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I am halfway there. How amazing. I continue to be humbled by this process, and part of me thinks it is going to "break"...silly, I know.

I can't believe it. Had to by new udnergarments this week, I guess I should've known I was losing SOMETHING, since things were falling out of the old sized garments, eh?

Wow. Absolutely amazing. 

Sheer gratitude. 

There's a lot of 6's there, so I am going to try to break up the 6 stronghold...

Had my 3 month clinic check up today, all is well, I got a thumbs up all around. They were impressed by how clearly I have identified my triggers...I dunno, perhaps it's my training as a therapist? I self regulate fairly well....

Anyway, here we are, new pics! The black dress in the photo is actually too big (I pinned it before we went out), but it was my favorite standby for years, so classy, and now, it and I will need to be parting ways, and it's breaking my heart. So, a good friend and I got together and decided to go out for jazz, and to give a proper goodbye to my "little black dress".

What a great night it was! The music was fab.

Ok, so I worked up the courage to ask a close friend with a digital camera to take some front/side pics of me this Thursday...I am terrified! I still look in the mirror and see the same pre-operative 292 lb woman. I had a coworker come up to me today in the hall and say "oh my god, I saw you approaching, but until you were right in front of me, I didn't know it was you! You've lost so much weight!"

Well, I wish my mind would catch up with my body then....I refuse to stop wearing my 22/24s even though they are baggy because I was in this size for over 10 yrs. The last time I wore 18/20s I was 17 yrs old. 

I can't shake this feeling that by moving to 18/20s, I am changing, and I am becoming someone different. Those of you who know me know that I had WLS surgery SOLELY to improve my health and lifestyle for the rest of my life. I want to be in the BEST shape possible if/when I choose to have a child. I did NOT have this surgery to be a certain size, weight....I am/was beautiful as a plus-sized woman. I now am becoming someone....different.

I hope I am not the only person out there who feels like this....

-61 lbs as today, and I remain completely appreciative and humbled by this process.

Hi all:

Well, if you check my profile regularly, you know that I weigh in on Mondays. I am down 55 lbs as of today, and I still don't believe it. Really. I know my sizes are dropping, but I haven't yet had that beautiful mind/body connection where my mind tells me my body has lost weight. And, I still see the same pre-op person staring at me in the mirror. What a weird mind game THAT is! 

But, I am following the program basics, and getting in water, vitamins, protein, and establishing an exercise regimen. I hope that I can continue to make slow but steady progress. I am so humbled by this.

For now,
Megan

P.S. I can still feel my collarbone!!! I have elbows and shoulders now too!

I've got a collarbone, ribs, pelvic bones, and elbows....it's awe inspiring.

This is one wild ride, y'all...

Forgive me if my fashion lacks for a bit, I have gone through sizes so quickly, I am literally running out of pants to wear...

What a difference 50 + lbs makes...

Love this pic I found, very symbolic of change....

Down 50 lbs as of today, and I think my tummy and I are making friends with one another....I remain humbled by this process.

Yes!

Monday, monday..... -33 degrees here, and the scale actually moved! 

I am down 7 lbs this week.....strange business, this weight loss is.

Take care all,
Megan

And the week is over! 

Doing better, drinking more....I think I had a relapse when I tried to drink normal tap water....way too harsh for me. Have to stay on filtered water for a bit.

I did have my one and only post op vomiting (or emesis) episode a few days ago---I had baked tilpia marinated in a teriyaki and lemon zest marinade...I ate a bit, and 20 minutes later, it was up and out. Oh well, it was a wild "out of body experience"...as it was happening, I was thinking, "we post ops do NOT emit like non-ops do!" I'd be ok if that never happened again.

All in all, TGIF and I am so glad we can put this week to bed!

Best,
Megan

Hmm, rough week. This is week #6, I am supposed to loving soft solids, but guess what? I am struggling big time, for the first time ever, with getting my water in. I have no idea what it is....I fight all day to get it down, don't and spend all evening focused on getting my quota in...this is not cool, and can't last long, because I am not a happy camper...

And, it's freezing here in Minnesotah, so I am layered x2, and I think my body wants to hold onto its fat to stay warm---same weight for 6 days now.

I hope all is well for everyone else!

Best,
Megan