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 IT HAS BEEN  ALMOST 3 YRS SINCE IVE POSTED ANYTHING LIFE HAS SURELY BEEN A ROLLER COASTER FOR ME BY MAY 2011 I HAD A TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS OF 124 LBS GEEZ THAT IS A WHOLE PERSON  I WENT FRO 332 LBS TO 208 I WAS LOOKING FLY I MUST SAY SO MYSELF I HAVE POSTED SOME UPDATED PICTURES OF MY JOURNEY I WILL ADMIT IT WASNT AN EASY TRIP BUT I BELIEVE ANYTHING WORTH DOING WILL NEVER BE EASY I WILL CONTINUE TO POST BLOGS EVERYDAY AND GO OVER MY JOURNEY AND WHERE IAM NOW SOON  

 WELL THE LAST FEW DAYS HAVE BEEN GRT EVERYTHING SEEMS TO BE GOING QUITE WELL SOMEHOW TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!!! BUT HEY IM NOT COMPLAINING I HAVE OFFICIALLY LOST 25 LBS. POST OP 17 DAYS, IM GETTIN MY PROTIEN ((ISOPURE DWN)) N EATING SOME CANT HANDLE 3 MEALS YET THOUGH JUST 2 , BUT I ENJOY THE HEALTHY REQST CRM OF CHKN SOUP N FATFREE SUGAR FREE CHOCOLATE PUDDINGS N CRM OF WHAT I DUNNO BOUT THE PLAIN NONFAT YOGURT YET HAVENT GOT TO THT N LOTS OF WTR!!! IVE BEEN FEELING VERY ENERGIZED BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY I FEEL IT, IM READY TO GO TO SLEEP BOUT 10 EVEN MY FACIAL FEATURES ARE CHANGING I FEEL BEAUTIFUL N I HAVENT FELT THT WAY IN A LONG TIME YEAH!! I WL POST MORE PICS SOON IM GOING OUT OF TOWN SAT. JUST TO GET AWAY!!!!

  THESE LAST FEW DAYS HAVE BEEN MORE LESS PAIN FREE EXCEPT FOR AT NIGHT WHEN I SLEEP...BUT I DO OK JUST TURN SIDE TO SIDE NOT COMFORTABLE ON MY STOMACH YET EMOTIONALLY THINGS R LOOKIN UP EVERYDAY I DONT SEEM TO MOURN FOR FOOD TOO MUCH  I BEGAN PHASE 2 TODAY EATING THIKER LIQUIDS ON THE SAMPLE MENU FROM THE DIETICIAN N IT MENTIONED CREAM OF WHEAT SO I BOUGHT MALT-O-MEAL N BOY WAS I IN FOR IT I MADE ONLY 1/4 C. I TOOK 2 SMALL BITES N I WAS SO FULL I DIDNT EVEN WANNA DRINK MY FLUIDS ANYMORE I DUNNO IF IT WAS TOO HEAVEY OR WHAT BUT I FELT MISERABLE LIKE I HAD EATEN A WHOLE BUFFET BUT I KEPT BUSY INSTEAD OF SITTIN AROUND I COOKED A BIG DINNER FOR MY FAMILY N DRANK A KOT OF WATER TO GET MY FLUIDS IN I COULDNT DARE EAT OR DRINK ANYTHING HEAVY B/C I FELT SO FOOL BUT TOMORROW I WILL TRY SOMETHING DIFFERENT PERHAPS I WONT FEEL THIS WAY,,,,,BUT THE GOOD NEWS IS I HAVE LOST 20 LBS. NOW N IM NOT EVEN 2 WKS POST OP YET!!!  NOW IF I COULD JUST GET THE 40 G'S OF PROTEIN IN N EAT A VARIETY OF THICKER LIQUDS (( SUGAR FREE PUDD/SUGAR FREE CARNATION INSTANT BRKFST/ CREAM OF CHKN SOUP N ALL 64 OZ. OF FLUIDS A DAY I WILL BE WELL ON MY WAY!!! SO I WILL CERTAINLY BE WORKIN ON THT STARTING TOMORROW.... IM JUST WORRIED BOUT HAVING ANY PROBS LATER ON I HAVE BEEN READING SO MUCH HERE ON OH BOUT OTHERS STORIES N THE COMPLICATIONS THEY HAVE HAD A FEW YRS AFTER THE SURGERY AND IT SCARES MEI MEAN SO FAR SO GOOD BUT U NEVER KNOW CAN NEVER BE TOO CAREFUL...

