This weekend it is IT!!!!

Oct 05, 2011

NOT WEIGHT LOSS RELATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well...he went and got a UHaul and moved his furniture out on Monday morning.  He went and bought a new living room suite this week and has everything worked out for himself.  He has found a guy who needs a place to stay that is willing to pay more that 1/2 the rent so he isn't going to be coming out of pocket too much for his expenses.  It must be nice to be able to live life by using other people.  I am going to be honest!  I am pissed off!  I have been there for this man for 3  years.  Paid every bill, bought 90% of the groceries, made sure that he had a cell phone (that I paid for).  Never asked him for anything but his time.  Yet that was the one thing he couldn't give me.  That and his love, respect, a commitment, or any type of loyalty or trust.  I was going to move with him, I asked him to go and look at furniture with me...that I was going to purchase and he didn't have time.  Told me to take pictures or send him their website.  Yet when I remove myself from the equation he goes and buys his own furniture.  His friend was killed about 3 weeks ago and they finally had the funeral...I assumed I would be going...until he told me"no I am going with the boys".  Then it hit me (like a ton of bricks).....It isn't that he doesn't have time to do these things....he just doesn't want to do anything with ME!  So tonight after work I am going to be loading up the first load of stuff that is mine (which isn't much) and I am moving with my BFF for a while.  She hopefully will keep me from crying all night long and help me stay on track.  All I really have to move is 3 boxes and my clothes, my sons clothes and toys and his TV and twin bed.  Everything else in the house was his...so he can take it, trash it, doesn't really matter to me as long as it is cleared out so I can turn the keys in to management.  He has tried to pull the "sweet" card.  He can't do this without me and he will try harder.  But the damage is already done.  I literally struggle everyday just to make ends meet and this man is racking up enough  money to BUY a nice leather living room suite.  I don't understand.  And I am mad as hell about it. I always told him from the beginning money isn't everything.  I told him we could live in a cardboard box as long as we was happy and together.  But I CANNOT put him before myself and my child a day longer.  He has drained me dry and doesn't even care.  While I think I will always love him and I will probably always deep down wonder why he could never truly love me...I have to just move on.  AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Ok, thank you for allowing me to vent!!!!!!!!!!

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