It's been a while!

Jan 18, 2010

Wow, it has been a long time since I updated here.  Life is still going very very good!!!!  I am still in love with the same boyfriend, and I have grown to love and understand him in many ways.  It took some time for me to get used to the fact that he does not communicate using indoendos...something that I spent the last 20 odd years doing.  So, communicating in a straight up fashion took a bit of getting used to...but I think I am getting pretty good at it...at least I am trying.  Say what you mean, and mean what you say!  Other than that, we have not  had any issues.  I'm happy...truely happy...and if for some reason I died today...I could say I was happier than I had ever been. 
Kyle has been to see the surgeon here a few times now.  He has to have an upper GI in the middle of Feb and once that is done, the surgeons nurse said it should only be about another 3 months before he too gets to begin his new life.  I think 3 months is VERY optimistic...but sometime this year he will be on a new road too.  I am so excited for him to experience life the way I have...I cannot remember a time when Kyle has not had a weight problem so it will be interesting to see how he sees things.  I know right now he is having a difficult time, because the surgeon requires that he not eat more than a cup of food at a time...and that is tough when your stomach could probably hold a good 4 cups.  He is hungry all the time, but he is willing to do what it takes, so good on him!
The winter blues hit me this year...Of course not nearly as severe as what it used to..but it did hit...and it is hanging on...but it isn't something I can't handle.  My Mom is having some issues and I think that has also added to my stress...I really hope she is able to get some help and deal with her demons...whether she does or not tho is completely up to her and I have to remember that I cannot take on her stress or issues even if it is sometimes directed at me.
I had to claim bankruptcy...I did it in Nov.  I really didn't want to...but frankly I didn't have a choice.  Ray defaulted on the house payments...I couldn't afford to pay that, and the phone calls were making me sick.  So ya...it sucks...but once I am discharged it is a new beginning.  At least I don't have to go through it alone...I have a partner that will listen when I need him to listen...and he has my back!
Just dyed my hair back to dark.  I really didn't want to...but I couldn't afford to keep up the blonde.  $120 every 6 weeks is just too much.  So, I took it back to a dark red and it is going to be a lot cheaper to keep it coloured.  And of course my hair cuts will be fewer too...so the hair should appear to grow quicker too...and that is a good thing.
Well, I guess that is it for now...will try and get here a little more often to update.

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