I think I had a revelation

Mar 09, 2011

I really decided to put in the full effort this week and I have to say, the scale moved a lb. already.  Started to go all protein with natural carbs (if any).  No crackers, slice of bread - nothing.  Also eating a normal portion and to stop grazing.  And, we have to remember to drink in our down time!  Exhausted from this.

But last night, when I was beginning to graze (nosh), I think I don't know how to NOT do those things.  That's why I keep doing it - it's the only way I know how to exist and I've never been in a place where I don't feed my soul.  It's a weird feeling.  This is a learning process.  Even tonight, I made an amazing dinner and when I ate what was on my plate, I went back for seconds because my tastebuds were singing and I just "had to have it".  No i didn't!  Thankfully, I didn't get stuck but I did finish the portion and except for the sausage and a half, it was pretty much fat free.  But, I may be rationalizing.

It is a real effort that rears its ugly head in the evening hours.  Grazing has filled my time and my tummy.  I'm home alone and loving it - I should really do my needlepoint right about now!  But this has been a quiet moment or two and I wanted to write it down before I forget.

I really need to relearn strategies that keep me on track.  Hard to believe I need to do such things.  Like I said once before - I thought the Band would do that FOR ME. 

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