Rebecca C.
7 months out!
Dec 01, 2007
Where has the time gone?? I can't believe it has been almost 7 months. I have lost 95 lbs and now weigh 167 and I'm wearing a size 10. I'm loving life! I can't believe how different everything is now. Most for the good, some for the bad. I have to tell you I spent my whole life hiding behind being fat and now that the fat is gone I'm having to deal with other things about myself I don't really like. I'm very much a people pleasure and I will give all that I have to a fault. Its sad really, I have realized that a lot of my friendships are not good healthy ones were we are both giving. My husband and I are going through some of these very issues also because I'm not just going to wonder through life anymore. I'm going to have a voice and I want to be heard. So I must talk about the good things now. I get up every morning and am grateful. I love the new me, I love what I see when I look in the mirror. I am much more confident. I do my hair and makeup everyday and walk taller and with pride. I can eat more then I thought I would be able too, Almost a whole slice of pizza or a piece of toast and 1/4 apple. Food is just not as big of a deal as it used to be and that is WONDERFUL!!
Well I think thats about all I have to say. Hugs to all my friends!
Rebecca
Well I think thats about all I have to say. Hugs to all my friends!
Rebecca
Crazy Thoughts 15 weeks out
Aug 22, 2007
This is a thought that I have been having. I can honestly say that I used to over eat. I mean I can't believe how much I used to eat. Before I would eat with other people a normal large amount then hide and eat more. I didn't want people to know how much I was really eating. Don't get me wrong this wasn't every day but it is way more then I would like to admit.
Another thing that occurred to me is when I was laying in bed like a light bulb going off "OMG did I really have this surgery" this was just the other day. I can't believe this is for life. That I will never be 200lbs again. I can't wrap my brain around the fact that I had surgery that will affect the rest of my life. I have dreamed about this for 5 or 6 years and its here. The surgery is done the pain is over (knock on wood) and the weight loss and life style change is well in way. I hope that I can be a true success and talk to other people who want this surgery.
I read the post from Amy Williams on the RNY board about the choice we all have to make. It reminded me of when I was 1 month out. I was at the drs office waiting for my post op and one of the people from my support group who I knew WAY before I had surgery ran over to me and said "OMG don't you just love this surgery? Wouldn't you recommend this to EVERYONE" and I replied NO, I wouldn't and thats true. This has been a much harder road then I dreamed it would be. The feelings and thoughts I have had to deal with. The fact that I can't have the things I love and that I can't eat as much as I want are all things I have had to deal with. I would say I think it was a great choice for me. I'm happy now.
Another thing that occurred to me is when I was laying in bed like a light bulb going off "OMG did I really have this surgery" this was just the other day. I can't believe this is for life. That I will never be 200lbs again. I can't wrap my brain around the fact that I had surgery that will affect the rest of my life. I have dreamed about this for 5 or 6 years and its here. The surgery is done the pain is over (knock on wood) and the weight loss and life style change is well in way. I hope that I can be a true success and talk to other people who want this surgery.
I read the post from Amy Williams on the RNY board about the choice we all have to make. It reminded me of when I was 1 month out. I was at the drs office waiting for my post op and one of the people from my support group who I knew WAY before I had surgery ran over to me and said "OMG don't you just love this surgery? Wouldn't you recommend this to EVERYONE" and I replied NO, I wouldn't and thats true. This has been a much harder road then I dreamed it would be. The feelings and thoughts I have had to deal with. The fact that I can't have the things I love and that I can't eat as much as I want are all things I have had to deal with. I would say I think it was a great choice for me. I'm happy now.
