Chocolate Angel
Let the "SELF" Protein Train Begin!
Apr 08, 2007
Ok, since when my surgery happens I will be on soft foods/liquids, I decided to start a self-induced protein train today. So here is today's Menu:
One the way to work: Decaf Coffee w/ splenda and one serving of half and half (It's 40 degrees in FL in April, I'm cold)
Breakfast: Isopure Zero Carb Alpine Punch (160 cal, 40g protein)
Snack: String Cheese/Advantage Carb control shake (110 cal, 17g protein)
Lunch: Taco Seasoned Ground Beef/Shredded Cheese/Lettuce and Fat Free Sour Cream
Snack - String Cheese/Carb Control Yogurt
Dinner - 2 egg Omlette w/bacon
Snack - Isopure Zero Carb Shake Cookies and Cream (210 cal, 50g protein)
Ok, I am holding myself accountable thru my postings. Ok, my goal is to do this until Next Sunday, give myself one whole week, pray for me as I embark on this journey!
One the way to work: Decaf Coffee w/ splenda and one serving of half and half (It's 40 degrees in FL in April, I'm cold)
Breakfast: Isopure Zero Carb Alpine Punch (160 cal, 40g protein)
Snack: String Cheese/Advantage Carb control shake (110 cal, 17g protein)
Lunch: Taco Seasoned Ground Beef/Shredded Cheese/Lettuce and Fat Free Sour Cream
Snack - String Cheese/Carb Control Yogurt
Dinner - 2 egg Omlette w/bacon
Snack - Isopure Zero Carb Shake Cookies and Cream (210 cal, 50g protein)
Ok, I am holding myself accountable thru my postings. Ok, my goal is to do this until Next Sunday, give myself one whole week, pray for me as I embark on this journey!
A Serious WOW day!!
Apr 07, 2007
Today I had a great day, wow I can't believe I just said that. Let me tell you. I got up to go to the gym and when I got there after five minutes on the treadmill they shut it down due to a gas leak. So I came back to my complex thinking ok I can use the gym here as an alternative, HA! Half the equipment was broken. So I said you know what I am gonna power walk, then I said no, I am gonna jog. I cannot believe me, jogging thru my neighborhood, that is something that the old me would have never even considered. Then, later on that day I needed to find some silver shoes for a wedding that I am in next month. While my shoe size has dropped since surgery, being tall w/ big feet regardless (Size 11) is VERY hard to find. I found this one pair where 11 was too big, but 10 was a bit snug, kept looking came across another pair that was hot, but it was 10 my college friend Ashla, was like just try them on, well hot damn, my ass can where a size 10. I almost fainted in DSW!! WOW! I tell you, just when I thought my wow moments were over, they still happen!
Yesterday, while in preparation for my tonsillectomy, I went to the vitamin shoppe to get some more chewable calcium citrate and I was looking for a protein shake not of a milk base. I had tried the Isopure Passion Fruit/Berry in the bottle, but I didn't like it. I decided to give the Alpine Punch a try and we have a winner folks! So even after my tonsils are out I will still be able to focus on my protein!! Anyway I am so tired and have tons of email to respond to, I am so bad at that. TTYL
Yesterday, while in preparation for my tonsillectomy, I went to the vitamin shoppe to get some more chewable calcium citrate and I was looking for a protein shake not of a milk base. I had tried the Isopure Passion Fruit/Berry in the bottle, but I didn't like it. I decided to give the Alpine Punch a try and we have a winner folks! So even after my tonsils are out I will still be able to focus on my protein!! Anyway I am so tired and have tons of email to respond to, I am so bad at that. TTYL
Your "reflection" and the way "others" see you
Apr 02, 2007
