traceyls57
233 on the 25th
Mar 25, 2009
OK I will take it, my goal is to be in the 20's when we leave for Florida on the 3 rd, so I have my work cut out for me. I got back on the elliptical today and did almost 14 min. which is a all time high for me. If the weather gets a little better Charlie and I will go for a walk. I have been have some problems with anxiety lately, which really bothers me, I had to call my son to come to the house last night, Bill is out of town this week and I woke up about 1 a.m. to use the bathroom and my left arm was killing me, now this isn't unusual cause I had surgery on my left shoulder years ago and still have problems with it. It really bothers me if I carry my grand baby for to long, or if I try and do weights. So when I was having this pain I took a baby aspirin (you know just in case) my son came over and checked on me and I was OK as soon as he got here, still had the pain, but not in a panic like before. With this new job of Bill's he is going to be traveling more and I have to get use to being alone. I hate when I work myself up like this, I wish I wasn't such a wimp. I don't like talking about it, but at one time in my life I had such a problem with panic attacks I couldn't even leave my house, this lasted for a long time and I missed out on a lot of things the kids did. Bill was great cause he would do the grocery shopping and all the running for the kids. It was a really dark time in my life and I pray I never see those days again. You can understand why I never want to go back there again. OK well on to better things, I went yesterday to a tanning bed, I really don't like doing this at my age because I hate what it has done to my skin, the age spots won't go away, and it sucks. I was a sun goddess in my days and I love the sun, but my skin looks worse than my mom and my mother in laws who are in there 70's, so when I used to get warned about it I thought when I got older it wouldn't matter to me, but you know what it means a lot. Wish I would have listened. OK Iam done now will post again on next Wednesday and hopefully I will be in the 220's.
