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This morning I am less than 5 lbs away from Onederland!! The last time I was under 200...was...hmm.... I think I was like 15-years-old? It was a while ago. I've tried many times since then to get down to that magical place, but with no luck. Two years ago I did a low carb, low calorie, low fat, high protein diet and got down to 204...the very weight I'm at right now! So this is a big thing for me. From here on out is uncharted territory my friends!

I'm going to be celebrating with skydiving. Probably not just yet because it's still chilly, but I'm thinking some time in May. I've been wanting to skydive for years but the weight limit has always been 225lbs. Being under 200 will give me some wiggle room.

Hopefully I'll hit Onederland in a week or two, wish me luck!

Hooray!!

I woke up this morning a bit lighter and the scale said 205.6 from 207 yesterday. I started at 255.8 and my original goal is 155 at 5'6 for a loss of about 100 lbs. So that means I am officially halfway to goal at 2 months out!!

I am feeling fantastic and very proud. My next smaller goal is to make it to ONEDERLAND which I haven't seen since I was a little kid.

So happy today :-)

The other day I stepped on the scale and it said 216.8. Before my pre-op diet I was 255.8. My highest weight ever was 272...that I know of.

It was just such a good day. I felt good. I felt I looked good. And I felt happy. I was skipping around my place, singing to my cats, singing in the shower, and dancing to music.

I am feeling just so proud of myself. Not just for the fact that I have been working this sleeve, but that I made the decision to go forward with weight loss surgery. It's been a long struggle, and my health is going to be so much better. I am down 40 lbs and feel so many differences. For one, I'm lighter on my feet. I can run around at work and I just don't feel HEAVY. Every day I feel more confident when I go out. I used to hate going anywhere, just wanted to sit in and hide.

And the clothes! I just love fitting into smaller sizes. It amazes me each time. I started in a 20 and now I'm in a 16. I can squeeze into 14s but hell no am I wearing them in public, HA! Maybe in a few weeks. I've been raiding Old Navy's clearance section. Found some nice 16 skinny jeans for $5, shirts for $2 and $3. Love a good bargain!

The changes in my body are amazing as well. Sometimes I just stand in front of the mirror and bring my hands up and down my hips because it feels so strange. They are smaller, and feel different...smoother or softer because of everything readjusting. My collar bones are starting to peek out, and I can feel my shoulder blades.

So, I've been feeling just grateful and proud. I am so happy I made the decision to take control of my health. Diabetes, stroke, cancer, heart disease, lung disease...all run strongly in my family. I have been having health issues at the age of 28 and I want to be healthy for when I have a family. Now I have a chance!

I know this is all a bit rambly, but it's how I've been feeling. Grateful, proud, happy, confused, excited, and anxious to see what my future brings.

Was in the mood for cooking this evening and went all out! Dinner was sooo good.

I marinated some ground chicken in a low carb mesquite sauce, garlic,  and spices. Then I cooked in a frying pan and put aside. Chopped onions,  mushrooms,  carrots,  and zucchini sauteed with some more garlic (love it). Made mashed cauliflower  and mixed in some laughing cow garlic and herb. 

Last night i bought some cute little ramekins at Ikea and figured they would make nice smaller portions. I sprayed each ramekin with nonstick spray,  Then layered the meat,  1tbs reduced fat cheddar Jack cheese,  veggies, mashed cauliflower,  and topped with another tbs of cheese. Baked in the oven at 350 until bubbly. 

The servings are still too big,  so i only eat half at a time. But each serving is only 110 calories,  5 carbs, 14 protein,  6 fat. Loving it!

I will admit, a big part of our social life revolved around restaurants. So, this surgery is a big change for both of us. I assured my SO that we would be able to go to restaurants, in time. And parts of the experience might change. Sure, I can't wolf down a few plates at the Mongolian grill or Brazilian rodizio (place is amazing), but I can enjoy an appetizer or small meal...and it will be cheaper! Hey-o!

February is a busy month for me, filled with Valentine's day, both parents' birthdays, and his birthday. So, we usually go out to eat a lot. The other night I took my family out to eat at a nice steakhouse. Since I am on soft foods, my options were limited to chili, butternut squash, and meatballs. Though there's no protein, I opted for the squash. Because I already have a pot of chili and meatballs at home. The squash was fantastic, too! I wasn't too tempted by much at the table, and I did not drink during the meal. The waitress did seem astonished when I ordered the squash, though.

Me: I'll have the butternut squash please.

Waitress: And for your meal??

Me: Just the squash please! (smile)

Waitress: That's all you want for your meal?!?!

Me: Yes please! (extra large smile)

I only ate about 1/4c of squash, maybe less, and brought the rest home. I think I will end up freezing it into a few small portions to add to food when I can consume more.

Tonight, we are celebrating my guy's birthday at a restaurant. It's a fantastic Greek restaurant that I enjoy, his favorite. I checked their menu beforehand, and have been going over my options for a few days. Sounds silly, but having a plan before I go in will help me stick to the path. I'm going to order the lentil soup. I love lentil soup anyways, and it will be fun trying a new thing off their menu. Usually I end up with the spinach pie, moussaka, or chicken kebabs. I think the lentil soup will be a good texture, and still have protein. If I can fit it in, I may have a little feta. Because it's feta. I would eat feta off a flip flop. I will refrain from the fried dough covered in honey and chopped nuts.

So, that's where I am! It will just be nice to get out and see the other family for an evening :-) It's also nicer to dress up now that I'm down a few pounds! My jeans are getting loose so I'm about due to go down a size. Excuses to go shopping...

Well here I am,  writing a blog post. At almost 1am. Lying in bed with my cats. BUT! This crazy cat lady is 30lbs lighter! !

I had my first post-op  follow up appointment today, 3 weeks out. Incisions are healed and looking good. No intolerances to food. .. yet. And I feel great!  Except for the occasional fatigue that knocks me on my ass at random times,  like going up a flight of stairs. I feel like i need a damn nap after bringing in some groceries. 

I'm down a total of 30lbs. 8 during pre op and 22 since surgery. I'm considered a "lightweight" so I'm very happy with that. 

And the most exciting news? ? My diet has been advanced! Praise sweet baby Jesus! I can now enjoy ground meats,  mashed veggies,  Some cheese,  eggs. I made a whole crockpot full of chili,  which should last me a few years. I say down for a nice dinner and enjoyed me a few tablespoons of sweet,  delicious chili! It was glorious. Tomorrow i may get crazy and try hummus. 

All in all it wad a good day and i actually looked forward to stepping on the scale. That doesn't happen often, so i enjoyed every minute. Can't wait to become the new me.