Welllll.....hmm. In some respects the answer is a resounding YES!! I'm ready for a break from school, to see a lot of family (so many people are going to be around this year! I'm so excited).....I will say I'm anxious to feel good with them this year...not fat and gluttony. I've worked hard and I'm looking forward to feeling good with my family. I'm a little freaked though since I was making gingerbread cookie dough today...and I kept picking at it...I needed to insert gum! I'm lucky I didn't get sick. Actually I wish I had.
I'm down nearly 72 pounds since my surgery on July 23. I feel so good....sometimes I am struck by that amount...I just always thought it wouldn't happen unless god forbid....I had my mouth wired shut or something.....and then I didn't think it would happen. I never made it past the 38 pound mark...and here I am nearly double that! I give a lot of credit to myself...of course, but I have surrounded myself with excellent support....my therapist...love you Dr. Seth....who listened to me blabber and blubber about being fat and encouraged me to DO something...anything. So I did. Well, then there's Dr. Abkin...love him! He and his staff are so wonderful...and of course....thanks to him for doing such a great job! I mean, obviously it' sa great job since it's all working.....well! And AnnMarie, my nutritionist...she's so easy to talk to and so sweet. I like the support group too that she is part of running with Pat...
I can't neglect the work I did so long with my first therapist...who brought me to a good place so many times...helped me with the bullshit I carried around with me....for without that Michele....where would I be? worse off for sure. My family has been supportive, especially my sons.
And my dogs.
Mostly, I've played by the rules...and sometimes, like today, I snitch a bit too much and then I catch myself and WHOA! that's the old crappy habits sneaking back in....rmeember the pouchette doesn't like crappy eating.
How I will make cookies I don't know...they are my weak spot...so maybe I don't make too much. Just when I have to put them out. no pile up. :) I really don't have to have any around....so what if I don't make them? will anyone be disappointed? yes. will anyone drop dead because of it? no.
Okay, I think I've convinced myself...only make what I have to make...like for my kiddos in class I'll finish the gingerbread and the sugar cookies to ice in our cookie party, but that's it.
Family. A bunch of family and food fests. I shall remain true to myself. I'll offer to bring shrimp and maybe a sugar free dessert.
I am not planning any food orgies here...just lots of company..oh and that's why I usually had a lot of cookies. they don't need them either.
So....what else have I done for myself? Bought up some massages on sale...I've been celebrating each 20 lbs mark with a luxurious massage for my overally wellness...and i've upgraded from the YMCA to a very nice spa/gym. I love it.
I figured I wanted to feel good and enjoy feeling good and strong...so why not? I'm worth it and besides, no more tuition payments deserves a little celebration...it's MORE ABOUT me!