Over 16 weeks post-op and 55 lbs gone forever!!

Sep 10, 2010

Well my fellow OH'ers it's been over 16 weeks now and I am 55 pounds thinner.  I am happy and sooooo wishing that time would pass by quickly.  I can't wait until December to see how much more I will have lost.  I am 55 pounds down and I have a long way to go.  I can't wait until I only have 30 or 40 pounds to lose and I can't wait to start looking good - I am still an obese woman.  I know I've lost weight and it feels great - but there's so much more to go and I am so impatient!!  I can't help it!!

Tomorrow I going to buy a girdle.  Several people have told me that if you wear a girdle it helps with the sagging and also helps you lose weight giving your body a nicer form.  There is a place very close to where I live where they design it to fit your body and continue to contour it as you lose weight.  I am excited to go check it out. 

I am able to eat a lot more things than before, but all of it in very small amounts.  I get full very fast and if I eat too fast it makes me eat too much.  If I eat too much, I get sick and throw up.  I mean, my stomach literally hurts, I can't hold it in.  I want to stay like this forever.  I don't ever want to eat a full plate of food again.  I don't care that I have to drink small sips of water and that I have to wait for a while before I drink anything if I've just eaten.  I don't care that I get thirsty after I eat but have to wait to drink something or I will get sick - I love that I have this tiny appetite.  I love that I can take 3 or 4 bites of something and feel like I've eaten 3 or 4 plates of it. 

I don't have the dumping that other people have described.  I can eat sweets without a problem, but as with everything else, it fills me up so I have to eat only a little bit.  In any case, I do try to stay away from the sweets - much as I love them....

I'm trying to do the treadmill an average of 3 to 4 times a week - I hate exercising.... It's amazing the discussions I have with my own self on the way to they gym.  How can I be arguing with my own self?  It's hilarious!!!  But I know it's the only way I will lose all of this weight and I have a lot to lose.  So I do it and afterwards I feel very glad I did it.  My friends and family are very encouraging.  They all make very flattering comments and it makes me feel great.  But when I look in the mirror I still see a huge woman and I just want to make myself smaller so that I don't dread looking at myself in the mirror anymore.

I finally changed my avatar!!  I became godmother to my cousin's son last week and there were a few pictures of me that weren't awful.  So I took one of the better ones and did a close up.  I'm still not a fan of having my picture taken, but this one is a bit better than what I had before - you all tell me what you think? 

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