suetomimati
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Aug 03, 2007
Hi. Let's see, what have I been up to? I went to visit my friend Tracy in Cape Coral again this past weekend. I also took my kids to see their dad. He can't pick them up because he doesn't have the money for gas (the guy is a pilot for AirTran). 
Anyways, he's such a liar, but I wanted my kids to visit with their dad, seeing as the last time they were with him at his house was back in NOVEMBER.
Anywho...we got back into town on Wednesday evening and when I went for my weigh in on Thursday, I was up 1lb. I really felt bloated and just plain crampy. Hopefully, that pound will take a hike this week.
On another note, I met a lady who had her RNY with my doctor about 4 months ago. She looked great and says that I have nothing to worry about. She couldn't have said nicer things about the doctor, even if she was his mother. We talked for about 45 minutes after the nutrition class had ended. I was almost in tears just listening to her and knowing she understands what I am feeling and how excited I am to be able to start my life over again. It was awesome!
I have made some dietary changes at home and my children seem healthier, too. I have cut out bread (for me) and I bought whole wheat pasta. Let me tell you, whole wheat pasta is very tastey. I only had my 1 cup portion, but I was ok with that because I ate a whole bag of broccoli and cauliflower right before we all sat down for lunch. I was almost stuffed before everyone started eating.
I have started exercising a little more. I know how important it is, but I still get sooo tired because my butt is so big. Hopefully, it will be on the shrinking side before 2008!
Well, as always, I have to go finish up my school work. I just hate having to take classes over the summer! I am in a grant program and sometimes I just wish I could give them their money back so that I could get my life back. Besides the fact that I am always trying to find something else I need to do, I am not putting the time into the assignments. Some teacher I am. I can't even get through the class. Sadly, the classes ended on Monday, but I am still dragging my a** trying to get in a few assignments. In one class, I forgot to take the final, then, in another class I have a bunch of work to do because I haven't done anything because I don't like my professor. Then, I have to finish up a strategies notebook......all because I just haven't wanted to work on it all summer long......................sorry for the vent.......................
Take care,
Sue
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Jul 26, 2007
Well, my meeting went much better than I thought it was going to go. I actually lost a pound. I have to admit that I was very physical all week long. I shampooed my rugs, built a bookshelf with my kids, cleaned out the garage, weeded the garden, reached high and low to organize things. I felt like I was nesting. Very odd, but hey, I'll take it.
I am really beginning to understand how the weekly meetings I have been attending will be helping me in the future. I can tell you that I will be hanging out with them. I learned so much tonight about label reading. I thought I knew everything, but I didn't. The marketers really enjoy confusing us with terms like "low fat", "sugar-free", "healthy" and even "no sugar added" (which by the way is NOT the same as "sugar-free"). My dietician recommended everyone to look very carefully at the servng size. She's right! I tend to eat about 3 servings at a time because I am so accustomed to it.
On a side note, I didn't eat as much today. Actually, I wasn't even hungry until dinner time. I really over did it yesterday and my body seemed happy just taking a break, however, I had a ton of energy.
Talk to you all soon,
Sue
PS~~I just wanted to say thank you to all of you who have been emailing me and giving me support. It means a lot.
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Jul 25, 2007
Hi everyone,
Sorry I never posted about the consultation appointment. I have it set up for the 14th of Aug at 11am. I was hoping to get in before school started back, but I will have to take what I can get. I hope my assistant principal doesn't get too upset. I should only be away for a few hours and I can make those up after.
On a seperate note, I ate terribly today. I have to meet my ex to drop off my children for their visitation and I am stressed about seeing him. I don't love him anymore and I don't care what he thinks of me, but I guess in a way I do. I just know he's sitting back thinking how happy he is that he is with a new skinny wife. Yup, he married the woman he cheated on me with. Of course, she is thin and having to see him just makes me ill. I am stressed about not getting my class work in on time, I am stressed about the bug man coming tomorrow and seeing my house, I am stressed that I have to have everything ready to travel, my dogs have to get to my mom's, I still have to visit with her since she came back from her trip.......and I only have 2 days. I always let too many things pile up and then I can't manage.
Today, I had:
Breakfast: coffee
Lunch: Lg chili and lg fry
Dinner: Quarter pounder, lg fry, diet coke
**Snack: 2 cheeseburgers and a hot fudge sundae
**I was considering throwing everything up, but I don't want to hurt my stomach before surgery. I was bulimic many years ago and I used that as a way to hide my feelings. I KNOW that I can't do that anymore and I DON'T want to do that anymore, but sometimes it truly is a struggle.
I have a feeling that I am not going to have a good week at the scales tomorrow. Oh well, I can only do what I can do. I am going to do some extra exercises and see if I can burn some of these extra calories and I am NOT eating tomorrow to make up for the surplus. I hate it when I mess up with food. It is such a punishment for me.
Have any of you guys heard of the 2 annual WLS cruise that is being set up for January? I have the info from another member and I would love to go and take my kids. It's about $350 per person. Let me know if you're interested.
Take care,
Sue
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Jul 20, 2007
When I got home today, there was a phone call from Dr. Sebastien's office on my answering machine, but I was at my mom's house.
I was so excited and upset at the same time. Who knows, maybe I could have set up an appointment to meet with him next week or something. Argh....... Oh well, I'll call them back FIRST thing Monday morning.When my dietician said they would be calling next week, I NEVER imagined they would be calling sooo sooooon. I am so E*X*C*I*T*E*D!!!
