This is it!!

Apr 10, 2011

 I am finally here!! Today is the day I have surgery. April 11, 2011. Wow. I cannot believe I am here. I am so excited as this will be the turning point. And then the real work begins!!
So many emotions today. I have been "practicing" for over 2 months, giving up the things that I know I cannot have but also, making decisions and gaining a better understanding of the relationship I have with food, and my body. A lot of what is happening right now is I am what I call the "zone". Most of you have been there: it is when you are totally committed to doing a "diet" that you will not be deterred. I have been there MANY times. And lost up to 40 pounds but then it all comes back on with a vengence when I relent!! Or I fall out of the "zone". I look at the surgery as a means of keeping me in check. When you cannot eat as much (hopefully) or the food has an effect on you (eat too much, too fast, wrong foods get stuck, dumping, vomiting), it is a physical deterrent for not only eating inappropriately, but being able to consume the quantities we are so accustomed to consuming. Lots of support from family, friends, and my husband. My mother came down for moral support which adds to the support. And the next chapter begins!

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