on, or if there's one at all. I'm hoping for a follow on to somewhere spectacular- c'mon Germany! If my family all goes or not this August (That's the ship out date) Things will be changing BIG time. I should be able to take even more classes- during the summer semester over at Pima. So I'll be closer to getting my degree. If he goes there without us it'll be a year with me in charge of the house. If we all go.. well that'd be cool too. Strange, but cool. My sister seems to think I'd like Korea- I'm not sure, but I'm sure I'd be okay there.

On a compleatly diffrent topic, I've been having some weird pains that got to the point of being REAL bad. I was scared it was a hernia (And to be honest a little hopeful, since that'd get me closer to getting a tummy tuck approved by tri-care). However it's a Ovarian cyst. The nurse at the ER (I went in 'cause I was suffering something horrible) said it should "pop" normally but I'll get my doctor to keep an eye on it to make sure it dosn't get bad.  I'll be getting some fun pain meds to help me deal with the severe discomfort it's been causing me. Knowing what's going on is half the battle, this isn't cancer or anything, just some weird growing thing in my overies that didn't do what it was supposed to do. I'll be taking the docs orders very seriously and also pass by her the idea of me  taking some herbs (motherwort, red rasberry etc) to help pass through this a little easier.  I wish I knew some herbalists, I only have rudimentary herbal knowledgs, and I know that st. jhons wort has worked on my depression better then anything I'd tried before. So- hopefully the doc'll give me the go ahead to self treat a little. I like feeling like I have some sort of control over my body- and knowing there's something going on in there that I have so LITTLE control over is driving me batty.

wish me luck, send me prayers and good thoughts.  Blessed be!

It's a little sick and wrong that I got giggly when they started glaring.  It's just that I've never been looked at like that before.  My husband and I were all dressed up for the squadron Christmas party. My dress was this gorgous fitted green number that also flattered my trouble spots and played up my teeny amount of remaining cleavage. I made a draping shawl/jacket thing to disguise my batwings and bring drama to the simple dress.  I even wore my hair up and some seriously hot red lipstick. I thought I looked pretty cute, and I knew I was radiating confidence. But then it happned. Some of the girlfriends and wives started giving me "the look". Now I'm sure your average attractivbe girl gets so used to getting "the look" that she dosn't even notice it before. It involves a woman checking you out- face down back to face really fast and ends with a mean little squint." Like- she looks great I hate her."

It's empowering for me, a perviously  fat girl, to get this look. I'd seen pity, I'd seen them looking in honest wonder at how well I managed to dress even then, but never the hate look.   Let me drive this point home. I lookew so damn goods I pissed off girls that were already MY definition of hot. YES! As an addendum, my clevage was addressed twice, and one of my hubbys friends very attractive gi8rlfriends cozied up to me and got all buddy buddy.  It's a little sad that before maybe they didn't see all this, but at LAST, I am as pretty outside as I always have been on the inside! 

GO me!!

On the weight front it's been an insane yo-yo I got all the way back up to 153, but then got back to 158, and then 155. SO it'll be nopt time before I get where I need to be.
I'll post pictures of me in the dress Soonish.  I've got a new one up of me in my new favorite socks, so that'll be good for now! TTFN!

145! yes! NO I'm not re-weighing to see if it was a fluke. I did the nekkid scale thing It said 145! I'll be happy!

So we're trying to get a duty station change. Looks like we may end up going as a family to Korea. That'd be weird- we really want a european station, but apparently they're only good as follow ons. So Korea here comes the MacArthur family.  Oooh dear.

Allright. The visit from aunt flo is at last here. Now, that means I'm gonna get some weight gain. I saw a 153 on the scale and moaned.  that's about 4 days ago. SO! Watching the calories, going to the gym, pushing myself on my bike.now I'm back to 150. Going to keep pushing so by the end of this period I'll be at LEAST back to my "base" weight of 147. Think I'm gonna up the liquids. Fat escapes through urnine, so I'll perr my butt off!

My elder daughter has an "audition" today.  She's gorgous, she really is, so here's hoping things go well.

My mom  says this is genetic, she started losing a period here and there and getting hot flashes at my age. A month and a half I am without a period.

Soooo... I decided to loose weight and guess what? I FRICKING GAIN! I go from 147ish back to 150~ NOOO!  This is the very top of acceptable BMI for me!  Frick frick!  I've been pretty good with food, even walking a bit more. Nothing major - I was weaning myself off of sugars and introducing protiens back into my life. It may well be a gain induced by a slightly higher calorie count, but they're all GOOD calories! FRICK! Ok so, maybe my body is adjusting before loosing again. My clothing all fits fine. I feel mostly okay (I've been having tummy issues lately- more on that after my doctor appointment)  I'm making an appointment with a doc to see what I should be doing,and to make sure my labs are good, and to check and make sure all my tubes etc are working the way they should.

I just started riding my bike again, hopefully that'll jump start my weight loss.  My hubby insists that it's due to the stress of quitting smoking/going back to school/ and re-adjusting to his new schedule that's affecting me. And, it probably is. 

MEh and blah though. I CAN do this. Back on track! someone cheer me on?

So, I've decided to try and loose a bit more weight. After my period I found I'd gained 2 pounds. Probably due to the fact that I re-introduced carb to my diet. I'm going to find a way to be smarter with carbs- oh yes and no more bad chips. I think  maybe even the little single serving packs are probably a no-no from here on out. Darn, they were nice. So, I'm drinking a TON more liquid and making plans for improving my workout routine. 10 pounds or so, I think I can do it. It seems to be an okay weight, seeing as I'm the same height as my daughter and she barly weighs 120. She looks great, so at 130 something I should be allright. IF I find it too skinny- well putitng ON weight has never been a problem, has it?

I had my hair cut. I personally HATE it with a bright burning passion. I don't know what I was thinking. I miss my hair! It's chin length and currently bright fabulous red. A fairly fake red, but I kinda like it anyway. It's one of those temp 28 day jobs, due to the fact that I'm curous how my "natural" color is coming along. How many gray hairs have I accumulated? Is it truly as gastly a blonde/brown as I remember? I'll probably freak out when I've enough roots to judge by and RUSH off to the dye counter to correct things to a much prettier shade of red. I like me with red hair. So, yeah I doubt that even should I have a minimum of gray, and have a semi-pleasent shade of brown (and not dead mouse brown like I keep thinking it is)  I'll probably still end up aurberun headed.  Silly isn't it?

I'm taking a class at the community collage and really enjoying it. I'm not nearly as smart as I thought I was, but it's a fun class. I dread the "real" stuff I still have to learn to get my AA.  I'll have to take a ton of math, but I'm going to CLEP as much English as I can, since that's my one strong suit.  I'm trying to get a general AA so I can get a Library Tech job, eventually get in enough schooling to be a "proper" libraiian. They have to have a masters, even a doctorate sometimes, so it;s a lot of schooling ahead. On on hand I like the learning, on another I feel frightfully stupid.

Ah well. So such is life.

Heaviest weight: 335+
Current weight 149.6 (ick and eew)
new goal: 135 so I can be a twice removed centry club member.

Today: 147 pounds
previous goal: 150 (met and exceeded)
New goal? Maintain until a second opinion has been obtained
Highest Weight 335+ (my scale would go no higher the 330)
Pre-surgery weight: 319

Total lost:
from highest: 188
After Surgery: 172