One Month Post-op!

Oct 20, 2010

Whew. I know it's only been a month today, but it seems like forever already. Anyway, I am down 36 pounds...in one month!That. Is. Extraordinary! I started at 335 and I am now 299.02 to be exact. Haha. I am under 300, which was my first goal. Yay me!

I went to my first check-up last week & they say everything is going great. Even though, I was worried about what I thought I was doing wrong or if I was even doing okay. Turns out, I am right on track and Dr. Bruderer's nurse said I am at the point where I can pretty much eat anything now. Well...I mean anything that'll agree with the surgery...in small amounts.
The thing is, I have been feeling very "ishy" about everything that I can eat though. I mean, I wish for something...I try it, only to find out, it's not as good as I thought it would be. I don't know what happened to my appetite. It's very emotional more than physical for me now. The things I used to LOVE so much, just don't look that great anymore...and I guess that's probably a good thing. But I do hope that changes. The only thing that  seems great to me is crackers & cheese. Take yesterday, I've been wishing for veggie soup, so I buy me a can and after I ate very little of it, I just wasn't as interested in it as I thought I was. It's so weird. If it were up to me, I'd never eat, but I have to...so I do. And protein is another story. I cannot find one that I can tolerate. I feel so successful so far, despite my appetite, but if I fail at something with this surgery, it will be because of my lack of protein intake. Sad thing about this is, being unemployed, I cannot afford to try different flavors.

Anyway, after everything...I try to think about my weight loss so far and use that for positivity and it does help. I mean, my surgeon says I'm doing good so far, so that's great! Just wish I could kick this "pregnanty feeling." Haha. That's how my oldest sister, who got the surgery in June describes it. And speaking of which, we just found out last week that she IS indeed pregnant. I know, what a shocker. She's only just 3 months out, I cannot imagine how scared she feels. No wonder she always said that. Haha. All along, she was, in fact, pregnant. Anyway, they are taking extra precautions with her because she's only just 3 months out. She says that she's never been this sick through any of her pregnancies...which is to be expected. I feel so sorry for her, because I really can't imagine how sick she must be. We are hoping for the best for her throughout her pregnancy. Her doctor says it isn't uncommon but she must watch her nutrients throughout her pregnancy and that she may still lose weight, but she should gain at least 20 during the 9 months and after she has the baby, she'll start losing again.

Another update, one of my other sisters just had the surgery last week on the 13th. She's doing great so far, but she tells me she regrets her choice a lot. All I can do is be there for her & tell her that things do get better with every passing day because I don't know how she feels. I do not regret my surgery EVER...and if I did, it was maybe only once so far.

This surgery has already done so much for me. I am not taking my blood pressure pills no longer because it's normal. I can wear flip flops without the risk of getting swollen feet the size of Texas, my back no longer hurts when I do something and I get to buy new clothes soon! That's always a plus. Haha. Just today, I was reading my profile and I had a little moment. It's so surreal to me to see my surgery date and my surgeon's name under my picture. I know it's probably nothing, but for 6 years it was always empty! There was a time when I didn't think I'd ever get to put my surgery date or my surgeon's name for that matter under my little picture on my profile!! Sorta silly huh? Haha. But it makes me so happy. I am there! I am FINALLY on the road to becoming healthy, and so far...success!  It does feel great...and I guess...I gotta accept that "ishy" feeling that comes with eating, along with this journey.

By this time next year, first I hope to see myself working full time again, and also on my journey to getting brand new boobies. TMI? Probably. But it's always been a long term goal for me. Haha.

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