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The urban dilemma: The Big Booty
Jul 02, 2012
I havent written in ages! I really miss this site but luckily ive been busy. School is stressful, nothing new, and I'm finally looking for work! : )
My bosy has changed so much for the good and somedays i feel the worse. My bum bum is completelt gone. no Fat what so ever. In other societies and cultures, this isn't an issue,but a voctory. Not for the folks in 'my world'. I hate using that term because it is one world, but the way we see it makes it seem like we live on different planets. Any who, like i sated my booty department has gone bankrupt, and somedays i really don't care, honestly. But then i feel like I am not what I shouls look like. How is it that I should 'look' a certain way? We all can't be kim k, but I honestly love a shapely body. My breast being smaller doesnt bother me but i cant get over this cultural obsession with the booty.
I start to wonder whether or not surgey i thata rea is a possibility, but then i feel like, what is the (no pun intended) big deal?!
any thoughts?
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My bosy has changed so much for the good and somedays i feel the worse. My bum bum is completelt gone. no Fat what so ever. In other societies and cultures, this isn't an issue,but a voctory. Not for the folks in 'my world'. I hate using that term because it is one world, but the way we see it makes it seem like we live on different planets. Any who, like i sated my booty department has gone bankrupt, and somedays i really don't care, honestly. But then i feel like I am not what I shouls look like. How is it that I should 'look' a certain way? We all can't be kim k, but I honestly love a shapely body. My breast being smaller doesnt bother me but i cant get over this cultural obsession with the booty.
I start to wonder whether or not surgey i thata rea is a possibility, but then i feel like, what is the (no pun intended) big deal?!
any thoughts?
NEW YOU TUBE VIDEO! 5 months later
May 11, 2012
he beautiful people i finally got my stuff together and posted a video on you tube and i hope you guys enjoy and subscribe!
follow the link!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5o51lFMkh0U
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follow the link!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5o51lFMkh0U
helloooo 5 months later, lol
Apr 28, 2012
long time no blog! i have been mighty neglectful. But i promise i have a good reason. I have finally returned back to school and am elated to say things are going quite well. Minus one class, but theres always summer school. I fit in my desk, i walk without loosing my breath, i am not sweating like a dog, i am just happy to be kinda normal! everyone tells me how much im changing *physically* and some times i see it, other times i dont see the big deal. it wasnt until i looked back at my "before" photos when i was like wow, i was BIG. lol its crazy how your brain can play tricks on you. i still dont maintain my yt channel, i wish i was more consistant but its just a lot of wor, much respect to thise who do them on a weekly basis. so far i have lost over 85 pounds, and i weigh 215 pounds. life is god, and im close to my 100 and something goal.
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I HAVE A NEW CAMERA! : )
Dec 17, 2011
YouTube videos coming soon folks! I have been overwhelmed with all the changes going on right now and it really has been a rollercoaster. i wish i can blog more or vlog more but i am really tired its hard getting up and walking which i do everyday 30-40mins. ugh so many topics to discuss; the food mourning, the smells, food porn/tortures, losing weight, etc so stay tuned ya'll
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I HAD SURGERY! OH.MY.GOD. THANK U
Dec 04, 2011
Hello beautiful readers!Can't you tell how my mood has changed from my previous blog post and this one, lol.I am so eternally grateful that surgery went well! I cheated on my preop diet like a madman, but if someone is reading i would tell them for peace of mind, do not cheat! I think all the anxiety had me stressed beyond belief, so i would say dont put yourself through it. BE STRONG! the more you cheat the more the possible complications, and longer hospital stay, and no one wants that! *well, i'll be honest, i enjoyed my hospital stay! It was a mini vacay, and the nurses were amazing*
I dont even know where to begin, but the 10-15 minutes before enetering the surgery room was beyond nerve wrecking, but it must have been God, because once i layed in the table and made a prayer, and i swear i was so calm *no it wasnt the anesthesia, they havent done that yet, lol* but its like i blinked and woke up, and it was done. I still smile when i think about it. Now the pain was nothing to smile about. it was about an 8/8.5 on the scale of 1-10. The morphine was amazeballs, and the tylelenol w/codein worked well so i was fine. Getting the lquid down was a CHALLENGE. 1 OUNCE OF LIQUID TOOK ME 1.5 HOURS TO CHUG DOWN! I was stunned but also in very much pain. I'm glad a fellow patient told me, walk before drinking so all the gas in the stomach can come out, so drnking the water wont be as harsh. GOD SEND! i have been walking 30-60 minutes a day; slowly, but im getting it done. The gas is trully more painful than the actual incisions which is crazy. i was told not to take the gas x until furture visits with my doc, but ooh i cant wait. Now Im worried about the lack of nutrients i am getting. Water and tea seems to be the only thing agreeing with my new tummy. i tried jello and it felt like a bomb EXPLODED, so i'll keep trying but everyday i believe i will get better. I have so many things to say regarding this experience, its been up and down, but i promise i will try all my best to keep ya'll informed. Its hard because, im drugged up all the freaking day, im drowsy, and my computer broke down, so videos might take some time, bare with me, they will come!
