nykol H.

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It has been officially 4 months since my Gastric Bypass, Its amazing how time gets by you, I swore I would keep this Updated every week so people could see my struggles and my conquers... After my Surgery I have found some of things I used to like I cant not have they taste just as good to me but my body cant have them. I love milk cant have milk, I love lettuce can no longer have it, same thing with hamburg and sausage some chicken depends on how it prepared... 

I can officially say I am down 77lbs from where I started after surgery.. 
I am down from a size 26 into a 18 amazing, I bought a pair from OldNavy and they FIT!!! (NSV)
I am no Longer in the 300s
​I can cross my legs (NSV)
Put some Towels around ME (NSV)

I find it amazing at how much my life has Changed

My biggest Issue is, Accepting that when you look into the Mirror, You No longer recognize the Person looking back at you
But its BitterSweet, I love the New ME in Progress!!!!!!

Sooo  the Day of Surgery I was dropped off at the hospital bright and early 8am.
NERVOUS!!! wasnt the World.. So Many Mixed Emotions.
Surgery, My Sons Very first Day of Preschool riding the School Bus, Not being at Work
Just Everything... Got called in and everything fell into Place
Definitely wasnt nothing I should of been Freakin Out about.
Surgery was Schedualed at 10am. When I woke up though....
WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING!!!!!!!!!
OH MY GOSH I HURT!!!!
Day 1...  After Surgery alls I was thinking why?!?! why did I do this to myself?!?! &you want me to walk around the Floor
Day 2...  SERIOUSLY you want me stay Awake!!! I Hurt let me SLEEP, lol WHY AM I FEELING HUNGRY??
Day 3...  OMG REALLY?? Why cant MEN get their PERIOD!!!! FINALLY HOME
Day 4...  UGH SLEEP!! Yeah Right, up every 1-2hrs PAIN, Cant get Comfortable ONE Bit!!!
Day 5...  Little Better SLOWLY, But still trying to not to take the Pain Meds, GROSS Liquid EWWWY
Day 6...   Think I over did it 10# limit Im definitely not used too... SLEEP I HURT SOO BADLY
Day 7...   Hmm Today Not so Bad, I can actually Stand it and say its not Painful. Tried some Honey Greek Yogurt 6tsp & Tuna w/  Light Mayo 6tsp, SOO NERVOUS I chewed until I couldnt Chew no more, lol... Just tried some moist chicken (.8oz) and chewed until there was nothing left to it, so far okay, but seriously forgetting to drink my water and not getting nearly enough protein.. I feel silly but I am watching the clock timing 2 minutes between every bite and the 1/2hr before and after to a T just afraid that its not going to work....

Honestly my BIGGEST FEAR is not losing weight and this was a huge failure, I know on stage 2 is said chicken salad with light mayo but i wasnt feeling the mayo so i am hoping that im not going to screw this up. I am having a hard time getting my water in and the protein I cant do the shakes they are making me sick so i started the carnation instant breakfast with 1% bc my mom accident bought that instead of skim... they are going down good so I hope its a start... So Tonight is a Week 1 picture not sure if I am going to bother post it but I am going to take Weeking Shots to keep myself Grounded and Remind me of Why I started this Jouney. Thanks To EveryOne who has Asked how Ive Been it means Alot

Soo my Surgery is Tomorrow got to be there at 8am... I am freaking out I dont know what I need to Bring!! OH NO!!!! No Food or Drink after MIDNIGHT!!!! I feel admit it I followed my partial liquid diet to a T except tonight at 11:45 i had a bowl of spaghetti noodles with some parmesan cheese....  I pray everything goes perfect!!!

 

Cant wait to Get Through Tomorrow and be on the Loser Bench!!! 

I majorly starting to sort of Freak out here!!! My surgery is schedualed for Sept 4th and I feel like maybe I am not ready for it!! I started the liquid diet using Boost Original and I did great and felt full. I finally found the Glucose Controlled Boost and I find I am extremely hungry and I am screwing up massively!!! I really dont know what to do already... I need some help.. some opinions... something... i really want this!!

So I had what I would call a minor set back. A little bit disapointed but what can you do. I had to see a Thyroid Specialist, it went well I feel now its up to the Insurance Company yet again... However I am disapointed bc the last 2 appts I gained a total of 3lbs between the 2, I am frustrated with myself bc I know they will deny you just on that... Ive been a little down in the dumps bc of it... I cant seem to get myself back into the groove of thing and on track, i need some major encouragement and help to get myself straightened out... my next surgery is schedualed for August 14 i really want this and so afraid its not going to happen... HELP ME FRIENDS?!?!?!