 WENT TO THE DR N YEAH!!! I LOST 10 LBS IN A WK....HEALING LOOKS GOOD BUT I FORGOT TO GET MY PAIN MED I NEED  IT TO SLEEP AT NIGHT IM TIRED OF SLEEPING ON MY SIDES I WAS SO USED TO SLEEPING ON MY STOMACH THAT IT KILLS ME NOT TO BE ABLE TO SLEEP LIKE THAT OH WELL PERHAPS SOON:)  IM VERY NERVOUS ON WHATS TO COME SUMTIMES I WONDER WAT I GOT MYSELF INTO I HAVE BEEN READING PPL STORIES N I FOUND A LADY WHO HAD THE SURGERY  BK IN JAN 05 N SHE HAD A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE LAST YR APR 08 SHE HAD SEVERE PAIN PASSED OUT AN HAD ER SURGERY HER SMALL INTESTINE WAS TWISTED N DEAD THEY HAD TO REMOVE IT N THE DR ADVISED HER FAMILY THAT IT DIDNT LOOK GOOD N SHE PROBABLY WOULD NOT MAKE IT OUT OF SURGERY BUT SHE DID BY THE GRACE OF GOD,  ITS SO SCARY IT MADE ME NAUSEOUS THINKING BOUT THE PROBLEMS INSIDE THAT CAN SURFACE LATER ON I DONT HAVE A CHOICE BUT TO BE VERY CAREFUL N TO GET CHKD FREQUENTLLY N REPORT ALL PAIN I FEEL ITS EXCITING BOUT THE WEIGHT I WILL CONTINUE TO LOOSE BUT IS IT ALL WORTH IT??? TO PUT YOUR HEALTH ON THE LINE WE ALL HAD THE SURGERY TO BETTER OUR HEALTH RIGHT TO GET THE WEIGHT OFF TO SWAY AWAY FROM WEIGHT RELATED HEALTH PROBS??? RIGHT BUT WHAT BOUT THE AFTER WHAT BOUT YEARS AFTER I FAILED TO READ UP ON THAT BEFORE I WENT THRU W/ THIS ITS A CHANCE WE TAKE EITHER WAY WERE LOSERS......IN EVERY ASPECT

 WOKE UP FEELIN GREAT THIS MORNIN NO BLOATING NO PAIN NO MEDS WOW!!!  TOO GOOD 2 B TRU RIGHT??? RIGHT ON I GOT A LOT ACCOMPLISHED BUT PYIN FOR IT NOW  BUT  THINGS HAVE TO BE DONE N WHEN U DONT HAVE NO ONE TO HELP YOU THEN U HAVE NO CHOICE ANYHOW I THINK ONCE AGAIN I OVER DID IT CUZ I HAD A HARD TIME GETTIN IN MY CAR N THE PRESSURE MADE MY STOMACH BURN SINCE I WAS DRIVING N HAD 2 P/U THE BOYS FROM SCHOOL I DIDNT TAKE MY PAIN MED BUT I MADE IT HM BY THE TIME I PUT ALL THE STUFF I NEEDED FROM THE STORE IT WAS TIME TO PIC UP MY YOUNGER SON THEN COOK DINNER N PIC UP MY OLDEST THEN FEED THEM N SO ON N SO ON  I JUJST FEEL SO OVERWHELED LIKE I JUST WANNA SCREAM N CRY   IM JUST SO IRRITATED I DUNNO IF ITS NORMAL OR ITS PART OF RECOVERY OR ITS THT MENTALLY I MISS EATING SO MUCH OR B/C I DONT HAVE SUPPORT N HELP I JUST DUNNO PERHAPS IM LOSING MY MIND HOPEFULLY THINGS WILL GET BETTER SOON

