Morgan K.
Month 3 of 6 month diet update
Feb 28, 2017
Not as bleak this week as i was with my last post. Next month will mark the 3rd month of my 6 month long (gag) insurance required diet, which means..... I CAN FINALLY HAVE MY INITIAL CONSULT!!! I'm going through UW Health Medical and Surgical Weight Management Program in Madison, WI. My initial consult will be on 3/9 all day long. literally, from 9am-3pm. I'm calling it Bariatric Day Camp :) lol. I'll go through the whole gammot of their team members: nutritionist, health psych test, surgeon consult (mine is Dr. Luke Funk, MD) and then 2 hours of psychiatric eval. I'm sooo excited that things are FINALLY happening! Still terrified i'll go through all of this and still get denied by insurance. I dont have the highest faith in the nutritionist that's supervising my "diet" as she is anti-bariatric surgery and has never help a patient apply for one before. She spends our sessions trying to convince me not to have it. so annoying. The thing is that I know more about the surgery and post-op life changes than she does. I'd really rather see someone else, but then I'd have to start all over again. I've posted on the forum and on Facebook for some advice to make sure she's doing her end of the job correctly and got some wonderful feedback to take to my next meeting with her. Our meetings together are literally just to go through the motions and meet insurance requirements. There's nothing new she has to teach me since I'm reasonably educated about nutrition and diets already and I'm unable to lose much weight during this process or else I'll fall below 40 bmi.
The fact that I can't lose hardly any weight until i'm approved has been and will continue to be my biggest source of frustration. Even if my intitial consult weight puts me above 40 on the 9th, my case worker has said that my insurance (UMR) is one of the more finicky ones, and they will use it against me if i lose weight during this process. So, while i'm all on Facebook, OH, IG and YouTube and getting MOTIVATED AF about all of this, I have to force myself to hold back. Right now, my life consists of running/lifting 3x/week and meals are a combination of keto-themed meals- which I LOVE to share and get inspiration from on IG- and eating whatever the fuck i want. Kinda messed up lol. I find myself craving the keto way of life. Smaller portions, don't miss bread or pasta.... very encouraging. Not going to lie though, I am focusing on BULKING UP over the next week and a half and doing everything in my power to weigh as much as I possibly can when I step on that scale next Thursday. I already have a big fat salty Chinese feast planned for the night before so that I'm retaining water like it's nobody's business the next morning. It's going to drive me nuts to "stay fat" during this summer as i usually drop about 20 pounds each summer just with all the farming activity and cattle shows etc. (just to gain it all back again in the winter) But it wont be forever and I'll be on that damn loser's bench one way or another!
