VBABE681
3 Weeks Post Op
Jun 04, 2008
SEX!!!
Jun 02, 2008
I NEED SEX!!! Sorry for being so blunt but my sex drive is rediculous. On Wednesday I'm going for my first fill and I think I'm going to ask Dr. Kurian if I can have sex. I think about it all day. I keep trying to convince Kevin but he's one of those people that just follows every rule in the fucking book. So he doesn't want to do until I get clearance from my doctor. I can't even begin to explain how bad it is. I think about penis 24/7. Am I crazy? Am I the only one that feels this way?
Shopping
May 22, 2008
I WENT SHOPPING IN MY OWN CLOSET!!! I'M OFFICIALLY DOWN 1 SIZE FROM A 20 TO AN 18. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN TO TRY ON CLOTHES THAT HAD NOT FIT ME IN MORE THAN A YEAR. I HAVE A LOT OF CLOTHES. MOSTLY SUITS SINCE WHEN I WAS WORKING IN WALL STREET I HAD TO WEAR A SUIT EVERYDAY. I DON'T PLAN TO ACTUALLY SHOP FOR CLOTHES YET BECAUSE MOST OF THE CLOTHES I HAVE ARE VERY EXPENSIVE AND I DON'T PLAN TO GIVE THEM UP SO EASILY. SHIRTS I WILL BUY WHEN I RUN OUT OF MY SIZE BUT THE PANTS I'M HOPING TO TAILOR MOST OF THEM. i WILL START SHOPPING AFTER I HIT THE 14 SIZES SINCE THAT IS THE LOWEST SIZE I HAVE AND THEY ARE ONLY SUMMER CLOTHES. TODAY I AM WEARING WIDE LEG KHAKIS, MY FAVORITE PANTS THAT I HAVE WORN SINCE THIS TIME LAST YEAR. ITS VERY EXCITING.
I'm finally a LOSER
May 15, 2008
So I'm finally banded. Everything went well Thank God. I'm still in a little pain but thats just cuz I refuse to take vicodin. I don't like the feeling of being drowsy. The gas pains are the worst. When it comes up it gets stuck in my chest and feels like a heart attack. But then it goes away and then you burp. The hospital was great. I was super uncomfortable but they really helped with that. My husband is such a trooper. He stood with me all day. He rubbed my back and fed me ice chips. My friends Liz and Michelle came with me and they were so supportive. My friend and future personal trainer, Edwin, came to visit me. My sister came to visit but again all she could talk about was how she was undecisive about having the surgery, She didn't ask me how I was doing or even that she was proud of me. NOTHING. The nicest thing she did was help me walk around. Whatever this is about me and no one else. Other than that I feel great. I'm not hungry. I'm taking it extra slow cuz I still don't know the difference between gas pains or hunger pains. The liquid diet did me good. I lost 15 pounds. I don't see just yet. My husband does. I definitely feel it in my clothes. Clothes that were extremely tight now fit me comfortable. So thats a good sign. Wednesday is my first op appt and by friday I should be on mushies. I can't wait.
4 DAYS TO GO
May 08, 2008
PRE-OP DIET
Apr 28, 2008
So today i officially started the 2 wk pre-op liquid diet. its not so bad since i tried it a few weeks ago and today i have a sore throat so i don’t feel like eating anyway. so far everything is good. i had an issue with my surgical coordinator on thursday when i went for the pre-admission test. somehow she didn’t give me a medical record number and had my name and social under someone else’s record. long story short, i had to wait three hours to do the chest x-ray since the medical records department had to create a new chart for me. i made another complaint to her supervisor. her supervisor assured me that she personally checked my file and that everything was good to go for may 12. i’m not scared of anything in terms of the surgery. However, since i’ve been overweight my entire life i’m nervous about actually losing weight. Last time i lost 50lbs i would look at myself in the mirror and see the same person. I feel like being thin is an unreacheable dream. I wonder if anyone else understands what i’m feeling.
Here's where we at
Mar 29, 2008
WE WILL SEE
Mar 06, 2008