20 months out!

Mar 15, 2012

Wow! I cannot believe the last time I posted was in October! & that I am almost at my 2 year mark! Time has seriously flown by. I have A LOT to update!  

First of all, I have not reached my goal weight. I fluctuate between 170-180. It is true, the closer you get to your goal, the slower you lose. I have taken “breaks” from dieting here and there. I never gain more than 5 lbs. I start to panic and get right back on a diet. I am able to eat more at times now. It scares me a little bit even though its nowhere near what I used to be able to put in my stomach. I can eat about 6-7 ounces of food at one sitting now. That’s about twice the amount I was able to eat the first year out of surgery. My problem is grazing. Feels like I have to eat a little something every hour or so. Which wouldn’t be too bad if I made healthier choices.  I am currently doing a cycle of HCG. I Have lost about 10 lbs in the last 14 days. I also, started back at the gym. 5 days a week of cardio and strength training.  

Also, I am very proud to say that I have been taking my vitamins and supplements religiously. I did not do that for the first year and I was always exhausted. My hemoglobin level had dropped to a 7.2. Very anemic. It is now 11.2. Now quite where it should be but its gotten a lot better. My hair has finally stopped falling out in clumps, and I see a lot of new growth which I am very excited about. Of all the side effect of the surgery, the hair loss was the most depressing.  At it’s worse, you could my scalp through my hair. I would have to use TOPPIK, a powdery fiber substance that mimics hair to fill in the bald spots. I recommend to any of you who are experiencing thinning. 

  I started seeing someone in September. Quite honestly, I am settling. I don’t know why. I am not happy most of the time. In the back of my mind I feel as though he may be a stepping stone until I feel better about myself. That’s what I am struggling with the most now. My confidence is so low now. When I was 307 lbs, My confidence soared, my self esteem was through the roof. Now, I see all the wrong things about myself. The loose skin, stretch mark, cellulite, thin hair. Has anyone else experienced this? The loss of confidence?  

On a brighter note, I am consulting with different doctors for my PS procedures. I am hoping to schedule it for the Summer. I plan to have a Tummy Tuck, Breast Lift with Augmentation and Lipo of the arms and back. I am hoping to continue working on my legs and not need a thigh lift, because that scar is pretty bad. ( my mom had it a few years ago). Ideally I would like to be a my goal of 160 before going in, I’m estimate about 15-20 lbs of skin and fat to be removed so I’d end up at about 140-145. I am still consulting so I will let you guys know when it is finalized.  

Love u!
Naty
FB: Natalie Carmona
Text : 305-766-1375

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