4 days postop and getting better every day!

Jan 13, 2013

HI there!! I am so glad to be sitting here writing this blog in my own house in my own bed.  I am not a happy patient! :-)  I have never had surgery or been in the hospital before so this was a very new experience and it took a lot out of me.   My surgery went fine on Wednesday, my mom was there, my ANGEL, she did so much for me.  I couldn't have done it without her.  My husband tried to do what he could... but he is a man. LOL No offense, I'm sure all men aren't like him but he doesn't really have the caretaking thing down.  He tried (bless his heart) but there was no better help than my mom.  She was amazing. 

When I woke up from surgery on Wednesday, I was in a lot of pain and felt like I couldn't breathe.  I think coming out of the anesthesia made me panic and I was kind of freaking out in the recovery area.  I was calmed down by the time I got to my room but I was still in pain. I was pretty much in and out of sleep until Thursday.  Thursday wasn't that much better and my husband got sick and decided that it was still ok to come up the hospital to see me!! So I was doing ok until he came up around 1 pm and starts throwing up in my bathroom!! I started freaking out thinking he was going to get me sick so I basically threw him out. LOL He wanted to be there for me which was sweet but he should have thought a little more about what being sick around me could do.  He said it wasn't a bug just stress and anxiety but still, the sound of him hurling in my bathroom really is not something I needed while I was trying to control my own nausea. I also had a very high blood pressure and my heart rate was a little high. (Probably due to my nervousness and worry.) So I also stayed that night in the hospital.

Friday was a much better day and I went home around noon.  I was still a little worried about my liquids... it hurt a bit and my chest got tight unless I took SUPER small sips and was very slow in drinking.  But they told me that was normal and I just had to condition my new insides.  It did get better and by Friday night, I was ok. I know my mom was glad to be out of the hospital recliner that she slept in for two nights... Even though she really did enjoy the hospital cafeteria! She was really impressed with the hospital and the food they had.  I'm glad she had something there she liked. I know its not fun to be the caretaker either.  It was probably just as stressful on her as it was on me.

Yesterday, Saturday, was a great day.  I felt good, got in a lot of liquids and took a walk with my mom.  We went to feed the ducks and almost got overtaken by them! :-) We didn't quite bring enough bread for the influx of ducks!  But we escaped with no duck bites so that was good.  My mom left this morning :-( but my nurse friend is coming to stay a few days with me now so I can ease back into my normal routine. 

I haven't weighed and don't think I want to until my appointment on Thursday with my surgeon. I haven't eaten anything, of course, I've only had a few cups of broth besides my other liquids, but I am probably still swollen and healing from surgery so I don't know if I have lost anything.On my surgery day, I was 9 pounds down total from my highest weight so thats good! I don't care about losing fast or anything.... It's actually just been a huge blessing to not be hungry 24 hours a day!! I haven't eaten solids since Monday, almost a week, and I have no desire to eat. The food commercials on TV look good, but I'm not really wanting it. That is something this chubby for life chick hasn't really every felt... Kind of cool! I am ready to add some variety like soup to my diet but I have a few more days until I can do that.

All in all, I am happy I made this choice and I am excited about that changes that will be coming.  I am ready to move back to a place in my life where I feel in control. Lately, I feel like things just happen to me and my moods are controlled by the food I eat or how much money is in the bank or how work was that day.  I just feel like I am going through the motions.  I am ready to start living again!! I know the hard times will come but I just have to remember that nothing is permanent as long as you are alive and able to make choices for yourself.  I am in control and I am going to decide what I want my life to be like.  I don't want to waste anymore time hating myself or my life. Time to start on a new path!! Here I come 2013. Don't be scared, I won't bite! :-)

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