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Im sooooo HAPPY...IM AT 161! i couldnt believe it when i got onto the scale...all it took was 2 days of journaling my food and cutting out a lot of fat and carbs! im soooo happy! It just reminds me how much i love my vsg!! Im still in shock! i probably didnt need to say that and it shows!
Im really happy and now im going to start ordering food from bariatriceating.com or somethin like that...Gona get this ball rollin agian

I really feel like kicking myself...ive been stalled for too long and i havent been exercising like i should...actually i dont really exercise at all...but i am definatly more active since surgery...but no excuses!
I was bad this weekend.  It was a friends birthday and we stayed in a hotel...probably drank more alchohal and juice than needed...but i never got drunk but i should have stayed away from it completely but it so hard because everyone is celebrating graduating...and im legal to drink down here so its so easy to come by!
I was amazed with myself when i was able to stuff 3 chips ahoy cookies down my troat with no restriction! WOII that was a bad moment...but i told myself to stop after 3 and i did which felt nice. In the mean time of cookies and alchohal i did manage to eat some eggs and bacon and cheese and hot dogs with half the bun...so i didnt do that bad...but its weird to be with a bunch of people who eat normally and then i cant..but i never told them about surgery sooooo it makes it that much harder!
Today i feel really sick...i just came home from school!  I was puking up heartburn type of stuff with some egg i had this morning...NOT COOL...dont really know what to do to make it feel better...took an anacid so hopefully that works...
Feel kina hopeless on this forum stuff...guess because im so on and off with posting because im so busy with school and i really need some good info for my head on what foods i should eat that would make me feel better but still give me my protein...When i go to the states in July i think im going to go to barnes and noble and pick up some wls books and some diet kind of books so im not so lost! Because right now the only options i have is chicken bacon eggs protein drinks coffee and some popcorn for a treat....and i think i want to find some different ways to get my protein in without all the fat....but down here it is SOOOO hard to find high protein options!!!! So yea its really frusterating because i know there is only so long for a honeymoon period...but this summer im going to be working on a farm and i will be in the states so i hope i can get the ball rolling then!!!!! But also now...but ive kina lost hope....hope im not the only one experiencing my same feelings about the slow weight loss

Well im stuck at 164 right now...and cant get that to move much...but im also not helping the situation..i still make good choices but with the ability to eat almost EVERYTHING but only small amounts makes it easier to choose something bad...but of course im not eating in amounts like before but the fact that im still choosing the bad stuff sometimes makes me thing HMMM...Also i have definatly found that being in a foreign country that doesnt have a lot of the things the states has is also hard...it is hard for me to find things that just fitt me like with being hi protein and thing...people in the caribbean dont really diet lol 
BUTTTTTT i do have GREATTTT news...i will be graduating in 3 weeks...omgosh i can't believe this is happening...i feel like kindergarten was just yesterday lol...sound like my own parent..
But really im actually more excited about going off to college more than anything...
I went to ST. Thomas USVI..in the caribbean to see the college i am going to attend. Its call University of the Virgin Islands! and its awesome. And since St. thomas is a US territory they have A TON of things to do and shopping and ACTUALLY when i was there we went shopping and i went into the store called BEBE...(wooohoo i can fit into their clothes!) but i just bought some earrings and the store manager striked up a conversation and then when she found out i was going to move there she offered me a job!! can you believe that...I was estatic!
Then after that i went to tour the school and i used to be a volleyball player and the volleyball coach said he wanted to see my skills and that was cool...just think if i wouldnt have had this surgery i may not be able to grab on to life and run with it like i am!
Well there is only my computer that is left working in the house and the grams needs to use the computer before i go off to school :) only 19 days left ;)
Until next time
PS...The VSG message board has gotten so many new people that i am kina lost so i read things to help my knowledge but i dont post much!

Well it's been a couple weeks since a post....Im on here almost everyday but there are not really big changes or NSV's so I just read and stock up on information
Well for the last week or so my mother and friends have been going out to eat.  It definatly is different than what eating out was like before surgery!
It's almost a chore to have to sit down and eat.  Like last night I ate two mozzerella sticks and about 3.5 ounzes of chicken.  And then seeing my mother and her friend stuff down appetizers, salads and main courses AND drink at the same time....but not me!  At the beginning of surgery i would have been jealous and having a hard time but now i look at them like you dont need all of that...i dont so why do you LOL..i dont say anything because their stomachs are obviously a lot larger than mine!  My mothers friend who was with us is thinking of getting the surgery because she has seen my results...I see the way she eats and it reminds me of how i was pre op and i would be happy if she was able to get this surgery because when we talk about surgery she always kina gets like a lil depressed ( you guys kno those feelings of when surgery is unsure!) and then goes and eats chips and cookies and i wish she could be experienceing the same self changing feelings as me. My weight is about 168 +/- ...i dont have an electronic scale...I know some people think i shouldn't have gotten surgery because of my starting weight (200) but my whole childhood years i was pushing 230 and then lost weight at about 15 by starving myself and ever since those 2 months i lost a lot of weight I have been going up and up and up.  My life has been a constant battle with food and I wanted it to change before it changed me!

I am now about 1 month and change out and life is pretty good.  My eating is good...i make good choices and i cant eat very much.  There has been a lot of stress in my life right now with things with my mother and with the fact that i have to move in a couple month and college and everything...SO I have been very grumpy to the people around me...plus i started birth control...I dont know what to do...im such a bitch...but what is going on around me is very irritating and it feels as if people are attacking me verbally...IDK
well im about 28 lbs down...thats pretty good i say...i really need to join a gym!

http://www.genaw.com/lowcarb/recipes.html
http://www.freeweightloss.com/fastfood.html

I feel really good about myself! I definatly feel thinner and a LOTTT happier with myself and self image..and that is only 20 lbs. i guesss maybe that is because this is about 10 lbs from my lowest weight :D and im planning to still keep losing
I have developed heartburn eggghh
I have never had it so bad that i have to take something for it...but o well it will maybe encourage me to drink more water insead of eating ya kno
I went out last night...yea i kina drank too much..BAD ME...but i looked and felt sooo sexi i loved it..cant wait for that to happen more
I have lost about 19 lbs total for a month..i hope that is good...ive been posting and people are telling me that is completely normal and that about a month of 3 weeks out people have stalls...
well i havent fallen in love with my sleeve quite yet..because im really havin some bad food cravings...but i found out i eat socially, comfortly, and when im not hungry...but i really like it!

So last night i went out to a local clubb that is only on wednesday nights because it is spring break now.  Well my Dum*** decided well ill just have some pinnapple juice and some vodka...well one turned into 2 and 2 turned into 3 and i think i had half of another on  That wasnt good...i should have been drinking water because i now i feel SOOO dehydrated!

okay well due to my privacy being invaded by google when i searched my name i decided to change my username and just create a new profile...the beginning of my journey is under my stor and then i will keep posting to continue it....