Staycie T.

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Hello all-
   I know it has been forever since I posted, but the truth is I am so ashamed I just couldn't come here and admit defeat. I still have not broken the 200 lb mark. I bounce between 204 and 210. I had been off work since sept of 06 due to a back injury (on short term disability) But I went back on 8-22-07. I am still on alot of meds for my back, but about 3 weeks ago and a second opinion, I found a doctor that gave me some steroid injections that have made a huge difference in my pain level. I want to start excercising again, but I guess fear of the pain coming back is a big reason I have put it off. I think a big reason I have struggled to lose more weight than I have is because I catch myself reverting back to habits I had when the band was in. The biggest one is "grazing". Instead of eating a meal, I pick of something over  a long period of time. Also, this not drinking when I eat is a big deal for me---I am a heavy consumer of liquids....Mainly water. I guess I just went thru the hell of this surgery to waste time and money. It is so humiliating to be the one who couldn't even lose weight with a drastic measure such as the bypass.

Till next time-
Staycie

i didnt think I was ever going to get away from 226!!! All is well with me right now. My hair loss seems to be a way of life, I don't think it will ever STOP.; I hope all of the mothers out there had a great mothers day. I know I did!!!

OK....I know I may have high expectations, but come on already! I want to lose this weight. BUT in all fairness, I cannot walk much right now due to the back injury (I have to have a discectomy in 2 weeks) so I know lack of movement and working out is a big part of the problem. I do ok as far as most foods going down. Something that is interesting to me is how similar the food problems are compared to when I had the lap-band. I cannot eat any cereal with milk in it, I have to eat it dry. (I use high fiber cereal to be sure all things are regular) And that wouldn't be a problem if I were eating lucky charms or coco puffs, I loved those dry....and they loved me right back to the tune of 268 lbs!! But Fiber 1 is NASTY wet or dry, but necessary. I have broken the Diet coke habit I started after surgery...I cannot get enough water anymore to save my life.

I'll check back in soon-Have a great weekend!
Staycie

Well...It's been a while since I updated my profile, but not much to report. I am down to 228, that makes 40 pounds. It is very bittersweet though. My back problem is back and I am unable to do much of anything in the way of working out. Walking is very difficult with the pain I have. I have not been doing the protein drinks...started throwing them up so I quit...they make me gag!!! I eat alot of protein, and as fas as I can tell, I have only had 1 dumping issue. Took a few too many sips of my kids Sprite when I had a upset tummy. Actually, it was more than a few sips, but it was less than 6 ozs. I still don't so well with beef, eat ALOT of turkey. Chicken is always a crap shoot. I have tried fish once and it made me very nauseated.

Take care all!!

Well...I think my patience is wearing thin. I am getting really tired of my stomach being upset so much. Today I had a vomiting episonde that was the mose painful I have had in years! Over a freakin protein bar. I eat them every day, I guess I just ate it too fast today. And I sit here tonight sipping on peppermint tea to calm the belly that has been upset all day. I went back to work last week, and have only managed 1 8 hour shify so far. My job requires me to be tied to a desk except for breaks and lunches, so getting up to vomit or whatever else is locked down on. SOMEONE please tell me this will pass and the good days will come more often!!!!

Talk to you soon-
Stacy

Well....not alot of changes to report. Christmas was great, although I did something STUPID on Christmas Eve. As we were on our way out the door, I took a bite of sweet potatoes that my husband made, DIDN'T chew it well and it got stuck. So for the rest of the night ANYTHING I put in my mouth I threw up. I finally gave up, got up the next morning and was loads better. Now I just have to be very careful, don't want to be sick again. I dropped down to 237.8 the other day, but this morning I was back at 240...Bummer.

Till next time!
Staycie

I went in yesterday morning to have the staples removed. They came out, and I feel alot better. I aslo got the clearance to move on to soft foods. So I had some instant mashed potatoes for lunch and a little mushed up chicked noodle soup for supper!! It was great. I will have to say that my protein drinks are starting to make me feel like crap when I drink them. I have always just taken them with water......they taste best that way.

For the records also-------My offical weight loss for 6 days post op is -----27 fat pounds!!!!!!!!! Woo-Hooo

Ok!!!! I survived! I went in on Friday for my uneventful surgery..(Thank you Jesus!)
My incredible husband stayed with me the entire time. Was uncomfortbale, but managed. I did my walking, came home at noon on Saturday..Here is what amazes me...

Friday 12/8/2006 weight ---268
Sunday 12/10/2006 weight ---255
Monday 12/11/2006 weight ---250
Tuesday 12/12/2006 weight as of right now ----247.6!!!!!

Anyhow....doing water and protein drinks, can't stand any more broth!!! Oh, SF popsicles!!!

staycie

I can't believe it is finally happening!!!!I am scared. I am worring about the kids and the hubby. I don't want to be on the bad side of the stats for this surgery.
I want to stop hiding from the world, HATING WHAT i SEE IN THE MIRROR.
 i WANT MY BACK TO NOT HURT AS MUCH
I want off my BP meds
I want off anti-depressants
I want my health back!!!!

 i WANT TO OUTLAST my 3 y/o son.
 I want to feel attractive to my husband...even though he tells me I am beautiful and sexy and he would love me if I was 450.....I want the confidence back.
 I want to be able to buy clothes from any store I choose...not from a select fes because of size limitations.
 I want my ex-husband to have a fit when he sees me again and realize what a dumb a** he was for running around on me.
 I could go on and on.
 I don't want shaving my legs to be an olympic sport for me any longer, nor do I want to see the words plus sized on anything but my bank deposits.
I want to wear a bathing suit somewhere besides the store dressing rooms.
I want to feel pretty again one day!!!
Pray for me.
Dave----U are the best thing that ever happened to me and the kids.
Kayleigh, Emily and DJ----You are each a blessing from God. I love you more than any of you could ever begin to imagine. I will never stop loving or watching over you!

Staycie

I cannot believe I have chewed my last bite for a few weeks! I have surgery on Friday, and I am really ready for this to happen. I did not make the nutrition calsee last week. Due to the ice storm, I had my 3 yr old here (his daycare closed due to weather) so I couldn't take him with me. I am going to see if I can make the class this Thursday that they have. I just PRAY that all goes well and that this weight coming off will help my back. I have been off work for going on 3 months and the problem hasn't gotten any better---only worse. Now I can't stand up straight anymore. The pain is so severe, all I can do is lay down and cry. I am missing so much and it is driving me insane.