3 months post op
Aug 16, 2007
Well I must say its been a crazy ride! I'll get right to the numbers, I have lost 62lbs and over 30 inchs I went from a size 22 tight to a 14/16. I hit 199 the other day but I have been bouncing between 202 and 199 and its driving me crazy. I hope I can get so I never see 200 again. I have been visiting my dad the last month and it has been a little hard because they don't eat like I do but I'm really doing my best. I have been working out and I enjoy that for the most part. Some days going is a challange but once I'm there I'm happy. I think of the long term. I have to say I don't know why everyone else around me has decided that now is a good time to lose weight LOL. I do have a weekness and that is Sugar free stuff. I need to stop because its not like its fat or calorie free. I"m going to get some of the fudgesicles because they have less calories then a lot of other things. Over all I'm doing good. I'm happy that I did this for myself and I can't wait to get to goal or at least to see the scale moving in the right direction again!
6wk post op appt update
Jun 27, 2007
Well I had my 6 week appt on monday (was a little late, I'm 7 wks now) and it was a good appt. I didn't meet with the surgeon and that was ok with me because he is just to busy to take time for me lol. I have lost 39lbs and 9 inches of my waist. Food is going down fine as long as I eat slow. I still struggle with getting in all my water and protein and I think its just because I can't eat enough. I spend a lot of the day choosing between food and water, I know it will get better. There is one thing that I struggle with and that is I feel lonely, I have a very supportive family and my hubby has been wonderful. When I talk with them I know they don't really understand. They try and I do a lot of explaining but when I get to talk to someone who has had surgery I feel like a different person. I was waiting for my appt and I ran into someone from the support group. We just talked and talked, it was very nice. Then I ran into Gayla and I meet her here on OH and wow it was so nice to see and meet her. I just wish I had more friends or at least one that lived by me who has had the surgery and that I could go and do stuff with. I know I must sound crazy and I'm sure this too shall pass. Overall things are good, I still miss my food and going out to eat is not fun anymore and that is what I wanted so now if I could just remember this when I get the urge to eat out LOL.
1 Month Post OP
Jun 09, 2007
I just wanted to check in as its my one month anniversary. I am shocked that a month has gone by. It seems like just yesterday that I was having surgery. I am on soft foods and I have to say I'm getting really sick of them. I'm excited about trying new foods soon. I have never been a huge meat fan so having protein first has been hard. I can't wait for a peanut butter and jelly sandwich lol. My energy is back for the most part and that is nice. I still don't feel wonderful yet but everyday is a step in the right direction. I have lost 29 lbs and my clothes are all getting big. Some of the stuff that didn't fit me before is now fitting and the stuff that did fit I'm swimming in. My 10th wedding anniversary is in less then 2 weeks and were off to Vegas! I went shopping for new dresses and just felt amazing! I ended up getting 2 I just couldn't chose one. I know they will not fit for a super long time but thats ok its worth me feeling like a princess for the trip! ok thats all for now, I'll blog again soon!
8 days post op
May 17, 2007
Well I wanted to update my blog. Today has been a good day. It was the first full day I had with just myself and my son. He is being good for the most part. He is very interested in my boo boo's and he always asks to see my tummy. I think its great that he gets that I'm not up to my normal self and I never feel bad to let him see. Seeing how he understands all that he is also testing me. He doesnt want to listen to me and knows there is nothing I can do about it. I can't pick him up like I used to so I need some help as to how to make a 2 year old listen to me LOL. I know its only a month but it might turn into a long month. As far as pain goes I still have pain in the upper area of my tummy and I'm not sure what that is about. I know people who don't have any pain. I hope it passes soon. I might be doing to much and so this is how I'm going to pay for it lol. With food. I am not into this liquid diet but I'm doing the best I can. I'm wondering why I never enjoyed my food more when I could eat whatever I want lol. I miss my food. I keep thinking " what I wouldn't give for a peanut butter sandwich" and I never even really liked those. So my husband thinks at this point I would eat anything and that I should be worried. I think I'm just grieving my first love "FOOD" and I'm doing the best I can to deal with it. I have not cheated and I don't plan to! My energy is coming back and that's good. I still need a nap in the middle of the day but since my son takes one I get on too! Over all things are going good. I have lost 18lbs and that is all post op!
