Sensory overload

Sep 06, 2011

I think I am on sensory overload.  I joined three new sites regarding WLS, one of them I will have to excuse myself from because the board has not moved all weekend.  The hospital where I will be having my surgery set up the board but it must be run by hosptial administrators who have very little interest in keeping the board alive by answering our questions.  The other two websites which includes this one is providing me with everything I need which I am thankful for.  Last night I spent hours looking at before and after pics on one of the sites to a point I think my computer wore itself out.  Today I have been plagued with the blue screen of death so I am frustrated with that more than anything. 

I am learning more than I ever expected however I am also ready to put this information to the test.  Unfortunately, I still have one more doctors appointment to go before I can even have my paperwork submitted to the insurance company.  I guess that is what really has me a little down.  I keep wondering how many hoops they might make me jump through in order to get this done so I can start my new journey in life.

I also am concerned regarding the new job I recently accepted.  I have had the DA&A test done which was fine.  Now I have to get scheduled for a  physical and then I have to have my fingerprints done and a background check.  I am not worried about the outcome of any of that stuff, but again, its a long process and I am at the mercy of others regarding the fate of my future.  I also have some concerns about needing time off if they bring me on soon, so that I can have my surgery.  I need the job and I need the surgery.  I don't want to tell them what the surgery is for but I do need to let them know that its minor and that it will in no way affect my job performance once I get back from the surgery, I don't want them thinking they just hired a sickly, problem child on hand.  I am guessing I will be able to get at least two weeks off and since my job will be mostly sedentary at first i should do just fine.

So many changes taking place...I believe in God so I won't give any of this any more thought - ok letting go and letting God.

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