As disappointed as I am, I found out I might loose my Surgery Date. I am very very Sad. However I know they say things happen for a reason and I certainly hope this is a good one. Upstate University Hospital lost my Blood Work, IDK how a hospital lost it for 4 months and wasn't found until they sent it into the Insurance Company. I have a Thyroid issue and the Insurance denied me I am fighting the clock to get it taken care of now, makes me sad because it could of been taken care of this hole time. The Program Coordinator called me to apologize and they are sorry that it happened to me but they want me to know it would happen to anyone else, Wont lie but it sort of annoyed me. Ive been fighting my Dr he doesn't want me to get this surgery, and the Nurse Practitioner that I see at the Surgeons Office called and finally got my Dr office to help me. So now I have to wait to see an Endocrinologist. I PRAY that I get a call this week for this appointment. SOO I can get cleared for Surgery. 

 

Please Cross Your Fingers It Works Out and I get to Keep my Date!!

As of Today it is Official I received my Surgery Date!!! I can not believe it... I am soo overwhelmed, I really cant stop smiling!! I never thought this day would come!! I really wish that my Grams was here to see it, I wish I listened to her all them years ago when she was alive!! I know she will be beside me watching over my shoulder holding my hand!! 

I still cant believe that every thing has finally came together. I cant believe that I am still losing, I am soo happy with how far I have came. Usually by now I start messing up but I haven't messed up to the point I cant fix it!! I realize what I am doing and adjust!!

I also went to a Support Group Meeting and I felt awkward going to it but I still went and met alot of amazing people and soo glad that I went!! I cant wait to go again and share my surgery date with them!! 

Well on that note I am off to Bed and Hope EVERYONE has a Wonderful Week!!!

Its been a while since I have been on this site, I feel like its getting away from me, I haven't lost the weight im suppose to loose its a constant up and down cycle. The scales at the Dr office say I lost 5lbs I was ecstatic bc my scale at home only at me a 3lbs loss.

I had my Second Apt on Monday the April 15th and in the last month I have gone from appointment to appointment trying to get everything, and phone calls and everything. I get to this appointment not really knowing what to expect, and the nurse started going threw all my stuff in the computer. Checking to make sure I have everything completed and I thought I had everything done, made phone calls after phone calls to make sure that things were faxed. Then she said my Stress Test wasn't in the computer, I was bummed out I called in February to have the results faxed to them and they never did it. I feel like it was my fault that I didn't call to make sure it was faxed but they ask people not to call to wait until there next appointment.

Then the Nurse told me if it was in there they could of gave me a tentative date for surgery. BOY OH BOY was I bummed out. I knew things were going all to smooth. Now its back on the phone again trying to get my results to them again. I did the No-No and I called on Friday to make sure they received them, and they didnt want to give me the answer but I also told them if they weren't there ill just suffer through another Stress Test. -_- not my idea of FUN, lol. Now the waiting game of waiting for the Nurse to call me back. . . . . . 

They received them and signed off on them already, SOO SIKED, Glad I made that call to make sure they received them!! 
Now I got until May13th my next appointment to get as much weight of as I can. I got to loose 17lbs and im only down 5, The nutritionist told me to start doing some Protein Shakes, I bought some Muscle Milk Vanilla Creme, SOO GOOD but I cant find it in a Powder Form so I can mix it on my own.. Anyone have and Suggestions

I started this earlier today before my procedure, It wasnt as bad as I had thought that it would be... I was nervous for nothing, although I got a few interesting things told to me by the dr I never knew so I honestly dont know what the next step is going to be... I got a Hiatus Hernia, along with polyps in my stomach, they also found tears in my esophagus... then the dr also asked me is he knew i have celiac disease, My mom and I both looked a little puzzled I didnt know that a Dr could tell that from looking in a camera at my  inners i thought it took tests who knew... Well I am supper motivated to move forward with this... i hope and pray i can loose the remainder of the 5% so I can get my Surgery Rollin!!!!!! 

Count Down Begin April 15
                                      Here I come!!

So I have been off of Pepsi for 2 Days now... I cant stand these head aches they are killing me!!! But Im trying to push thru it... but its not a bad thing ive got a massive dry throat and cant seem the quench my thurst, at all... On another note I got cleared for my Psych Eval and I go Wednesday for my Upper Endoscopy That should go good I dont have alot of heart burn but they wanted it bc I am on meds for it... Im down 4lbs since last Thursday just have 14 more to go!!