M.I.A.

Sep 21, 2011

WOW, it feels like forever since I have been online.  Between added work responsibilities and no internet at home I have been someone "missing in action".  I wanted to write today because I am feeling DOWN and my weight is UP for some strange reason....AND most importantly I just ate almost an entire Quiznos Chicken Cobb salad...is that normal LOL.  I haven't been to Zumba in 2 weeks due to finances but hopefully I will be back in the swing of things come Monday.  
A lot has been going on...I am moving, found a really great house!  It is more like my dream home; fireplace, tile floors, granite countertops, flat top stove...it is a dream.  Fenced yard...the whole 9 yards.  Last time I was writing/blogging I was tettering between 189 and 186.  Well today I am at 190....so I don't know what is going on.  I have found that I am eating a lot more lately.  There was a couple of weeks where I basically was eating a small breakfast a small lunch and a small dinner.  I have started adding in those mid  morning and mid afternoon snacks and I am afraid that plus eating more at actual meal time is making me gain weight.  Of course these last 10 pounds would be the hardest right.  But it brings me back to the whole "will I ever get to goal"?  Will I fail at this too?  I am coming up on my one year in November so I wonder will I have gained all the weight back in a year or two.  It is scary to think that I have gone through all this only to fail.  Maybe I am just being hard on myself.  Maybe I need to get my behind back on here on a regular basis and I would be back on track.  I am sitting right here miserable from eating too much...I could have swore I wrote about this a month or 2 ago and things had gotten better....only to slack right back off again.  I have been going home and grazing on junk.  Chips, dip, crackers, non healthy items.  I need fruit, veggies, the good stuff.  I blogged about wanting to cut meat from my diet...that hasn't been a priority anymore either.  I had chicken on my salad today drowned in 3 packets of ranch.  I am losing it.  And the scale tells me about it everyday.
Tomorrow is a new day right.  Hopefully I can get back on track.  Thinking I need to go to the grocery store tonight and get back to what I was doing a few weeks ago before all he*(* broke loose.
How is everyone else doing?  Miss you guys!!!! 

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