Funny thing, i havent been weighed for over a month! what the hell! i forgot, maybe i should buy a scale, lol WOW.
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I dont even know where to begin, but the 10-15 minutes before enetering the surgery room was beyond nerve wrecking, but it must have been God, because once i layed in the table and made a prayer, and i swear i was so calm *no it wasnt the anesthesia, they havent done that yet, lol* but its like i blinked and woke up, and it was done. I still smile when i think about it. Now the pain was nothing to smile about. it was about an 8/8.5 on the scale of 1-10. The morphine was amazeballs, and the tylelenol w/codein worked well so i was fine. Getting the lquid down was a CHALLENGE. 1 OUNCE OF LIQUID TOOK ME 1.5 HOURS TO CHUG DOWN! I was stunned but also in very much pain. I'm glad a fellow patient told me, walk before drinking so all the gas in the stomach can come out, so drnking the water wont be as harsh. GOD SEND! i have been walking 30-60 minutes a day; slowly, but im getting it done. The gas is trully more painful than the actual incisions which is crazy. i was told not to take the gas x until furture visits with my doc, but ooh i cant wait. Now Im worried about the lack of nutrients i am getting. Water and tea seems to be the only thing agreeing with my new tummy. i tried jello and it felt like a bomb EXPLODED, so i'll keep trying but everyday i believe i will get better. I have so many things to say regarding this experience, its been up and down, but i promise i will try all my best to keep ya'll informed. Its hard because, im drugged up all the freaking day, im drowsy, and my computer broke down, so videos might take some time, bare with me, they will come!
Funny thing, i havent been weighed for over a month! what the hell! i forgot, maybe i should buy a scale, lol WOW.
ANXIETY BINGING & SELF LOATHING! : (
Nov 26, 2011
Well this whole process has been a little more difficult that i expected, i will say that. I thought i would just have my evaluations, see a therapist a couple times get my blood work and surgery approved and be sliced and diced and thats all. OH MAMA NOOOO that wasnt how it is at all. when you get your surgery date it dawns on you; this is it. goodbye comfort food, goodbye anxiety food, breakup food, depression food, i could go on, we ALL run to foo for something besides hunger/survival. I thought i wasnt like those people - 'Emotional eaters' i thought, are these people for real, we're fat cause we love food and while that is part of it, there so much more. I can't believe i even said it a loud.
Ever since my surgery date was cancelled i've been fighting every single day to keep up with the pre op diet. i know the diet is for our benefit and to reduce the chance of liver damage and even with all this, i continue to have a cheat here and there and thats a good day! the last week i have been on a up and down binge fest. all carbs. potato salad, baked ham,macaroni cheese bread bread and more bread. I HATE IT! not havin money to but some veggies/greens isnt helping either. i wish i was stronger but i can't change my 24 year bad habits. i feel so down, i feel like no one besides some folks on this site can understand. i haate the whole self pitying thing ugh. my surgery date is around the corner *4 days* and im scared i havent lost the sufficient weight. i feel like when i weigh in for surgery day and they see my lack of progress, they will judge me. i will judge me. i can't wait for this whole process to be over and done with.
