sillymonkey23
hola! my name is Monique and i'm 22.9 years old (23 on 3/16). I am a recent college graduate still looking to find my way in the world (ugh so cliche...smack me please) Right now i'm just exploring the site, hoping to meet new people, hear some stories, and hopefully begin to change my life....
I've been overweight my entire life. Most of my family is as well. I didn't start gaining massive amounts of weight until college and after suffering a personal tragedy in 2007, i fell into a deep depression and gained about 30lbs in a year. I had low self-esteem my entire life and up until my sophomore year of college. And then something snapped into me and i became this like FABULOUS DIVA! lol. Most people say that the love that i have for myself is an inspiration to them, and I'm glad that me being fat is a positive thing for SOMEBODY...but I'd be lying if i didn't say that half of the time it's just a front. I don't think anyone LIKES being overweight. I think i just became content with it, and i realized that if i wasn't willing to make any changes in my life to lose weight, then what was the point in being depressed about it.
My brother got Gastric bypass (idk what kind) in like 2005. He was almost 500lbs and lost almost 300lbs. And a friend/coworker of mine also recently got the surgery a few wks ago and she is already down like 40lbs. Looking at the immediate effect that it's had on them has made me a bit jealous...i do want what they have (the newfound energy, the renewed confidence, healthier lifestyle, cheaper clothes and such)...but at the same time...i just don't think i'm ready to make a change like that. I don't think i've reached that "rock bottom, holy sh!t, something has to change" moment in my life yet. Maybe i'm just afraid...i don't know
....tis all I have to say for now.
