One Year Surgiversary!

Apr 17, 2009

My One Year Surgiversary,

What have I learned.

I have learned that although I have a smaller tummy, I still need to work on old habits. The other day, I cut off a peice of cheese...I got about 2/3s of it down, and didn't really want anymore, but noticed, I took another bite. Why would I do this? Old habit! I gave the rest to the dogs, but it did open my eyes as to the fact that I am still a person that needs to work on food issues.

I have learned that nobody is perfect. I can forgive myself when I am not working my tool the way I should. I am not perfect, but I do pretty darn good most days.

I have learned that life is a lot more fun when the focus isn't all about the food. Family get togethers are fun now...because now it is about catching up with everyone...Not about what food is going to be there, how much can I get in, is so and so going to make that awesome________! I am more interested in the people rather than the food.

I have learned to be sexy again...I enjoy dressing up, and playing with hubby, not just in the bedroom, but in our everday lives. We laugh a lot more now. We tease! Being intimate is much easier for me to initiate now that I don't feel self consciencious about my weight. I might be almost 46 years old, but my husband still thinks I am hot!

I have learned that my opinion matters. Although I have never been one to be aggressive (unless you REALLY piss me off), I let myself become passive. I would just go along with the flow because I didn't want to draw attention to myself in anyway. I now feel that I am less passive, and much more assertive. I am not afraid to speak my mind on issues that matter to me. I don't push my values or opinions on anyone, because that is not in my nature, and I don't believe we really win doing this, but I will stand up for what I believe, and I wont change my mind just because someone does not agree with my thinking.

I have learned to accept the scale...No matter what the numbers say, I will not let them reflect how I feel. How I feel comes from the inside, and I refuse to let the scale rule my feelings.

I have learned that I love my tape measure much more than the scale. And the tape measure is a much better reflection of how far I have come.

I have learned that support garments are my friend. And until I get the exersize bug, they will probably always be a big part of my wardrobe.

I have learned that it is possible to eat like a normal person. All those years I spent denying myself, because I could not control my portions, is behind me. Now if I want it, I have it...I just don't have to have ALL of it.

I have learned...and I believe this is the most important lesson...I have learned to love myself.

For those of you that are just thinking about getting the sleeve, think about how this might change your life. Think about things that you want to do, but cannot physically, or mentally do them...think about what life you want to be living, and then think about how short of a time, one year really is!!! In one year, you can go from living your life, hiding in a shell you don't want, to blossoming like a butterfly, actually LIVING your life.

For those of you that are early out in this journey...Wow!!!! You are really in for the ride of your life!!!

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