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Ever since my surgery date was cancelled i've been fighting every single day to keep up with the pre op diet. i know the diet is for our benefit and to reduce the chance of liver damage and even with all this, i continue to have a cheat here and there and thats a good day! the last week i have been on a up and down binge fest. all carbs. potato salad, baked ham,macaroni cheese bread bread and more bread. I HATE IT! not havin money to but some veggies/greens isnt helping either. i wish i was stronger but i can't change my 24 year bad habits. i feel so down, i feel like no one besides some folks on this site can understand. i haate the whole self pitying thing ugh. my surgery date is around the corner *4 days* and im scared i havent lost the sufficient weight. i feel like when i weigh in for surgery day and they see my lack of progress, they will judge me. i will judge me. i can't wait for this whole process to be over and done with.
MY NEW WEIGHT LOSS VLOG! YouTube
Nov 22, 2011
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VISIT MY NEW YOUTUBE CHANNEL! EEEP SCARY... LOL
http://www.youtube.com/user/theJigglyDiariesRNY
MY SURGERY WAS CANCELLED!
Nov 15, 2011
Wow im am just beyond frustrated. I seriously hate the hospital I chose for my precedure, but its to late in the game to switch it up, but God only knows why these thing occurs. Yesterday they called to schedule me in for surgery at 8:45am and then they called to change the time to 11:00am which i thought was weird, but whatever what can i do. Then this early morning as i was getting ready, i received the call.
My surgery had been canceled. After crying about it, I realized my big mistake in choosing this hospital. After some investigation (i called my insurance), it was explained to me that the proper papwework was not submitted in due time. I mean, before you schedule anyone for surgery, one would think that all the pperwork was cleared, right? umm no. apparantly they will schedule, make go through 2 dayd of liquids and laxtives, even when theres no concrete clearence. I am so mad at the staff. My whole family has cancelled whatever they were doing to see me in the hospital and I had to call them ll to tell them the bad news. Talk about dreaful. it sucks when your ready for something so nerve wrecking like surgery, and then to be told it wasn't happening. I was a little relieved, because i wasn't looking forward to being in pain, but MORE UPSET because I cannot stand this unprofessionalism. I feel trapped. I am not working or in school because I thought I would be in surgery recovery for over a month, so it was pointless to go this semester, but time is ticking for the next, and the hospital keeps postponing my surgery date. I swear I'm so over them. I was told to call my Primary DR bout the clearence letter, but i couldnt reach her today. I gave all my paperwork in time, followed all the procedures, followed my diet, I put in my work, WHY COULDN'T THEY DO THE SAME. incompetence.
I spoke to th insurnce company and they sid they would call me and the hospital staff will call me to. I was told the 17th is the NEW date, but we'll see.
4 days of liquids is hardcore. I feel hella fatigued and HUNGRY! I mean ive herard of people being denied for surgery for not losing the weight, but to be cancelled because of some clerical error the day of? DONE!
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My surgery had been canceled. After crying about it, I realized my big mistake in choosing this hospital. After some investigation (i called my insurance), it was explained to me that the proper papwework was not submitted in due time. I mean, before you schedule anyone for surgery, one would think that all the pperwork was cleared, right? umm no. apparantly they will schedule, make go through 2 dayd of liquids and laxtives, even when theres no concrete clearence. I am so mad at the staff. My whole family has cancelled whatever they were doing to see me in the hospital and I had to call them ll to tell them the bad news. Talk about dreaful. it sucks when your ready for something so nerve wrecking like surgery, and then to be told it wasn't happening. I was a little relieved, because i wasn't looking forward to being in pain, but MORE UPSET because I cannot stand this unprofessionalism. I feel trapped. I am not working or in school because I thought I would be in surgery recovery for over a month, so it was pointless to go this semester, but time is ticking for the next, and the hospital keeps postponing my surgery date. I swear I'm so over them. I was told to call my Primary DR bout the clearence letter, but i couldnt reach her today. I gave all my paperwork in time, followed all the procedures, followed my diet, I put in my work, WHY COULDN'T THEY DO THE SAME. incompetence.
I spoke to th insurnce company and they sid they would call me and the hospital staff will call me to. I was told the 17th is the NEW date, but we'll see.
4 days of liquids is hardcore. I feel hella fatigued and HUNGRY! I mean ive herard of people being denied for surgery for not losing the weight, but to be cancelled because of some clerical error the day of? DONE!
