My name is Monica and I’ am from the The Serenity Prayer
As the years passed I steadily gained weight and started the vicious cycle of yo-yo dieting doing more damage to myself every single time. I've tried acupressure, phen-fen, WW, omnitrition, Atkins, metabolife, Herbalife, a drive down to
Fast forwarding to the past few years, in about 2004 I started thinking about WLS and looking in to it from time to time. I remember the first thing that put this idea in my head were the "Surgilite" commercials. Not knowing much about WLS surgery at that time it was merely a thought. Thinking "wow that would definitely be nice to have surgery and lose weight?" It seemed like a no brainer. I thought about if from time to time but not seriously and that was the extent of that. Over these next few years I dieted off and on losing some weight and eventually gaining it back again and then some. Finally topping out at over 350lbs, probably more because I purposely avoided the scale...I was in complete and utter DENIAL!
Early 2006 I began to experience health issues, I hadn't had a menstrual cycle since about 2004, and I developed type II diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, back pain and severe sweating. This was my wake up call; I had to get serious about my health foremost and my weight as well. At that time I started researching WLS on line and it seemed at that time WLS surgery was everywhere on TV in the magazines all over the place. It seemed as if WLS surgery was much more common and everyone was doing it. Finally at a follow up visit with my PCP I asked her about WLS, she was always on me about losing weight and getting healthy. She referred me to Bariatrics and this is where my new life begins. My first information class on WLS was in mid August at this time I had to fill out paperwork and supply them with all my info. Diets I had been on, how much weight I had lost and gained over the years, my eating habits, etc. This class or meeting was more as to let us know the process of being accepted for WLS, time frames, things to expect, etc. They informed us all that attended the class that we would find out in a couple of months whether we met the requirements and were accepted in to the Bariatrics Program. If you can imagine those two months took FOREVER! I finally received my letter in the mail mid October 2006 advising me that I had been accepted in to the Bariatrics program. I still remember it as if it were yesterday, I WAS SO HAPPY! My prayers were finally being answered. I was on a natural high for days!!!! I knew in my heart of hearts that this was the answer for me. I wanted to be able to enjoy my young adult life and not wait until I was midlife before I actually did something about my weight issues. I attended my first OFFICIAL class early January 2007 where they weighed me in and I weighed in at 340lbs! At this time they took Polaroid’s of our full body front pose and a side pose. I was mortified. I have always avoided cameras and mirrors. They gave us our pictures and I remember keeping them face down, not wanting to look at them because I was going to be so disgusted with myself. I had to start to face the music. While fellow patients were getting their pictures taken I slowly and almost secretively turned my pictures over. I thought "OMG, I'm really that FAT?" I remember this sinking feeling inside, a feeling of disgust, disbelief, anger and sadness. It was a very overwhelming moment. But I knew I was there for the right reasons and that I had made the right decision to continue on and "FACE THE MUSIC" I was prepared for everything they were going to throw at me. Needless to say at the end of that first class I was very motivated to get things going. That was the beginning of many classes, appointments, lab work, testing, etc. for the next 5months or so. During this time I began to take my supplements as advised by the Bariatrics team and followed a pre-op meal plan. I was given a target pre-op weight, which for me was 10% of my weight, 30lbs. I slowly began to lose the weight and about mid April was when I began to really exercise hard and on a regular basic. I was committed to seeing this all the way through and there was no way I was going to sabotage losing my surgery.
Mid April I had my consult with my surgeon - my angel I call him Dr. David Le. I remember going in to that appointment nervous and shaky as a leaf, thinking the worst. Thinking OMG he's going to deny me my surgery. However to my surprise I had continued to steadily lose weight. I didn't quite lose all 30lbs but my surgeon and the bariatrics team were very confident that I was committed to the life long change in my lifestyle. At this time Dr. Le scheduled my surgery date! I was SOOOOOOOOO EXCITED, I FINALLY have it, it's going to happen. I was on cloud nine! I remember walking out of his office with a new spring in my step and happy as can be. This is finally it. My surgery was scheduled for June 18, 2007 exactly two months from that appointment with Dr. Le. I continued on my pre-op meal plan and continued exercising.
June 18, 2007, my day had finally arrived. I weighed in at 317lbs, I remember being completely excited, a little nervous but mostly excited. This was going to be my new lease on life and the beginning of a healthier happier me. My father, mother, my younger sister, brother-in-law, my three nephews and my niece all accompanied me to
God grant me
Serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can, and
Wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
as the pathway to peace.
Taking this sinful world
As it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that you will make all things right
If I surrender to Your will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with You forever in the next.
Thank you for stopping by...
1/9/07 - 340.6 (At Orientation)
6/5/07 - 317 (-23.6 lbs)
6/21/07 (3 days) 301.3 (-39.3 lbs)
7/03/07 (2 wks) 287 (-53.6 lbs)
7/18/07 (4 wks) 277.2 (-63.4 lbs)
7/25/07 (5 wks) 274.7 (-65.9 lbs)
9/6/07 (11wks 1day) 239 (-101 lbs!!!!!)
10/15/07 (16wks 4 days) 229.4 (-111.20 lbs)
11/1/07 (19wks) 228.00 (-112.20lbs)
11/28/07 (22wks 6 days) 221 lbs (-119.20)
12/3/07 (23wks 4 days) 219 lbs (-121.20)
1/8/08 (28wks 5 days) 212 lbs (-128.6)
June 2008 203lbs (-137.6)
My name is Monica and I’ am from the
The Serenity Prayer