MAchick
Feeling happy.
Mar 11, 2014
The other day I stepped on the scale and it said 216.8. Before my pre-op diet I was 255.8. My highest weight ever was 272...that I know of.
It was just such a good day. I felt good. I felt I looked good. And I felt happy. I was skipping around my place, singing to my cats, singing in the shower, and dancing to music.
I am feeling just so proud of myself. Not just for the fact that I have been working this sleeve, but that I made the decision to go forward with weight loss surgery. It's been a long struggle, and my health is going to be so much better. I am down 40 lbs and feel so many differences. For one, I'm lighter on my feet. I can run around at work and I just don't feel HEAVY. Every day I feel more confident when I go out. I used to hate going anywhere, just wanted to sit in and hide.
And the clothes! I just love fitting into smaller sizes. It amazes me each time. I started in a 20 and now I'm in a 16. I can squeeze into 14s but hell no am I wearing them in public, HA! Maybe in a few weeks. I've been raiding Old Navy's clearance section. Found some nice 16 skinny jeans for $5, shirts for $2 and $3. Love a good bargain!
The changes in my body are amazing as well. Sometimes I just stand in front of the mirror and bring my hands up and down my hips because it feels so strange. They are smaller, and feel different...smoother or softer because of everything readjusting. My collar bones are starting to peek out, and I can feel my shoulder blades.
So, I've been feeling just grateful and proud. I am so happy I made the decision to take control of my health. Diabetes, stroke, cancer, heart disease, lung disease...all run strongly in my family. I have been having health issues at the age of 28 and I want to be healthy for when I have a family. Now I have a chance!
I know this is all a bit rambly, but it's how I've been feeling. Grateful, proud, happy, confused, excited, and anxious to see what my future brings.
