I officially HATE the scale!!!!

Jan 31, 2011

 Saturday was my 2 month surgiversary, I have been hovering around 252 for about 2 weeks now, which is slightly annoying.  So Sunday I weighed myself and it said 251, which would mean I was down 50 pounds!!!!!!!!!  WOOHOO I was so excited.  Got on the scale yesterday morning....it said 252.8, got on it again this morning and it said 252.8.  So now I am ticked off.  Why is it fluctuating so much already?  I feel like this is not going to work for me.  I am so hard on myself to lose weight, be better, do better, try harder, and nothing seems to work.  So now I am in a slump.  It is 8:41AM, I am sitting at my desk eating Lays potato chips.  They go down good, my pouch loves them, and they taste amazing.  And at a whopping 320 calories in a bag they are clearly NOT what I should be eatingI also assume that chips are sliders, because I just peaked in the bag....and it is almost empty which means that I just sat here and ate the entire bag in one sitting.  
My protein is horrible, I can't do the shakes, I tried fat free cottage cheese(yuck), I am going to try the reduced fat or even the full fat kind and see if it tastes any better.  Protein shakes don't work for me at all, I don't know if it is the smell or the taste, I have even tried the unflavored kind....still can't get it down.  I am going to try yogurt and see if maybe I can get that to stay down because I know there are some high protein yogurts out there.  There is a new gym opening in my town so I bought a gym membership yesterday which is a move in the right direction.  I think I am stressed out.  My BF and I are moving, I have to change the school that my son is going too which is stressful because he has been doing so good at the school he is attending now.  I also have to change his day care provider which is stressful as I worry that I won't pick a good center.  All of this of course has to be done during the work week which is when I am at work.  So it is a hassle to say the least.  
Not only that but both of our vehicles have been not working.  The brakes went out in mine, and the fuel pump with out in my BF's car.  Those issues are fixed now but this morning my headlights didn't work on my car, so its always something.  AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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