yecats44
Counting down.....
Mar 30, 2011
11 Days to surgery today.....all of you said it would go fast as time got closer. Time from appointment (Feb 9) to surgery date (Apr 11) seemed like an eternity but I used the time to learn more, lose more preoperatively, and now I am on the 2 week shake diet. Not as bad as I thought it would be with a big stomach. I am able to mix shakes up with chicken broth (Unjury), and unflavored protein powder with other drinks if I want. I look at this as one more step of preparation to shrink my liver and make it easier for the surgeon, since he is doing this laparoscopically.Down a couple of pounds since I started Monday.
Finding that I am thinking about my surgery any moment my brain is not engaged in something else. Difficult concentrating on my work and I find myself being forgetful. I have no idea what is in store, because I have not lived it, yet the posts have been great to sort of give me a groundwork, framework to base things on. I think about the hundreds of detail questions I have and stop short of asking because I realize, just like raising children, althought their are some principles to follow, you learn as you go. Everyone's body is different, reacts differently, things which agree or don't agree food-wise.
Realizing that I have been "in bondage to food"......Now that I am relegated to shakes and don't have to think about what to prepare, or what to eat, realize how much time I spent with my "best friend"....YIKES!.....whether planning meals, thinking about, reading about, watching television about.....wow.....very telling. At church, there was a discussion on Matthew 6:19 - "For were your treasure is (in my case, food), there your heart will be also". This really struck home to me. Why I didn't get that I was a addicted to food (hello?....weight problem??) and/or had an unhealthy relationship with food and how I used it.....
Ok enough on that....I have used my time on introspection and trying to understand my patterns and my issues so I can break the cycle, break the habits, or understand the triggers more so I can recognize them and address......so tough.....but hopefully will result in some permanent changes over much trial and error and time....
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About Me
Kennebunk, ME
Location
34.9
BMI
Surgery
04/11/2011
Surgery Date
Jan 04, 2011
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