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6-19-10 A little over a month since my surgery...
Jun 19, 2010
So today I am weighing 30 pounds less than I did when I had my surgery and I am feeling okay about it. I don't know why I am not more excited. If I were on any other diet and had lost 30 pounds in one month I would be ecstatic. But I guess because I had surgery I am expecting to see faster results. I realize this is not right and I should not feel this way, I realize that 30 pounds is a lot of weight. But when you're weighing almost 300 pounds at the start of a surgery, 30 pounds is like a pound off of a skinny girl - it's barely noticeable. Today, I took a picture of myself at one month that I sent to Robin, my BFF. I will post it later. I swear I could not see any difference between that picture and my 297 lbs. picture. I feel it a bit in my clothes, but that's about it. I guess as time passes it will be more visible but I am just so impatient!! I want time to pass by quickly!! I feel that every day has 48 hours instead of 24!!!As far my eating goes, I am still completely on solid liquids/pureed foods. I just can't tolerate anything else. I have cheated and tried eating a piece of bread and threw it all up, it was a horrible feeling. Then about a week ago, I was making my son some chicken tenders and they looked so soft and delicious, I thought, "surely this will go down easy"... so I ate one, with a little bit of honey mustard sauce. It tasted sooooooooo good.... at first. About 15 minutes later... OH MY GOD!!! I thought I was going to die that night. I am not the type of person that throws up easily, it took me all night to throw up that small chicken tender. But I guess my stomach was pissed off at me because nothing else would stay down. I tried taking that awful protein liquid late at night and I threw that up as well. I went to bed scared to death, promising God I would not cheat and eat something I wasn't supposed to eat yet. The next morning I was able to take my liquid protein and my liquid soup but even stuff I am supposed to be able to eat by now like cottage cheese - doesn't go down well. Tuna, I have to pass it thru a food processor with lite may and I can eat it, but it doesn't go down smooth. I keep thinking I'm going to throw up, noo..... yesss.... noooo.... yesss..... My mom made me a lentil potaje, she passed it thru the blender and then the strainer and that goes down well. And lentils have lots of iron so I am glad that's not a real problem. I can also eat the Laughing Cow light cheese wedges, but I eat one and I'm full. I love that I'm full so quickly, but I hate when the food doesn't go down well, what an awful feeling...
On Thursday, I went to my first support group meeting. It was not what I was expecting. I am looking for a place that's like a Weight Watchers type of place. Not that they weigh you, but it should have a moderator and that moderator should introduce everyone there to everyone there. Then people who want to should talk about their successes, setbacks, etc. This was a room full of people sitting around. At some point there is a guest speaker, Thursday night's was a plastic surgeon. After he was finished we were left alone again until it was time for a raffle. Then you could buy the vitamins at half off and if you wanted to, you could speak at the seminar the doctor was having in the other room. It's not a bad thing, but I just wish it was more directed to the people in the room and their experiences, foods they eat, people they are interacting with - it wasn't personal enough for me. Would love to find something like that. Please email me if you know of one in the Dade/Broward area.
I guess that's about it for now. I am very happy I had this surgery. If you are reading this and are undecided I don't want to tell you what to do, but in my case I am so relieved to be over the one month mark. I am so happy I had this surgery and am so looking forward to continuing my weight loss journey. I don't reget one minute of it - even the HELL I went thru in recovery - if that is what I need to go thru to lose this weight then I accept it. Until next time OH'rs. See ya....
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About Me
Miami Lakes, FL
Location
40.3
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Surgery
05/17/2010
Surgery Date
May 27, 2010
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