Picking myself up & moving forward!

Feb 05, 2014

   I admit it:  I've been in denial about my weight regain for a few months now.  But, there's no arguing the numbers on the scale in my Dr's office.  From my lowest weight of 129, I've regained 37 lbs.  Initially, I was extremely upset.  How could this have happened?!?  I was supposed to be a success story, not one of the failures!

   Well, I know EXACTLY how it happened!  Instead of sticking to what I knew & learned in my pre-surgery class, I listened, instead, to other people who were jealous of my success & the attention it brought me.  They convinced me that "a bite won't hurt".  One bite won't, but, for someone who has dealt with a lifetime of food addiction, it doesn't end with just that one bite!  That one bite rapidly becomes 2, then 10, then 20 and suddenly, my weight is shooting up again!  Sure, I could easily blame my other peopler, but I only have myself to blame.  I'm the one who ultimately decides what goes on my plate & in my mouth.  I also failed to address the stress I was faced with daily at work, which left me physically, mentally & emotionally drained at the end of the day and too tired to exercise.  I completely ignored the fact that just simply walking not only helps me release stress, but invigorates me.  I was suddenly slipping into old habits; habits I vowed to never follow again.  I was getting angry with myself.  I was, once again, allowing others to influence my decisions.  Back the truck up!  I am NOT going back where I was!  How could I forget the number one thing I learned in my pre-surgery class:  it's OK to say "No!"

   So, it's back to basics.  I sat down & pulled out all of my information from my pre-surgery class & started re-reading everything.  I realize I just need to take a deep breath, take a step back and just get back to basics.  I need to re-establish the lifestyle changes I made before I had my surgery and immediately after.  I'm not going to beat myself up about the weight gain.  I'm going to say, "lesson learned," and move forward.  I'm tracking my food, making better food choices, and have started watching meditation videos on YouTube to manage my stress.

   When faced with choices, you have to decide, are you going to just sit there & let things happen, or are you going to choose to make the changes you need to have a better life?  Me?  I'm choosing to have a better life.

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