 I WENT TO BED FEELIN SO UNLOVED LAST NIGHT I HAVE A HUGE FAM N ONLY A FEW HAVE CHKD ON ME AT ALL N MY MOM N I BUMPED HEADS SO YEA I WENT TO SLEEP EARLY, N THIS MORN I BROKE DOWN IN TEARS CUZ MY BOYZ WERE RUNNING ROUND THE HOUSE SCREAMING AND HOLLERING FIGHTING N THEN PLAYING WHILE I WAS TRYING TO REST OMG!!! IT WOULD BE FINE IF THEY WERE LITTLE KIDS BUT THEY R 5 & 12 I MEAN CAMON....BUT ALL SETTLED DOWN WE ALL PUT THE HOUSE BK IN ORDER N I COOKED THEM A GOOD BRKFAST IT FELT GOOD TO BE ABLE TO COOK FOR THEM N SEE THEM ENJOYGETTIN MORE FLUIDS DOWN ALMOST 50 OZ I JUST WISH I COULD GET THIS SUCTION BAG N TUBE OUT ALREADY I DREAM OF TAKIN LONG HOT BATHS BUT I GO TO THE DR ON TUES AT 330P HOPEFULLY ALL IS WELL N THINGS WILL GET BACK TO NORM  ITS LIKE TO GOOD TO BE TRUE I FEEL LIKE I LOST A LITTLE WELL C ON TUES. 

WELL 2DAY I MANAGED 2 GET ALMOST ALL MY FLUIDS IN N EVEN SUM PROTIEN ((ISOPURE)) N EVEN GOT OUTTA THE HOUSE FOR A LITTLE BIT, TAKIN IT 1 DAY AT A TIME THE PAIN IS ALSO AT EASE TRYIN 2 LESSEN THE HYDROCODINE BUT MY ABDOMEN IS STILL SWELLED  N MY INCISIONS BURN A LITTLE, I MUST KEEP AN OPEN MIND N BE POSITIVE LOTS A WORK 2 DO BUT IM WELL ON MY WAY FOR SUCCESS I HAVE 2 BE PATIENT!!!

MY SURGERY CAME OUT WELL!!!  YEAH! BUT BELEIVE ME I HAVE SEEN BETTER DAYS....UGH IM SO ILL I FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO THROW UP ALL THE TIME SO ME KEEPING THE FLUIDS DOWN IS A CHALLENGE...I HAVE 2 DRINK 64 OZ. PER DAY THATS PRETTY OVERWHELMING!  AND THE SMELL OF FOOD MAKES ME URK....I CANT STAND EVEN THE SIGHT I DUNNO WHY  I NEVER EXPECTED FOR IT TO BE THIS EXTREME BUT I MUST GET WELL EVERYDAY WILL INDEED GET BETTER IF I FOLLOW MY DOCS ORDERS AND SO FAR SO GOOD THANK GOD!!! I THINK THE  THE PROTIEN IS THE HARDEST I STARTED TRYING TO GET THAT DOWN 2DAY N WHEN IT HIT MY STOMACH WHOW!!! IT DID TRY N MAKE ITS WAY BK UP BUT I MANAGED TO STOP IT.... I WILL SAY YOU HAVE TO BE STRONG MENTALLY TO HAVE THIS SURGERY I DONT THINK ITS FOR EVERYONE N IAM VERY STRONG MINDED BUT ITS HARD BUT I BELIEVE ANYTHING THAT IS WORTH DOING ISINT GONNA BE EASY, THIS WILL BE REWARDING I JUST KNOW IT, BUT I WL POST MORE SOON I FEEL SLEEPY N I HAVE 2 DRINK SO BYE 4 NOW!!!