Ups and Downs
Jan 29, 2013
It is now Jan 29, 2013. I was hoping to have RNY surgery and have my lapband removed. My insurance doesn't have pre-authorization and the hospital won't do the surgery unless I give them $10000. My doc and Janine, from billing office, are trying to fight this and are trying to find ways around these rules. Dr Laguna is adamant that I need the revision and now I can't have any more fills to the band. I just need it out. So I am basically stuck with nothing for the next 2 1/2 months until after tax season. I am so upset. I was supposed to have surgery tomorrow and then it was pulled from me.
I am writing down what I eat and keeping sugar out of the house. I just don't know how successful I will be with this, and with every failure to control my food, my self esteem and personal power are shot down again. I know that obesity is a disease. I come by it genetically and emotionally. In my childhood of chaos I learned early on that sugar gave me a feeling of safety, calm and relaxation. I have been hooked on it my whole life. I am going to join OA as soon as I can and go to as many meetings as I can before committing to a meeting. It's all hard during tax season though. Guy needs me here to answer phones during day hours and I have to do returns in night hours. I will just do the best I can.
I have gained 15 lbs since before Thanksgiving. I want to work on taking that off again. I will update this blog as I get new info. I am feeling pretty bad right now too, because the support list I have been on for 3 years since banding, has been very rejecting to those of us who have to lose our bands. As if nothing negative should be said about the band. I will find a new support list as soon as I can.