Ms_Silly
6 month quick note...
Feb 22, 2014
- no longer considered morbidly obese or obese... back into the "overweight category"... yay :D
- BMI from 47 to now 29... WOW
- Now I weigh 188, down from 297 at my highest weight... yes!!!
- I can excersice without wanting to kill myself instead :)
- I cut out soda's a while before pre-surgery, and have successfully stayed away from carbinated drinks all together. Not even tempted! Whoop!
- I sleep better at night and can fall asleep on my back now... it's habbit not to, but I can!
- Self esteem is better. I'm no air head, but it's good not to be disgusted with myself and feel positive about what I'm doing to live a happier, healthier life :D
My 7week post-op update
Oct 03, 2013
Wow I havnt posted in my blog in forever. Well, I'm 7 weeks out as of tomorrow.
My surgery went very smoothly. I was in the hospital for 2 nights (as predicted). I woke up in a LOT of pain. I was very out of it for HOURS but felt like I would rip in half if i moved too much. I was placed on a controlled morphine drip. That helped. My boyfriend stayed both nights with me in the hospital. By the end of the first night (day of surgery) I was walking. Hunched over and verrryyy slow, but I was walking! I wasn't aloud to have anything until the next night as far as "food" goes, not water, not nothing. Then I had my first meal Saturday night. Myfirst 2ounzes that took my forever to get down because I was so scared of how I was going to feel.
Anyways, the first 2 weeks at home were hell. I've heard it called "hell week" and now I know why. I was miserable, but mostly it was mental!!! I was just freaking out about what I had done to myself, I had regrets and a lot of crying. getting down my "food" was miserable because I didnt want anything in my mouth but here i was shoving "meals" and vitamins that all just was so gross. But everyday I walked, going a little further every couple of days.
I went back to work after 2 weeks. I was worried because just up until a few days before returning to work I was still sore. However I stopped taking my pain meds after my 2nd or 3rd day home (because it made me sleep too much and I didnt like not having a clear head). I'm glad I returned to work at this point. Getting back on a "normal" schedule made me feel more normal and that made things easier.
Through the progression of the past few weeks I can honestly say that THANK GOD stage 1 & 2 are behind me. Being able to add soft foods back into my diet boost the feeling of being normal again. I've been blessed that I have only thrown up twice, and it wasnt that big of a deal - not like I imagined. I'm able to tolerate so many things I read other can't... such as milk and eggs and very steamed veggies. It has been awesome. I feel great. I've lost 38 pounds and I'm happy with the weight loss and how its going. There are some days that go by (like 2 or 3 at a atime) that I havnet lost anything. I've finally stopped weighing EVERY day. I think it helps. I decided to measure 1x a month. so next weekend I will be updating that, bus as of what I know now I have lost 14 1/2 inches already! THAT made a bigger impact than the scale to my mind. anyways
That's it for now!!
surgery in 4 days!
Aug 12, 2013
Surgery date set!
Jul 02, 2013
August 16th 2013 is the DAY, the day that my very skilled surgeon helps me turn my life around. I AM SO EXCITED. Oh yeah... and I have lost 6 lbs :) I was hoping for more, considering a lot of the changes I've been making, but I'll take it!!!
pulmonary eval & sleep study
Jun 24, 2013
ultrasound & Endoscopy
May 23, 2013
WOW my abdominal ultrasound was a pretty uncomfortable/ painful experience. Is is normal for the tech to put so much force down? anyways...
had these 2 appointments yesterday. I thought they were my last 2 evals but my doctor then decided he wants a pulmonary eval done too. Getting put to sleep for the first time was a trip!!! no complications. Other than i woke pretty emotional, but im pretty sure thats because i was getting very emotional sitting there waiting to be taken back for the procedure and i think i was freaking myself out!!
after endoscopy I was told that i needed to be taking Prilosec daily until surgery. I didnt have a clue I had an acid problem. Also haital hernia, which seems to be pretty common the more I read on this site.
so that leaves me taking my Vitamin D 1x a week, 2 gummy multivitamins daily, and 1 prevacid daily. Im not enthused about all the things I need to take but at least it is preparing me now for the rest of my life of taking vitamins!
So the pulmonary eval is scheduled for next friday and MY DEDUCTIBLE IS PAID AS OF TODAY!!! My Doctor told me yesterday that I should be able to schedule surgery as early as June! UHM NEXT MONTH! Wow this is so unreal, lol.
Evals evals evals...
May 21, 2013
not having a good day, emotionally
May 07, 2013
This morning I had my first apt with my cardiologist and ecg test. My heart seems to be fine :) and my cardiologist gave me his blessing to progress towards surgery. On the other hand the weather suits my mood, gloomy. Not about the test really. I missed my boyfriend's (of almost 5yrs) certificate luncheon today for his college graduation. That's one thing that made me sad. I'm not really sure what in the world is wrong with me! I'm just very emotional today, like I'm on the verge of tears all day. Lots of thoughts were going through my head while I waited 30 minutes to get called back to my appointment. I still have told very few people about my interest in surgery. One person I told a month or so ago decided to blurt out "don't you think you're taking the easy way out"...while intoxicated. Is losing over 100 pounds going to be easy ANY way i go? Hell no! This is what I feared, people looking down on me. This is why I keep it all to myself for the most part. Because I just don't need the negativity. Ugh. I know what I've decided is right for me. I just want to either cry out punch people in the face when they throw that crap at me! I deserve the chance to be thin and healthy too! I just needed to vent...
Feels closer & more real already
Apr 28, 2013
First apt... EKG?
Apr 22, 2013
So far after attending seminar I have had lab work -vit D, thyroid, urinalysis(just did that friday so no results yet ) done and today I got a call to schedule cardiac clearance ... I guess EKG? May 7th, I'm ready! Lol ready to get all the test done. I hope there is nothing going on with my heart that I'm unaware of. Not extremely worried about it, however there are times I feel "uneasy/tight" in the chest. So I'm glad for the test I suppose :/