Ok, I have to run,
Take care,
Sue
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Jul 19, 2007
OOOOHHHHH, I just had to add this to the beginning, the dietician at the weight management program told me that someone from the doctor's office was going to be calling me this week for my initial consult!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanted to hug her, but I didn't think she wanted to have some strange woman getting overly excited about a phone call. She just has NOOOOOO idea how excited I am about the possibility of having this life saving surgery. I sit in the meetings with this huge grin on my face the whole time because I am SOOOOOOOO excited about what is happening.
My weekly weigh in for the weight management program went very well!!! I lost 1.2lbs. I almost sh** my pants because I have been eating frosted mini wheats like crazy for breakfast everyday this week. I didn't realize they weren't that great for me until this morning. I was probably consuming about 150g of carbs per day. I tried to make better choices this week, but mostly, I have been getting off my butt and moving.
I'm not sure if the weight management classes will change after surgery, but I am starting to really see how useful the information is. I know it will be something I need to continue with even after the surgery. For example, tonight we talked about Emotional Eating.......uh ya, that's my middle name!!!! One thing I learned was to actually name the problem causing me to eat. So, instead of me saying, "I am so upset with my courses this term.", I should name the cause of my anger; "I am so upset with Dr. ******* because she hasn't provided any feedback all semester, except to give me a negative comment on my article review." It made sense!!!!!! I am the kind of person who eats because I am trying to drown my feelings because I just don't want to deal with them. I know it will be hard to overcome all of this, but with my weight loss team, friends, family, OH, and God, I KNOW that I will be able to do this. I KNOW that I will succeed this time, I can just feel it!!
Take care,
Sue
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Jul 12, 2007
Hi everyone~
I just wanted to thank everyone who sent supporting words. It really makes a difference when you feel you're not going through everything alone. Well, I went to the weight management class and it turns out I lost 2 lbs. Boy, was I ever excited. I was so worried that I would not be approved for the surgery because I couldn't lose any weight. Ha, how odd would that be. So now, the big joke around my family and friends is to be careful I don't lose too much because then I won't get my surgery.
In a way, I really feel like it's bothering me that I need to try to lose weight when I feel like I am starving myself. I am just not meant to eat in smaller portions.....at least not yet.
I have spent too much time on here today glittering up my page. I need to get my homework done.
Take care,
Sue
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Jul 12, 2007
I just have to write that I have been miserable today. I have to go to my weight maintenance program tomorrow and I know that I gained weight again. I am just so hungry all of the time and the minute I think I have to lose weight or watch what I am eating, I start pigging out. Food has just been tasting so good lately. The problem is that I am supposed to complete the weight maintenance program "successfully." Does that mean I need to lose weight or can I get by with just saying that I have learned so much about which foods to eat? I feel like they are never going to approve me for surgery if I can't get my butt in gear now. The dietician I see on Thursday nights is the same one who works with the bariatric patients after their surgery...actually, the whole team that works with the weight maintenance program will be the ones who will be making the decision about whether or not to approve me for the program
What should I do? I am so nervous about going now. I know that I didn't do well this week. I just feel so depressed about not being approved that I am eating like a mad woman.
Any suggestions?
Thanks,
Sue
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Jul 12, 2007
1. Death and leaving my two little boys to live with their dad and his wife. He hasn't seen his kids in 2 1/2 months and he hasn't had them spend time at his house for 8 months! He lives in the same state...about 3.5 hours away, he just says he never has time.
2. I am a teacher and it seems that surgery will be scheduled some time in October. Should I feel guilty for taking time off? I mean, should I re-schedule the surgery once I have a date? I would have to wait until Thanksgiving or Christmas. Is it wrong of me to want to have this doen as soon as they give me a date? i really want to have it done and over with. Could I lose my job?
I guess those are my two main concerns. I am pretty mch approved for the surgery and my preop work can't begin until I have completed at least 8 weeks with the hospital's lighter lifestyles program. I have completed 4. I am told that the surgery will not be scheduled until about the 3rd or 4th month into the program. That puts me at late Sept, early Oct. How do I decide if I take the time off from teaching/work?
Off to shampoo carpets today. I have 2 dogs and 2 boys.....got the picture?
Take care,
Sue
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Jul 07, 2007
I am so excited and nervous about the fact that gastric bypass has somehow found it's way into my life. I am 34 years old and divorced, HAPPILY. I also have 2 amazing boys, who are 8 & 5, an awesome support team and friends who I actually believe love me. Tthey have seen me struggle with obesity since I was a child. When my mom was preggo with my sister, people joked about how cute it was that I was preggo along with her.....I was S*I*X.
This site has become such a wonderful place to journal my journey to the other side. It's like scrapbooking on the internet. I am big into the smiley's and can't wait to find other ways to express myself non-verbally. Yes, I am a nut....
lol!!I am looking forward to meeting new people and providing support as we all cross this bridge in our lives. I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs, that's how excited I am. It's like God is handing me a pass to be born again. Once this is all done, I know that I will take MUCH better care of my body than I did the first time around. Woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Take care,
Sue
About Me
Deltona, FL
Location
28.4
BMI
Surgery
07/02/2008
Surgery Date
Mar 31, 2007
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