10 weeks after my Surgery!

Jul 24, 2010

So here I am... On Monday, 7/26, it will be 10 weeks since my surgery.  I can't believe it.  I weigh 254 pounds, that's 43 pounds lost.  I am starting to notice it in my clothes a little but I am soooooo impatient.  I guess because I have so much to go I am just so ready to really start seeing the difference.  I started on this journey at almost 300 pounds so in order for me to really start feeling the change, I am going to have to lose about another 50 pounds.  That just makes me a bit sick - because the first pounds come off easier but everyone says it gets harder as you go along.  Here I am at 254 and still so much to go.... I know I sound like a downer but that's just how I feel - so impatient!  So ready to start enjoying looking at myself in the mirror.  I've lost 43 pounds and I catch a glimpse of myself in a window and I'm still so huge!!!  AAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!

In other news, I am able to eat a few more things, but I get full very fast.  I take 2 or 3 bites and have to stop.  I love that.  I find I have the most problems when I eat too fast - old habits die hard.  It's hard for me to chew the food so many times, I just want to swallow it.  And then chewing it so much kind of grosses me out....  but if I don't chew it enough, it makes me sick later.  And if I eat it too fast, it makes me sick later.  And if I drink water too soon after I eat, it makes me sick later.  And OMG I am the burping queen!!! lol... my goodness!!! lol....

I still haven't tried to eat steak, but I did try to eat a piece of a cheeseburger and that was awful, just awful.  I got sooooo sick...  So I haven't tried that again.  I can eat fish but just a few pieces and I haven't tried chicken yet.  What I stick to the most is yogurt, crackers with peanut butter, cheddar cheese and V8.  What I miss the most is taking big gulps of water when I'm thirsty, I feel like I can never quench my thirst with those little sips!!

Physically I feel good.  I've been going to the gym and doing the treadmill for a half an hour.  I'm trying to do that 3 to 4 times a week - I am very lazy, but I am trying to psych myself into doing it because I know it is important.  Any tips, words of encouragment, advice, are always welcome!

I want time to go by fast.  I want to close my eyes and have it be December so I can be closer to my goal weight and look better than I do now.  I am so grateful to have had this surgery but so very impatient to get thin!!!  It's driving me crazy!!

I went to another support group meeting on the 15th of this month.  It was better than the first one and it's always nice to see people who had the surgery 3 and 4 years ago and still look and feel great.  That helps me.  But I hate it when they ask me when I'm going to have the surgery.  Of course they do.  They still see a fat girl.  I can't wait for the day when I get asked how much weight I've lost and get told how good I look - I WANT IT NOW!!!! 

I posted 2 pictures I took about a week ago.  I will take more in a few more weeks and post those as well.  In the meantime I will continue to drink the protein - 4X a day, yuck.  It doesn't get any better with time - lol...  And take my vitamins and keep on walking....  and who knows????  Time might go faster as the weeks go by!!!  Take care OHers - best of luck in each of your personal journeys!!!

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