brownblonde
Week 9, 2 months, Feeling Great
Jul 27, 2010
I honestly had to stop myself from writing this post early. I have just been feeling great all week!First things first: I lost a whopping 6lbs. this week and made it out of the 240's! As of this morning I am 0.4 shy of having lost 40lbs., weigh 237.4, and am nearly the weight I was at my sister's wedding when I was a junior in highschool! This weight means a lot to me because I hovered around this weight for the longest time. From junior in highschool to sophomore in college, i was within a few digits of 236ish. Then, all of a sudden, bam!, I gained 35 pounds outta nowhere. The fact that my body can do that still scares the hell out of me. Anyway, my point is that this is a little closer to "normal" to me, but I'm going to breeze right through it and I can't wait to find new normals in the 100's eventually!!
I had a couple bum weeks so I was so stoked to see this kind of loss. I guess our bodies just operate according to their own schedule. Clothes are feeling SO much looser this week. I couldn't have ever fathomed the awesomeness of pulling on a pair of jeans and buttoning them. NO effort, NO tugging, NO mental preparation. Just VOILA they fit and button and room to spare. I also went swimming this week and was shocked that I didn't have to wrestle my swimsuit to get it on!! I thought swimsuits were just destined to be tight and need coaxing to put on. This time I pulled on my swimsuit with much less effort.
Physically I've felt pretty good this week. I still get a little tired early on. If you all have kept up with my blog posts you know that I don't live with a strict diet. I was at a potluck this week and took a marinated vegetable salad. I ate a piece of KFC "grilled" chicken first, then a few bites of my salad. Then they had soft serve ice cream so I got some. Sugar doesn't seem to bother me that much, but apparently chocolate does because every time I eat chocolate I vomit up what seems to be stomach acid. The same thing happened to me the other night when I made the poor choice to have half a chocolate-flavored poptart. Needless to say I'm off chocolate. And honestly sugar doesn't taste that great. My stomach feels a little uneasy with it. I will say that cheese tastes awesome to me. Is that weird? And all things ethnic! I've been getting really tired of my plain ol' chicken diet, so things like Indian Chicken masala or the insides out of a taco from an authentic taco stand really hit the spot. We had burgers the other night and I am also decidedly off burgers too.
Probably the biggest and best difference I've noticed is that my self-esteem is beginning to be restored. Yeah, yeah, I know some people don't like to hear that weight can impact self-esteem, but let's get real. I have this guy friend that I'm really into right now. My self-esteem isn't like 100% (okay, far from it) but I'm beginning to have the attitude that "dang, I'm great, I'm hot, I'm going places, and if he doesn't see that, screw him." I think that's the right place to be. And, I've noticed that I think other men are noticing that about me--and hopefully this guy friend will too. But do or don't or whatever: in a couple more months you will see me and I'll be even hotter and you'll be kicking yourself.
So this has been a great week. I can't wait to see what next week, next month, next year has in store for me.
