brownblonde
Week 10 Update
Aug 04, 2010
Loss for this week: -3.2lbs.Total loss: 42.8lbs.
Wow I can't believe it's been 10 weeks. Now to clarify, I have just finished 9 total weeks of, for lack of a better word, "dieting", and today marks 10 weeks since surgery and the beginning of my tenth week of "dieting." I am happy with my weight loss. I wouldn't mind it to be a pound more, but I think this is right on schedule and something I can live with. Now, when I return to the land of zeros and ones (in the weekly weight loss, that is), I will have to change something.
In fact, before I forget, I ought to bring up my obsession with weight. I cannot imagine this is an uncommon obsession for someone who has had weight loss surgery and is losing weight so quickly. But it does concern me. I feel like I'm becoming addicted to it--the euphoria a loss on the scale brings with it. It's okay for now because I have so much weight to lose. What I wonder is how people get over that when there is no more weight to lose. Even at the beginning of this week I started reverting to my old ways of thinking and wondering if I should do a full protein shake diet to speed up my weight loss. I do not even know where this thought originated! As much as I'm enjoying the weight I've lost, I want to lose much more, and the faster the better.
This week has been another REALLY great week for me. Again, I'm speaking mostly of my own outlook. Highlights of the week: went out with a friend on Weds. night and a guy bought both of us drinks (they usually overlook me). On Thursday I went to see a band I used to be crazy about. My sister and I went to meet the bassist and went in for a handshake got a good hug...and a hand kiss?! Yeah, yeah, I know about musicians' reputations, but in a backwards kind of way it's nice that I am even considered, I guess? Saturday my friend got married. I had a SUPER cute dress to wear (if I do say so myself). I actually wore it to my cousin's wedding 2 years ago--I'll have to see if I can juxtapose that pic and tell a difference. A guy I know very casually through some other friends quickly scooted in next to me. And at the reception he practically waited on me hand over foot. Maybe he was just being nice?! But if that's the case, it's nice to be treated nice, ya know?
I knew I was grilling out after the wedding so I planned ahead and took flip flops and made a stop at the grocery store. Wowza did I look overdressed and awesome for the grocery store. Note: I love to cook so I go to the grocery store a lot and have always thought this particular butcher was kinda cute. So he was there! He commented "I haven't seen you in awhile." To which I responded "well I was here a couple days ago." He told me that I looked very nice and I explained that I had come from a wedding. To that he made some kind of confusing, prodding comment about me being married or not. I held up my hand and said "um no, I'm single." And then he gestured to his glove (haha) and said "you don't see a bump under this glove." Kind of flirtatious, no? Did I mention this butcher has AMAZING green eyes. I think I may be grilling out a lot more :)
On Sunday I was a good granddaughter. I went with my grandmother to Sunday School and Church. You will remember that she just lost her husband of 57 1/2 years. Afterwards I offered to take her to brunch where our piano tuner plays live every Sunday. I think she felt really special. I, of course, could not make the buffet count for it's cost, but I will gladly pay that price :) The afternoon was nice and laid back with some pool, some dinner, and then a movie.
Yesterday was my one down day of the week. I have felt so restless. I probably should have gone to Clemson first of all. I don't really want to go to OU, but I really don't want to put off grad school for a year, either. If you can't tell from my posts I like to think and overanalyze all the time. I need something to occupy my brain. If I could find a job that fits that bill, awesome. But I'm afraid I can't and that's why I want to go into research and teaching so that I can always be learning new things and questioning and analyzing and thinking away to my heart's content.
