Jan 18, 2012It looks like I have disappeared. Shame on me. I had all these wonderful ambitions of being a cheerleader for life after surgery. Then life happened. I would never change what I have done. I have maintained at 122. I have puked in the toilet for having too much sugar. Oh that makes me so made at people when that happens. I think "and they say this is the easy way out". I know I have changed. You are bound to change. Believe it or not I still look in the mirror and see that fat Brenda. I still look fat. I did develop an ulcer and weighed 103 and still thought I was fat. I had a tummy tuck. My insurance covered it because of rashes. I still have lost family memeber because of the surgery. It is so sad.. I don't understand. People think I think I am all that. NOPE, wrong. I still see fat. Sounds dumb doesn't it. So be prepared. Have a cheerleader that doesn't get tired of saying you are not fat or you will become anorexic.