Five days Post op
May 14, 2007
I'm feeling alright. Tired and really sore. Sometimes I have sharp pains and getting up and down is a lot harder then I thought it would be. I just keep sipping my water and going for walks. Some walks are longer then others but I feel I'm doing good. I have been eating my 2 tablespoons of food every 2 hours for the most part. I'm only 5 days out and sick of liquids. I can't wait to blend some stuff up and go for it lol. I'm going to wait like my dr said because I want to fallow this to the T. On a good side I have lost 12lbs from my day before weight. I can't believe it. I was so expecting to gain in the hospital but I feel very blessed that I didn't. I walked a lot and drank as much as I could stand on my own.
Surgeries done..I'm still in the hospital.
May 10, 2007
Surgeries done..I'm still in the hospital. [Edit Post]
Well surgery was yesterday and everything went great. I have to admit I thought I wanted to die I was in way more pain then I thought I would be. When I would sit up I got so dizzy followed by nauseas and then I would dry heave until I throw up blood. It was bad and I hurt so bad. Not just in my stomach but in my back also. I prayed to god that if I could not feel like this when I got up today (Thursday). I'm happy to report that I walked 3 times yesterday and that was very good. Today I got up and DIDN"T get SICK WOOT I walked frist thing in the morning. I was feeling alright. Then they brought me broth, jello, tea. I have to admit I didn't have a clue of how much to eat so I just ate a little bit of stuff and stopped. I have never felt so lost around food before LOL. Since all that I have meet with a ton of Dr's, Nurses & everyone in between LOL. I haven't had any sleep today but I have walked 6 times and taken a shower. I feel 100% better the dr is looking into my going home tonight but we will just have to see. Its already 7:15pm. My hubby had to go home to be with our son...David got to spend the night with me last night which was a LIFE saver!! I haven't had much sleep at all so I'm looking forward to getting some! Alright this is all I'm posting for now but I'll be back later with more.
Well surgery was yesterday and everything went great. I have to admit I thought I wanted to die I was in way more pain then I thought I would be. When I would sit up I got so dizzy followed by nauseas and then I would dry heave until I throw up blood. It was bad and I hurt so bad. Not just in my stomach but in my back also. I prayed to god that if I could not feel like this when I got up today (Thursday). I'm happy to report that I walked 3 times yesterday and that was very good. Today I got up and DIDN"T get SICK WOOT I walked frist thing in the morning. I was feeling alright. Then they brought me broth, jello, tea. I have to admit I didn't have a clue of how much to eat so I just ate a little bit of stuff and stopped. I have never felt so lost around food before LOL. Since all that I have meet with a ton of Dr's, Nurses & everyone in between LOL. I haven't had any sleep today but I have walked 6 times and taken a shower. I feel 100% better the dr is looking into my going home tonight but we will just have to see. Its already 7:15pm. My hubby had to go home to be with our son...David got to spend the night with me last night which was a LIFE saver!! I haven't had much sleep at all so I'm looking forward to getting some! Alright this is all I'm posting for now but I'll be back later with more.
Found my Angel!
May 04, 2007
I just wanted to let people know that Jamie S. is going to be my Angel. I'm very excited! Her and I have a lot in common and we get a long great! She will be posting about how I"m doing after surgery! A heart felt thank you to you Jamie for doing this and listening to me thought all this! You ROCK! let me know if I can do anything for you!!
1 week to go!
May 02, 2007
Today is a Blah kind of day. I cant tell you how much of a roller coaster this journey has been. Its a minute by minute emotional ordeal. I'm tired and ready for this to be underway. One minute I'm crying the next I don't care and then I could be scared, excited or all the above. Wonder why I feel like this... I didn't feel this way about giving birth or the surgery I had in Nov... Its crazy. I feel crazy! I spend time reading other peoples posts and either 1 or 2 things happens I pray that will be me or pray that it wont LOL . This week is going by fast I can't believe its wed already!!
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05/09/2007
Surgery Date
Jan 15, 2007
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