back for a min...

Jul 16, 2009

so i've been missing from OH for a while. Mainly because honestly, the site depressed me a little more. Looking at people's post-op pics and wondering how come i can't look like that and wondering would i EVER be able to look like that.  So i thought it was best to just fall back for a while...do some thinking and some soul searching and what not. And now i'm back. [Still probably won't be a daily OH user because i don't want to fall back into that pity party that i was in a while back.]

I have taken 1.5 steps toward my weight loss journey i suppose.

Step 1: I finally had a heart to heart talk...with myself! And realized that something in my life needed to change. I'm too much of a fun loving person to be depressed the way I was. And i'm not going to sit here and say that my depression was caused soley by my weight. Because it's not that. It's a factor but not the only one. I think i finally admitted to myself that I have a problem. No one should be 340 lbs...especially not a 23 year old. And i realize that with each bite of deliciously hot pepperoni pizza i'm slowly killing myself...and i don't want to die. So time to nip this thing in the bud before it becomes more out of control than it already has. So yeah Step 1....admit that there is a problem.

Step 1.5: I made an appointment with my primary care doc to discuss surgery and other options. Not a big step, but still a step that needs to be acknowledge lol

So yeah, my journey is just beginning. I'm afraid. So very afraid. Just thinking about it right now terrifies me to no end. But it's necessary. I know that by no means will this be easy...but i know for a fact that it'll be worth it.

andddd that's it for now. Ta-ta OH!

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