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As of today I weigh 289.5. It's not a big drop from my last post but at least it's something. I had a blast in Vegas and yes I fit in my seat with no issues (I was soo nervous). I fell off track with my eating and started drinking alcohol more (yea I know all those empty calories), and then I was sick for a few weeks. Needless to say I'm back on track using Myfitnesspal and actually cooking my meals and packing them up in advance. I've started back at the gym (I've found that not making a big deal about it to friends and family and just doing it for myself has motivated me to keep going. I have two vacations planned for next year so I definitely have some goals to reach.

So as of this morning I weigh 299.9 lbs putting me at a 50 lbs loss :) I haven't been in the 200's since I was in high school so it's a great feeling. My eating and exercise is a constant struggle. Some weeks I'm on point and others I slack off. I was having trouble taking all my vitamins but I recently purchased an all inclusive chewable bariatric vitamin that I have to take 4 times a day which is a lot easier. I'd say my biggest issue right now is getting all my 64oz of fluid in, but I'm not giving up on myself and I know I'll get a good routine soon enough. I have a trip planned for Vegas in a few weeks and it's comforting to know I should fit on the plane just fine. I'm noticing a big difference in my clothes but don't technically see it in my body yet. I made a goal chart that I placed on my bedroom door so it's a constant reminder when I leave my room that I need to make good choices to reach them. As of right now I'm finally excited about the future.

Not much to report for this week. My current weight is 316.9. I didn't have that many good gym days because my depression had me down. Finally got a shipment of my new protein powder (Max Protein) which is delicious.

Yaay I finally made it thru my first month. My energy has come back so I started going to the gym which feels awesome. I was stalled for quite some time and kept gaining and losing the same few pounds, but fortunately with my new found zeal at the gym my weight loss has started back again (I actually was able to bench press 135lbs :) ) As of this morning (the beginning of week 5) I weigh 320.8 lbs :). My starting weight was 350 so I'm definitely excited!!! I met with my surgeon who said everything looked good and I was right on track. This past weekend was very hard for me because my depression was even worse. I truly feel my medication isn't absorbing at all so I'll be talking to my PCP next week during my appointment. Today I starting reading a book a fellow OH member recommended (Shrink Yourself by Roger Gould M.D.) which focuses on breaking free from emotional eating. I'm only a chapter or two in but I can already see that this is going to be a major help for me. My doctor was surprised that I had cravings for food so early on but explained everyone is different. With that being said it's even more important for me to get this emotional eating stuff under control.

Week 3 was a bust. Not only was I exhausted everyday from the surgery but my depression has kicked my butt and made me feel lethargic and emotional. I didn't lose anymore weight (I actually gained a couple pounds due to water retention). I did really bad on my fluids and protein and kind of just felt like giving up. I did increase my depression dosage so I'm hoping that kicks in soon. I ordered a bariatric friendly cookbook and a book called Shrink Yourself which is supposed to help with food addiction. I know there's a lot of work to be done emotionally and I'm ready.

So week two seemed to drag on forever. I'm down 28 lbs but haven't lost anything since last Tuesday which is almost a week :(. Is it early enough to have a stall? I'm starting on week 3 and will be going to the gym today. My eating during week 2 was good. I stuck to my portions and met my protein and fluid goals most days. I can finally drink water again which is amazing since there has been a heat wave where I live. I threw up a couple times (one time I ate scrambled eggs and another time I ate fish). I haven't cheated since the last cookie incident but I definitely have had some cravings. I already was on medication for depression before surgery but the past couple days my depression has kicked in full force and I think it's time to increase my dosage.

So my first week had some good and bad points to it. I got a little too cocky around day 4 because I wasn't in much pain and had a few bites of egg salad which stayed down fine. I wasn't supposed to start on eggs until today (the start of week 2) but I was just soo hungry because I wasn't really getting enough protein from the broth and other liquids. Then I did the unspeakable and ate a cookie on day 5. I was at work and someone offered me one and I just forgot about everything. Fortunately I didn't do any damage because I ate it very slow and it passed just fine, but it scared me because for the first time I realized just how important the mental part of surgery is. I want to start going to counseling to help fight this addiction. It has been a struggle getting in enough fluids, but I get more in every day and finally surpassed by 64 oz goal yesterday. Water, jello and crystal light kind of sugar sweetners make me gag and cause a lot of gas, but I finally bought some diet juice yesterday and did just fine. I'm drinking muscle milk protein shakes and feel full and satisfied. I've lost 26 pounds (including the 14 lbs I lost from the 2 week pre-op diet) and a few people are starting to notice a change.

Well my big day came and went. I arrived at the hospital at 0515 Monday June 17th with my mom and sister. The check in process was actually pretty quick. I was so happy I had gotten over my cold just the night before so I was breathing good and didn't have a fever. I met with my anesthesiologist and surgeon before I was wheeled into the operating room. I remember the anesthesiologist said I'm going to give you something to relax, then I looked up at the ceiling lights and thought "I wonder if this is the last thing I'll remember"...and it was lol. The next thing I know I was waking up in the recovery room and I had a bunch of gas pressure on my chest. I've watched countless videos and heard numerous testimonies about the infamous gas so I was prepared and didn't panic. I kept asking the nurse when can I get up and walk cuz I knew that would help but she said not until I was moved to my room. I got nauseous from the medicine and threw up on myself in bed. Finally they took me to my room which I don't remember and I saw my mom and sister. I threw up again (mostly dry heaving) and then was given some medicine. I think I napped for a bit and then got up and walked. It felt like I had done a bunch of situps but the pain wasn't bad, it was the gas that was a mother! I did a lot of walking and pedaling on the bike feet they gave me. My sister stayed with me the first night which was unexpected but very much appreciated. She kept me motivated to keep walking and doing my breathing exercises. I was feeling good and wanted to leave the next day but I still hadn't passed gas and couldn't pee. I wound up having to get three catheters and stay an additional night. Everything finally started working Wednesday morning and I did my drink test and was keeping down fluids so my doctor removed my drain and they released me around 7:00pm that night. I'm doing really well, I actually am at work now. I have minimal pain, and the gas is slowly subsiding. Last night I had a few bites of egg salad ( I wasn't supposed to move to the next stage until Sunday but I feel great and I kept it down. I'm still so shocked this has happened. I've lost some weight (mainly because of the pre-op diet) so some of my clothes are fitting better which is awesome! I can't wait for the changes ahead.

So everything has been going great. I've lost some weight on the pre-op diet and everything has been approved thru my insurance and of course I have my surgery date, but then on Tuesday I got a cold . I have a sore throat, and a cough. I'm fighting for it not to go full blown with mucus and a runny nose. I'm drinking lots of fluids, taking airborne,emergecy-c, gargling with apple cider vinegar and salt water, and sucking on halls. Hopefully all of this works or I'm going to be upset!

OMG...I can't believe how fast things are moving. I went to my surgeon consult yesterday and Dr. Waldrep went over all my labs and paperwork and said I'm a good candidate for the procedure. He did my physical evaluation and stressed the importance of eating lean before the surgery because I carry most of my weight in my mid section. With all that being said I have my surgery scheduled for JUNE 17th!!!!!!  I am so excited and pumped to succeed at this pre-op diet because I want a successful surgery.