You know, we as WLS patients or those anticipating have a tendency not to see what others see. At least I know I don't. Saturday I went to see my brother to get the key to his apt to see what was up with his PC, I am a tech nerd ya'll can't hide it. Well when I went in his gym I saw my brother and he looked at me for a minute then came over. I didn't think anything of it until we talked later on that night. He is like sis I don't see u that often, but when you walked in the gym I had to stare at you for a minute b/c I didn't even realize that was u. We don't see each other regularly, but talk all the time. He was like you look very slender. OMG!!! I look slender, I damn near fainted. He was like honestly if didn't lose another ounce you would be fine. WOW!!! I tell u, all I see is these thunder thighs and bubble butt, but I guess its not as bad as I see it, but doesn't mean I can slack. A friend of mine I met on this site Sassy Sista ( Hey MO-MO), sent me a pic of myself from summer '06 and I am like wow. I had lost a considerable amount of weight then, but I am like damn I can really see the difference from there to now. This WLS is a gift for those of us that have been blessed to get it. It shouldn't be taken lightly. Eventhough I HATE, did I say it before I HATE my job, I got a wake up call this morning. I got a callback about a job, of couse not paying shit and the recruiters were like hold on to the one you got, b/c pay like that is hard to come buy in the market I am like are you serious!!! They act like I am making a 6 digit salary!! However, they may be able to help me land a lucrative part time gig. I want to go to Europe. I wanted to go this year, but I decided to make this "Sin City '07" year. So I already priced the hotel and plane ticket to go to Europe and do it right I am looking at about 4500, so if I get this part time job it will help me save for that, plus pay off some bills, so pray for me that I get this part time gig! Anyway, let me pretend like I wanna work, its 3:15pm, only 1hr 45 minutes left of this shit!
Tears of joy
Apr 01, 2007
I just have to say there are some people on this site with hearts of gold!!!! I have always been honest about who I am, and I guess my honesty shows thru my words. Since letting out how hurt I was a few weeks ago so many wonderful people on this site check up on me to make sure that I am doing ok. I have even talked to some of you on the phone (hey Angela) I tell you, this site is so encouraging even post op, you learn more about urself and being able to provide people with the details of your own journey is what OH is all about. At the end of the day, everyone has one thing in common on this site. We are all fighting the battle of the bulge, this disease called obesity. If people who come to this site keep that in mind first, OH well always be a great place to be. I have met some wonderful people on this site and hope to continue to meet more.
Lord help me...
Mar 28, 2007
Right about now, I am so close to telling these people on my job to kiss my ass. You know I have tried, it is no secret I hate this job and I have been trying to get away from it from a long time. Hell, the pure misery this place brings me causes me to drink. It's bad enough my life outside of work is miserable too. Which brings me to something. People do not know how to be good friends thru the good and the bad. Friends are suppose to support you thru good and bad times, not tear you down during the bad times. Let me tell something as of today, I am cutting everyone out of my life. What good are most of them. Fake people. Fake Friends, I don't have ONE person I can call on right now. I sit at my desk in tears ready to just punch someone's skull in. Who can I call, not a soul. Everyone calls on me for everything. It's like damn what about me, what about my damn feelings. I'm tired. I'm just tired.
Well, guess who gets their tonsils out!!
Mar 27, 2007
That's me! At the age of 25 I get to have a tonsillectomy, fucking fabulous. The doc said to me yesterday, do you snore, I was like I have been told I do, he is like b/c the opening in the back of your mouth is almost completely blocked from your tonsils. GREAT!!! Well, at least I get to be out of work for three weeks!! WOOHOO!! So yeah, unlike popular belief I cannot have ice cream or any milk products or orange juice. Wow, I am glad I like oatmeal and grits cause thats about all I am gonna be eating for a while. Oh well. I will have to add some protein in their somehow, anyway, let me pretend like I want to work. Holla!
A new day, somewhat better outlook....
