sparkles
I am a 23 yr old Female, that has been overweight all her life, I have a 65% BMI, and was 372 lbs at last check. My goal weight is 125-145 lbs. I live in Orlando and am recently married. I have been debating WLS for about 3 years now. I have had friends around me that have had it done and look fantastic. I've always been afraid of dying and thought that I could lose all this weight all by myself. I've tried every diet imaginable (but have not taken any pills). I've been on diets since I was 8 years old. I remember the day my mother brought home Richard simmons "Sweatin to the oldies" and Mickey Mouse and the Mouseketters excersise videos. She always felt it was her fault. I nursed myself most of my life, saying that I couldn't breath or that it hurt to excersise. The truth was, I AM LAZY. Now I can't breath after a flight of stairs and walking more than 15 minutes kills me.
I have lost weight with most of the diets I have tried. However, I'm always hungry and quickly gain the weight back at the slightest draw back. I lost over 50 lbs in 5 months with the Atkins diet last year. I felt great and was down to 330 lbs. I was losing the weight to fit into the dress my sister picked out for her wedding. I made it, but barely. Shortly there after, I began eating pizza and cake again and put ALL of the weight back on.
I have bad knees, and because of my weight, a bad back. I smoke, which kills my lungs, so walking anywhere for very long leaves me gasping for breaths and has my heart pounding out of my chest.
I can no longer even buy jeans at Lane Bryant or Cato Plus. They don't fit! I'm forced to wear business clothes everywhere I go. I admit, I look funny going to a football game in dress pants and a nice shirt. I refuse to start catalog shopping to fit into jeans. I know that buying bigger clothes only enables me to eat more.
I can no longer wear a seatbelt when I drive. It won't fit around me. I've heard you can buy adjusters to make them larger, but I haven't found one.
If I go too long with out eating, I get horrible headaches and get nauseous. I feel so incredibly helpless and never have the energy to do anything.
So now that you know enough about my life up to this point, lets talk about where I'm headed.
My first appointment with Dr. Jawad is this Friday. I've already filled out my paperwork and am ready to talk about changing my life. I have already decided to have the RNY surgery done, and am looking forward to having a date. I've started buying more healthy foods and am going to try to start cooking more. Not only do I need to do it for me, but for my darling husband as well. I love him so much and because of me, he has gained weight too. He is no where near the point I am, and I don't ever want him to be. We both want to be a family of losers!!
