siannamay
I wanted to start off in some spectacular way but I'm sure that you've heard it all before... Yes, I've been overweight for as long as I can remember........ I also have been diagnosed with clinical depression with my weight being a main factor.
Where am I today? I'm pretty much sure that I'm not where I should be emotionaly and spiritually. I've overcome some major obstacles in my life so with that being said, you'd think that I'd be feeling pretty good. Not the case... I'm the biggest I've ever been and i am obsessed with my weight. The strange thing is, the more I obsess over the weight it seems like the more I eat. I guess I feel like it's a losing battle.
I am African American and was adopted into a Caucasian family when I was three weeks old. I remember being thin up until I was around 10. I remember people always asking me if I was going to be a model because of my height.. I stand tall at 6'2. Somewhere around the age of 9 or 10 the depression kicked in and food was the remedy. I felt like I didn't fit in with so many different aspects of my life. I had severe Identity issues, my weight was piling on....I was a jokester however I felt miserable inside.
There is that glimpse of hope though. The possibilities of me having the surgery makes me smile. Do I feel like it will be an answer to all my problems? No, not at all. I feel like it's going to be a great help though. I'm anxious because I keep thinking negative things, one being what if I get turned down for some reason for the surgery? That would be devastating to me. So my first step has been attending the orientations at the hospital where I will possibly have the surgery done. I am on my way and I feel pretty good about it.
My story goes deeper than this, but i am trying to keep it light as I'm sure no one wants to hear about being stuck in a negative place.. If you are a member of this group from obesity help, I'm sure you can identify.
Thanks,
S