Mar 22, 2007
Well, last night I decided to take my butt to the gym, Treadmill, elliptical, Lunges with weights, Sit ups!!! OMG!!! Wow, I needed that. Then last night I hung out with my sorority sisters. The local Omega Psi Phi Grad Chapter is having a Mardi Gras type party Saturday night and they were all getting together to make mask. Mine turned out ok, but I messed it up on the way home. To be honest I had so much fun making it, I am gonna do it again tonight. Today is the first time this week that I have gotten my eating back on track,
On the drive to work - Strawberry/Banana/Raspberry Smoothie w/soy milk, 20g protein powder w/ splenda
Breakfast - Weight Control Oatmeal w/fat free lactose free milk
Snack - 1 string cheese and 4oz light and fit yogurt
Already had some decaf coffee and already 1 liter of water. And all vitamins, but the calcium citrate, I take that later in the day. Today is the first time in a couple of days that I am back on track. I don't know, but last night going to the gym and being around people and not being stuck in that house actually made me feel a little better today. Anywho, I am headed to the gym after work today and then Joann Fabric. Anywho, to all of you that continue to check on me thank you, thank you so much.
On the drive to work - Strawberry/Banana/Raspberry Smoothie w/soy milk, 20g protein powder w/ splenda
Breakfast - Weight Control Oatmeal w/fat free lactose free milk
Snack - 1 string cheese and 4oz light and fit yogurt
Already had some decaf coffee and already 1 liter of water. And all vitamins, but the calcium citrate, I take that later in the day. Today is the first time in a couple of days that I am back on track. I don't know, but last night going to the gym and being around people and not being stuck in that house actually made me feel a little better today. Anywho, I am headed to the gym after work today and then Joann Fabric. Anywho, to all of you that continue to check on me thank you, thank you so much.
Yet another day.....
Mar 21, 2007
.....working for Sprint Nextel (YUCK) I think my stomach is getting back it me for not treating it very well over the past few days. My body is so exhausted and tired. I have to get right. I know I do. As much as it kills me I have to pull myself outta this slump, but it is SOOO hard. The first step is tonight, I have just been living like who cares for the past few days. My place is a mess. So first step tonight is clean- up. Second step, hit the gym after the "After Work" crowd is gone, less crowded. I decided I gonna put myself on "detox" next week, nothing but lean protein and no more than 20 carbs a day. After the week I have had, I MUST do this, I need to get myself back on track. This bout of depression threw me off track. I talked to my therapist last night and he felt I may want to up the dose of lexapro, but he felt the issue is I am overwhelmed by hating my job and frustrated that I have been trying for almost a year and still can't get anything. As well being alone, but I am gonna to try to work on that. Anywho, I thank everyone who checked up on me I really appreciate it. Anywho about to hit 7-11 they have Dasani Liter bottles 2 for 2, that's 67.6 oz right there, plus I have two 16.9 bottles at my desk, well at least I will get in my water and vitamins today, I have work on my protein today though, I haven't been eating the way I should for the past few days. Anywho, let me pretend like I want to work, smooches.
The Wonderful People of OH
Mar 20, 2007
To say that I have not been hiding my true hurt and pain for weeks now would be the biggest lie. It got so bad last night I finally had to write about it. The outpouring of support from the board and private messages made me cry when I woke up this morning. Right now I am sitting at my desk at work and feeling so yucky, not only from drinking too much wine last night, but just hating my job and the fact im here. Anywho, I just wanted to thank everyone who showed me love last night, you don't know how much it meant to me.
Bloodwork Results......
Mar 17, 2007
......Normal!! Phew!!! B-12/Iron is just fine. Papsmear is normal. I actually told my PCP since losing weight I am no longer subjected to constant Yeast Infections. She explained to me more weight was more heat there and that was a breeding ground for the bacteria!! Thank the lord for this surgery. I tell u some days I want to be bad, but then I look at myself and how far I have come and its enough to help me stay right. Thank God for WLS and the mindset to seek out therapy and committing to working out. Just the thought of going back to where I came from scares me. Anywho, let me pretend like I am working, I gotta go home on lunch and get my workout clothes, gotta hit the gym hard tonight!
About Me
Chicago, IL
Location
35.4
BMI
Surgery
12/21/2005
Surgery Date
Oct 31, 2005
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