I have been going through a hard time with this weight issue now more than i did when i was in my twenties and thirties. It caused a bit of depression in my life. I am 5ft. 0in. and i weigh 283lbs. with me being so short it feels horrible. I have decided to get the lap band i went to the seminar for the Kane Group March 11, 2009, i had my counseltation March 31, Now the doctor say i am a good candidate for the surgery. i had my sleep study April 3 i have an appointment for Psych Eval. this friday on the 10th, dietician April 22, What i don't understand is that when will i get my surgery date, they first told me the insurance said all i needed to do was these app now they say after this the doctor will send a letter of medical necessity to the insurance group. I am so ready to get this weight off me I get shortness of breath, I am a 3 award stepper, I can't even step through a whole song anymore. I smoke cigarettes which I hate and have tried numerous times to quit but was not successful i have prayed, cried and prayed because i know this is also a factor in my shortness of breath. But i want this surgery bad and my surgeon says i have to quit 2 weeks before i have not ever been able to quit over 72 hours so i won't jeapordize this surgery for nothing or nobody so i know this may be what helps me quit smoking so i will be getting healthy all the way around. I dont like to even go out and socialize anymore i hide myself from myself . I dont even go to chuch anymore I watch churh on T.V sunday mornings. I love to sing I have always had dreams of singing solo songs and feeling the spirit not only in me but through out my congregation. I can't stand being around people and every body asking me whats wrong, because I am very very standoffish now. I know this is effecting people that are close to me because it's like I am in a world by myself except with the people who have been supporting me through this all everybody here at (OH) I want to thank you all for the great support. I don't even like to take pictures anymore it will befrom the neck up I want to be able to take full body pics and I can't wait till I can. I promise you all will be the first to see I will keep you all posted with my status on that. My birthday is August 28 will be 41 and i will be taking my first real vacation to Jamaica / Montego Bay and I want to look good and be healthy by then I want to walk the beach of jamaica with out getting tired and don't want to sit in the hotel all day. please keep me in your prayers
